Haven’t heard of that therapy but I think it’s great that you’ve decided to seek out some external help. Cheering you on!
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Thank you!! I need to actually write down a schedule though. Right now it’s all just thoughts and ideas which I won’t stick with if I don’t have something proper planned. A To Do list is on my To Do list. :)
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220 days today! Happy to be here and be sober! I’m working on my 8th step today and its not that bad! I was terrified but honestly its getting easier the more I own it.
Have a great day guys! Stay strong! 
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Woo-Hoo!!! 220 days is awesome!! So happy for you.
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Have you been away for awhile?? Warm hugs and congrats on 220 
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Day 24 done and done. Not long until a month sober
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Day 205.
Although there have been some moments in the past few days where I’ve craved, it’s significantly not as much. Not getting high, but my awareness is coming back. Addiction, relationships, reality is all starting to make more sense with each day of sobriety.
I honesty feel that my addiction is slowly losing his grip on me and the power that he has in my life. Knowing that all it takes is one reset and I’ll be enslaved deeper than ever before.
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I don’t know 
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Day 12 and it’s Friday morning!!! Woohoo.
Being in Asia I must be in a totally different time zone than most of you. So, I’ll throw this out there that if anyone ever needs help while everyone else is probably sleeping… I’m here. LOL.
So ready for the weekend. Working today but hey… it’s Friday. Tonight I video with my family (parents) back in the US and was thinking about telling them but I dont know… I might wait till I have 1 month sober.
Still sober. Life in Recovery is a beautiful thing. This community here has helped me so much, I am very grateful.
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Hello I am here I feel a little down today but today marks my 5 months sober !! Thank god. Hope you are all doing well
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- Therapy was a bit heavy. The male friend and I are over. Haven’t started the Campral yet. Need to soon. Enjoyed AA yesterday… saw my old Sponsor and told her I would reach out again very soon. Going back tomorrow. Feeling emotional/weepy. Where’s the confetti for my pity party?
Night all…
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Drove pass a liquor store today and just felt… nothing
I had an epiphany. I thought to myself "wow, I looked into that store and felt no desire to go in, I don’t feel like I’m missing out on anything when others are drinking around me, I go all day without an urge to drink (even during difficult situations). I felt like I actually had power over alcohol. This normalcy of being in my regular state of mind, comfortably feels so empowering. I actually prefer to opt out of drinking or smoking or doing anything that isn’t “boring”. I like being boring and relaxing, working hard, being focused, and doing me. I’m okay with just being me unaltered.
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Sorry for that, Ashley. You still kick ass and you are continuing to take the next right step even in the midst of the discomfort. I feel that growth happening. 
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Continue to be vigilant. On the good days it’s easy. When I start feeling that I’ve got power over my addiction is the moment that alarm bells should be going off because there’s an imminent fall about to happen.
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Still Thursday night here in Texas! So happy for you making it to day 12!! Keep going.
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Thank you for that. I’ll keep my antennas up. I just have really associated strong feelings of disgust and shame with the consumption of alcohol. The better things gradually are without it is strengthening those feelings of disgust and disdain. Just like we’ve hardwired our subconscious to associate good times and fun and relaxation with a glass of poison…I literally think about it as a glass of poison. I might as well drink bleach if I’m going to put that shit back in in my body.
I did have a random day a couple days ago where I romanticized a cocktail or the idea of one but I also didn’t actually want a drink either. I have had to really create an extreme association to alcohol and poison to make myself not want to have it.
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Sounds like you’re making some great realizations over there. It’s important to treat yourself with compassion. Putting poison in our bodies is the opposite of that.
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That’s a beautiful and magical place, isn’t it?!?!
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Emily!!! Omg, this post just made my night. SO proud of you!!!
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