I feel like I'm only 34 and have had a lucky escape, my drinking was completely out of control and something clicked to get me where I am today. I had abstained many times before knowing in my head I would drink again, it was just a matter of when I would be foolish enough to let that happen. I am using my drinking days as a lesson as to how bad life could be if I followed that path, I had valuable insight which convinced me sobriety is the life for me. I am lucky.
Now I feel at peace, life is good, I focus on sobriety and not in an obsessive way, it's just how I am living my life and I am happy.
I am no longer controlled by that horrible mental obsession of planning my life around alcohol and where and when I would get my next drink with no amount of alcohol ever seeming to be enough once I started.
I am becoming more and more reliable and able to help people without seeking anything in return. People are noticing a difference in me but can't quite put their finger on it but it's all positives.
AA provided me with a recovery program, it's not a cult or sect or telling me what God I should follow, it is full of great people who have discovered a solution to recover from the epidemic alcohol is creating in our society. I am allowed to be me, I only need to desire to be sober to qualify and the help is there.
It has saved my life and given me a new way of life and I am forever grateful.