Checking in. Day 4.
Found a good quote in my 12 step book today.
The only requirement to begin recovery is the desire to stop participating in the addiction. If your desire is small and inconsistent today, don’t worry. It will grow!
My desire is small & inconsistent because I minimize the consequences. It’s so easy to forget how bad things after a binge day, yet so easy to remember the temporary pleasure of acting out. I’m glad to know that my resolve to be sober will get stronger with time. I’m guessing a lot of that is because I’ve rewired my brain to value the wrong things by participating in my addiction, with time my brain should heal. Kind of like how your perspectives in life change as you age from adolescent to adult.
Here’s to another happy sober day.