My self care has been pretty top notch lately and I feel it! I haven’t been eating sugar and stuff that’s bad for me. I’ve been doing self massages nightly. Reiki on myself nightly. Dry brushing and taking hydrotherapy showers. I’m doing stretching and or yoga each night. I’m REALLY focused inward and I have to say life without the noise of the outside world is really good. I love helping and working on others but there comes a time when you know you need it too and I’ve finally been there so I’ve done it. The shift I feel inside of me these days is really pretty amazing compared to how I felt not that long ago! Everything was driving me insane for a while until I realized what I needed to do. I’ve released soooo much anger and resentment I held on to because it doesn’t do any good. It just has told me what I needed to hear and I’m listening. I’m not trying to make myself feel good about the things that don’t feel good anymore because you tend to not feel good about something for a reason. I’m not feeling like a victim or stuck anymore. I’ve made major shifts this last year to get to this place to make sure I don’t lose everything I’ve worked so hard for not only for my son but for me now. But lots and lots of patience has been required. I had to start looking at this as an opportunity to grow in such adversity instead of feeling like it was torture. I’ve been finding peace where I used to think it was completely impossible. And if I can do that now, it’s a massive skill I’ll be able to use anytime in life! I’ve realized I have made the decisions I have in the past pretty much solely because of financial reasons so I’ve got my art stuff going and I’ve made big strides toward being truly independent. Not comfortably yet but I have faith I will be ok. Still a work in progress but it’s been a great shift for me! Self love has been key to all I’m doing now and changing. It’s showing to others too even when I feel like I look run down, I hear I just have this presence about me that radiates again. And I really do feel it on the inside! I just realized I could feel down and self conscious because I’m within a few pounds of the highest I’ve ever ever weighed but I don’t at all actually, I feel great regardless! Now I’m off to conquer day 286! Happy sober FRIDAY all!!