Checking in: Day 23.
Good morning all ! 1 more week before my sober month. Feeling very anxious and a bit scared about it. Since i’ve decided to quit alchool and coke and started going to meetings last year, I’ve relapsed about 5 times and everytime just after 1 or 2 months sober. Almost like its my way of rewarding myself for this achievement - ironic i know… but this how these little monkeys playing drums in my head win every single time. Well now I have 1 extra tool: this forum; your guys to help me keep from sliding. I am more determined then ever; won’t fall into complaisancy again - not this time. I am tired of hurting myself. I need to succeed. I will keep focus!
Have a great Saturday all.