End of Day 11
Got a kind text message from someone in AA. I needed it. My digestive system is a mess the pass few days, is that normal? Still grumpy-ish. My mood is getting better. Still too many sweets. I really really need a day off to stay in and hibernate. But… still here …still sober. 10 min till 9pm and ready to sleep. Goodnight all!
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Thank you.
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Feeling a bit better today. More present.
Thumbing through some Laing this morning.
Ever feel like this?
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Ah 
, a lady after my own heart!
Exactly this. Nice one.
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Doesn’t that feel great. Well done on another day. If you read this when you wake up. GO ROCK THE WORLD, it’s been waiting for you.
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Day 27.
Morning check in.
Not much to report this morning. Feeling good but not great (which seems to fluctuate from day to day). I think dark and cold coming is definitely messing with my brain.
Happy sober Thursday everyone!!!
I am definitely working to get to the weekend.
Or
For Loverboy fans “Working for the Weekend”
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Aaaaaand a daily Stoic, for good measure.
“Never forget that the universe is a single living organism possessed of one substance and one soul, holding all things suspended in a single consciousness and creating all things with a single purpose that they might work together spinning and weaving and knotting whatever comes to pass” — Marcus Aurelius
Incidentally, this is how I think of my HP.
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So glad you are reaching out for help! I know you’re struggling but hang in there. It won’t be this way forever.
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Day 29 for me here and I am definitely just working for the weekend. But the weekend brings its own set of challenges. Just taking it one day at a time. Hope you have a lovely day.
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Me too, something like that…
Daily stoic… imagining that as a newspaper lol
I understand what you’re saying. I haven’t mentioned to my coworkers more about not drinking other than it was becoming a problem for me. I feel like a lot of them and a lot of people in my family would be considered alcoholic of they actually stopped to examine their relationship with alcohol. There’s a sense of shame attached to that label here. I feel it. I haven’t fully embraced the term myself for myself. I don’t know why. Maybe because I’m still new to sobriety as a way of life and I’m just trying to figure out what my actual relationship is with alcohol. I quit before it got completely out of hand because my husband asked me to. If he hasn’t asked and I lived alone, I’m not sure I would have stopped. Right now I’m sober mostly for the others in my life. Not for me. I’m still coming to terms with alcohol being as evil as it is. I don’t drink now because I’d be ashamed if I did. I do see benefits - like remembering conversations I have in the evenings with my teenage girls. And not having to go to work hungover. My therapist and I are continuing to work on all of this. But maybe I do need to go to a meeting or two and just learn more about all of this. My drinking really ramped up after my husband’s affair. Prior to that I would have considered myself someone who could maintain control. I drank socially and was fine. But the last few years I started using it to cover my pain. I guess until I deal with that pain I have to kick alcohol out of my life. Because once I start drinking I don’t stop until I run out of booze or pass out. I just wonder if I can ever go back to having alcohol in my life like I did before. Probably not. And that makes me sad if I’m being honest. Is it OK to be sad about giving up something you once enjoyed? Really I’m more conflicted than anything. Lots of inner conflict to work through.
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@crystalclear
Hang in there, I am doing the same. Already planning early bike rides on Saturday and Sunday early morning to make sure I have to get up early. Keeps my mind focused on staying sober.
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Thanks 
my fave is by aulus gellius
“Spirit increases
Vigor grows
Through a wound”
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When I was 13, I discovered a cool way to secretly transport books from one place to another.
At the time, they called it a “backpack”. I don’t know what they would call it now… “Laptop Satchel” maybe?
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Day 4. Damn Dodgers. smh
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In the beginning, I had to stay sober by the hour. I drank all day every day. So every hour I could not take a drink was a big win for a drunk like me.
This gradually turned into staying sober 24 hours at a time. That’s as big as I can go. Today. I can stay sober today.
But in the spirit of counting the hours…
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Congratulations. Very impressive. I’m going to check out your post history (if I can), to find more about your incredible journey 
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OK. This is going to take a while @Gabe.G
3.6K posts since May 29, 2017 
I think I’ll start with the 33 Topics you created 
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