40 days is pretty awesome. You should be proud. We all go back and forth. The fact your thinking about it and making an effort is a big deal. For me, things got easier and my brain slowly rewired itself after about 3 months, as far as anxiety and dealing with my own skin. Hard to explain, PAWS, post acute withdrawal syndrome, is different for everyone and not everyone has it. Just letting you know it gets so much freaking easier with time and the best of luck to you.