Found the quote below quite inspirational and true with my journey. I was so reliant on pain pills it was unbelievable, I know I’ve still got a long way to go and accept it but the way your body can handle certain pains with simple steps without reaching for a box of pills is amazing. Working your mindset/addictive brain takes time but so much more benifical for your health
Scatty weird dreams but slept a bit at least
Up and little one to school, super happy as mufti day no uniforms daddy? You know this lil girl lol
Sit ups, squats, stretches & twists, kettle bells, plank & core all upped and reps galore x1 hour
Vinyasa Yoga session x20 minute
Breathing Deep Calm exercise, finding this really useful twice daily and added to my routine
Some meditation to unwind
Nice hot bath to soothe
Off for a nice walk before lunch & get the little one later on etc
Life has been super busy and emotions have been up and down from many various events. The one thing I can honestly say is being sober really allows me to process things that have been buried a long time and while it can be hard it’s also great to feel it and release it finally. It comes in layers and is a process for me but it’s one I am thankful to have happening. I didn’t realize how much I’ve held in! Lots of releasing and letting go is happening right now.
Tomorrow I’m traveling for work for the rest of the week and I had this thought of drinking in the hotel room. I live alone so it’s certainly not about that, it’s likely old habits, patterns and muscle memories. The good news is I am not my thoughts and I absolutely will not act of them but acknowledging them & letting them go seems to go with my theme lately! My future life will continue to thank me for all the work I am doing with breaking down my own barriers and seeing I can always choose to do things differently.
Look what I received sent across the globe. Have to admit that I almost shed a tear… @aircircle Ariel, major thanks for your words and this chip. I’m moved
Hi @MandiH!! Nice to “see” you thanks, you make me blush. Answering your question… today it’s the understanding that I will always carry this disease / addiction with me. It has left it’s marks on me, but I’m able, entitled and obliged to live a good life.
It’s true though, there is no finish line to recovery , so there is time limit to how quickly you get there it’s an everyday way of life, as long as you dont pick up you are getting there.,its that simple .just keep plugging away
Today will be day 8.
It’s a low hum I feel.
Steady and constant
Annoying and yet helps you to fapll asleep
Suddenly you just drift in a peaceful trace with a smile on your face as you sink into the covers
Day 52. Not tempted to drink, but man…the emotional roller coaster is insane. I don’t know if it is paws or just feeling all the things I would typically drown with a bottle of wine. Turns out I don’t like my job, my house or even my cat😂. But I am sober and grateful? What do you do when you think everyone else wishes you were still drinking bc you were more pleasant to be around?
Also: going on vacation with another family (my son’s best friends family) over Thanksgiving week. Made the plans long before sobriety was in the radar, and I’m just not sure how to handle the whole “why aren’t you drinking”. I’ve already used so many excuses with them over the last 52 days. But to admit alcoholism to my sons bff’s parents is too difficult to think about.
Hope everyone has a good day/night and please know how much reading your posts helps!
I did it, 90 days sober and pretty proud of myself. The support I’ve gotten here and around my home community has been invaluable. I told all my friends, relatives and acquaintances I’ll no longer be drinking alcohol. Everyone was happy for me even the owners of 2 local watering holes very close to my house. I wasn’t a loud, troublesome argumentative type of drunk, but a sloppy, incoherent slurry fall asleep at the table drunk. I’d wake up with unexplainable bumps and bruises I was told from falling and bumping into everything as I staggered home.
Look at me now, no hangovers or blackouts, I’m happy and confident and can actually leave the house without Dutch courage. I’ve found so many activities to fill my day there isn’t enough time for all of them . My skin is glowing and actually walking with a swagger, all confident and not stinky from alcohol sweat and stale tobacco (I’ve quit smoking too).
The more I read the posts here the more I believe I’ve got this in the bag, thanks y’all.
Sorry about the situation with your dad @SoberWalker it’s rather sad. @SteppingStones my condolences on your grandma’s passing.
Congrats on your 1 year of sobriety @Deadman and @Fireweed, keep doing what you’re doing.
Have a brilliant sober day everyone, love y’all.
thanks, you make me blush. Answering your question… today it’s the understanding that I will always carry this disease / addiction with me. It has left it’s marks on me, but I’m able, entitled and obliged to live a good life.
thanks y’all.
