I just had my first adderall craving since stopping. A few alcohol ones here and there over the past 59 days, but this was a first. It was fleeting, but I did notice it. Work is brutal today and I’m dealing with this bulldog of a coworker who is just not relenting on this one thing that I am very much done dealing with. High stress all day…can feel it in my chest, and my head is pounding.
Suddenly, my brain whispered to me: “God, this would be so much easier…and probably enjoyable…if you were all sped up”.
Then, as quick as it happened, it was gone. Tomorrow will be two months free of everything, so you can be damn sure I’m not relenting. I’ve worked too hard for it.
Just a reminder to watch your thoughts, friends. Sometimes those whispers in the undercurrent of your consciousness can be sneaky.