Glad you’re here! Don’t give up. We’re here for you.
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Worst part about riding in the rain. Bike cleaning. I have 2 that need to be cleaned at the moment.
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Sobriety for me means that I’m simply transitioning back into that same young, content, confident, laid back, authentic and intelligent woman I naturally was before I thought alcohol was necessary to transform me into those things. Sobriety for me means waking up in the morning with energy and ambition. Sobriety to me is sitting down to plan out my productivity by goal setting and execution. Sobriety to me looks like sitting down and drafting out a budget that I continuously review everyday. It means logging and keeping track of my daily spending. It means saving money before I spend it and tackling those large goals (the ones that scare the shit out of me). Sobriety to me means linking up with close friends for drinks and ordering a soda water with lime, having a great conversation, laughing, and enjoying my company without feeling like I’m missing out on anything. This time I have decided that there is nothing I want or need from alcohol that I can’t exude from within. Sobriety to me means there are bad days but I deal with them with a clear mind. Sobriety means that my good days are peaceful. Sobriety to me is the foundational building block to the woman I am creating. I am no longer searching for myself but I am creating myself. There is nothing to find because I’ve always been here despite me not always being present. Sobriety to me means that I get to live and not only exist, it means that when I walk I’m leaving footprints behind to keep conscious of where I came from and as a reminder of what direction I am going. I am sobriety and sobriety is me.
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Checking In: 47. I wish every day could be like today (mentally, emotionally and with my sweet kiddos). Hello and goodnight everyone 
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I couldn’t agree more 
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Unfortunately after 34 days I had to reset and am currently on day 2 almost 3. I felt pretty crappy about the relapse but I know that I just need to keep taking one day at a time. I went to AA tonight and I plan on going at least 3x a week so I can maintain my sobriety while surrounding myself with the fellowship and steps. I have court tomorrow morning and I’m feeling like I’m going to be sick from the anxiety, I’m praying it all goes well. I’ve always been a victim of injustice so I’m nervous as all heck that I will be that victim again. Doing the best I can with what I have.
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Day 0. No words. Shame on me
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Day 57. Not much to report. Mentally preparing for the music fest this weekend. I’ve let it be known to my husband and my festwife I don’t want to drink this weekend. So the only pressure I’ll be getting is from myself. Bc I do know myself and I know I’ll start try to reason with myself. This will be my biggest hurdle yet. Gotta clear that trail leg and keeping going to the next.
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You are still here and that is good. It shows you are not giving up and willing to share. What do you think you need to do to keep this from happening?
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Today was my 11th day!
Yesterday was tough because I was beginning to get sick so I took antibiotics starting last night.
Feeling better today and am glad I didn’t procrastinate the medicine.
Noted that illness was a trigger to relapse so I used my tools to cope without abusing substances.
Hungry, angry, lonely, tired/thirsty, stressed/sick…focused on alleviating these factors today and was on track.
Focusing on activities that are important to me makes time fly by.
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Yes I will come and ask for help…
Day 1 checkin.
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- Thankfully my desire to numb my anxious/over active mind has subsided. I was trying to push myself so much to distract the loss of a few things in my life but I guess I need to just surrender and feel the feelings…relax and be easy on myself for a while.
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Glad you didn’t just quit. No shame in starting over. You’re safe here.
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You can do this!! Making the decision to not drink before you go is a good idea. Stay strong! It’s worth it.
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No shame here. Just take the next right step & do the next right thing. One day at a time.
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- Coffee. Two days of work left before holidays. A week till I’ll fly away for a bit. In the meantime I hope to have electricity restored to 75% of my place which has been out since last Thursday. Screw up upon screw up from the guy who caused this (my new upper floor neighbour renovating) and the corporation I rent from with neither taking responsibility. At least I’m not triggered by all this. What good would getting drunk or high or stoned do? I love the sober and clean me. I need my wits to yell at my neighbour and the corporation’s customer service. Have a good day all. Clean and sober. Love from Amsterdam.
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That’s a long time to go without electricity! Hope it gets worked out soon. Well done not letting that be a trigger for you!
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Day 379 
Forgot I would stop drinking coffee today 🤦 So drank one this morning, but I will not have more.
@Rob68 do you have your day 1 without coffee too?
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Checking in.
Day: 114 sober.
I was talking to my neighbor last night, I live in an apartment building, and she mentioned to me that the miserable neighbor above me told her to “Watch what she says to me because I talk to others about what she says.”
This is rather bothersome because I keep to myself and couldn’t be bothered with discussing other people’s issues when I have my own life to deal with. I don’t lower myself to that level.
Some people have nothing better to do than to start rumors about others.
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I reassured my neighbor that what she had heard is in fact untrue and that I value her friendship and wouldn’t break her trust in that way.
I’m sorry guys if this seems minor in the grand scheme of things but I am learning that not everyone has to like me and I can be okay with that. I have been a ‘people pleaser’ my whole life.
I will just continue to keep to myself and let others say whatever they want. If my neighbor can’t see the truth for what it is, it is her loss not mine. I am quite happy with my life right now and I refuse to let anyone deter me from my goals.
Thank you for listening everyone. It feels better to get this out rather than keep it bottled up and stew about it. Not worth my time or effort.
Have a great sober Tuesday all. Sending hugs and strength to those who need it today.
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