No, it was easier when I was drinking. The alcohol helped to take the edge off of a sense of self-loathing that rarely abates.
I suppose that i’s better, good for my health and all that, so I suppose that there’s that benefit to be derived.
But as far as the working goes, well, that’s my crutch, I suppose. I’ve been working 7 days a week for going on 20 years now, though with a few days off, most years.
I don’t feel like a robot, most of the time I just try not to feel at all.
Usually doesn’t work half-well.