Day 26. Struggled last two days. Staying at the beach with access to alcohol. I would normally have drank but I had to abstain this time. Felt like something was missing and feel awkward But I got to learn to be in company without booze. I not given into the craving. I have my daughter here and I’ve been more present with her so I am going to focus on that. Trying to look ahead and not just think of the first drink. Thinking one then another then … the curtains come down. Have a good day.
Was a difficult week: not in craving or wanting to drink, it was all about emotions. Last months, before i got sober, i recognized a pattern that triggers my drinking hugely: the week before i get my periods (PMS week), i drank more and got more black outs. I know there is a relation between PMS and excessive drinking. I am an emo-drinking woman. Last week emotions hit me hard, sometimes without reason, some related to the past ( memories of my father was violent when he drank), related to loneliness ( i pretend i am a strong woman and can do everything on my own), sadness ( my mom who does not pass by " just to pass by" but when there’s a reason to: i feel not seen) and so on… i had no urge to drink on them but let the emotions be there.
Don’t know if other women can relate?
Whish you all a wonderfull sober weekend and sooooo thankfull i have you all as my supporting " family"️:four_leaf_clover:️ hug
Checking in on the morning of day 168. Stayed up late yesterday chatting with two people who were out drinking. Can’t help but wonder if they woke up with a hangover today. Well, I am glad about my choices because I woke up feeling great and ready to start my Saturday! Happy weekend everybody!
Day 226 of my new and vastly improved life. I’ve just come from. 7:30am AA meeting where I was blown away by the love and gratitude in the room. London is having a pretty tough time right now but to witness such love and hope is something quite wonderful.
Thank you x
Day 20 people as exciting as that is…still taking iy 1 day at a time. Have a great w’end everyone
Day 64. Woke up feeling very grateful to hearing the birds chirping away.
I haven’t been able to be on this forum too much past few days, work is extra busy lately, but so very thankful to get on when I can and read through. You all such an inspiration and great support. Love you all xo
Wishing everyone a beautiful day. Stay strong and diligent.
Day 16 checking in. Vacation starts today with my son and his wife and three grandkids, don’t see them very often, they’re a ten hour drive. It’s hard to be depressed surround grandkids:innocent:
Day 314 here…had an unexpected rationalization last night that i could have a mini relaspe and recover fine and start again. I pressed on and remained sober. I have been so busy recently I havent focused on me much. Making some changes.
So glad to hear you stayed strong @marsha over 300 days what an achievement!!
Checking in. Day 158. I will be doing two hours of volunteer work this morning then the rest of the day just relaxing at home. Happy Sober Saturday everyone.
Why do you feel like you would recover quickly?
Day 156. Home with kids. I’ve been home alone with them all week, school’s out and camp didnt start yet. I am a fairly driven person and I have moments of anxiety about all the work I’m not doing. But mostly it’s really nice. They are sweethearts. Noisy, messy, chaotic sweethearts. I am also doing a lot of yoga at home. And I am sober all the time. Yay!! Happy weekend everyone.
Totally relate to the whole mass of feelings. I think many of us have got ysed to drinking at our feelings, including sadness, anger, and pms. It’s hard to learn just to feel them. But its so worth it. Great job doing that.
Day 104 here guys. Couldn’t be happier to NOT be making a cocktail the second I woke up
No logical reason. It was my fuzzy logic that somehow seems to think it would be a quick recovery.
SMH…we have to keep diligent in our recovery.
Thanks! I am much better today. Crazy thoughts last night
Oh ok. I know that “logic” but in my heart I know most likely I wouldn’t bounce back so easily from a relapse. We really do have to be diligent
I agree…the rational Marsha knows the idea was nonsensical
Happy sober Saturday everyone!!! I'm checking in, Day 56! Have a great day!
69 today. Flew out to Utah to see my daughter and cant even see her. alcohol has messed up my life. lonely and hurt. but thankful still sober for yall! love.