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It’s just a matter of getting used to it. I teach classes using it and it just takes practice. Getting in a rythm with the other people is key lol
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Thank you so much 
hope you are doing well!
obviously. I was talking about Donna. 
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Day 2. Got lots of extra rest and I feel good today.
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Checking in on day 1.
I’ve been on and off alcohol for the last couple of years, but recently I’ve been using COVID as an excuse to drink again…and drink a lot.
The slippery slope has been getting real slick and all of the bad is starting to creep back in. My anxiety and uncontrollable mind are back in full swing, and the depression has been creeping back too. I find myself waking up in the middle of almost every night with a feeling of total crushing dread.
Last night what started out as 1 Caesar in the sun ended up as 8 tequilas, total wastedness, regretful conversations with my husband, and waking up to a severe hangover and depression. I am shaky. I am sad. And I feel so much regret for letting myself down…
I know in the coming days that I will start to feel better… I have that to look forward to.
I just want to be done. I want to feel better. I want my spirit back.
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Checking in day 97.
Praying and praying. Then praying some more. Struggling with emotions as things pile up. Screaming neighbors, treatment being delayed. My roommates dont want me on the lease to a possible new place. And I quote you would be under us. Equal ground would be more preferred. If that can’t happen should do my damdest to keep my own place then. Right? No desire to use but emotionally relapsing is no fun either. Doesn’t help that i slept poorly. Haven’t eaten or showered. Did my readings prayed and still am. Listening to tunes while trying to figure it out. They are freinds in life recovery and roommates. Going to work it out to the best of my abilities ty for listening. God bless. 
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pretty certain i will be checking in again later today.
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feeling really good today
i havnt had cravings yet and i love that im sober and comfortable. i woke up very grogy though. figures for day one.
today could be the 1st day of the rest of my life; just gotta walk the walk, i do plenty of talk the talk.
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Day 276. Woke up full of energy, smashed my workout this morning. Currently crushing work. Ready for the weekend, think I’m going to clean and paint all my weight plates… of course pics will happen.
Have a strong day!!!
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it’s good to see you still going strong bud. Respect.
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Day 28! I slept 10 hours straight last night! And after only 1 day of dieting I woke up feeling skinny again. Which goes to show that my mental state and the way I feel about myself has A LOT to do with how tired I am. In the past I would have taken adderall to power through my day or to lose weight. That sounds like such a disaster to me now. (130 days without adderall!) I am so glad I can listen to my body now. Skipped my work out yesterday and rested. I just needed some sleep. Today is going to be a good day! Hope you guys all get some rest too because it feels great.
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Thanks a ton. Just taking it one day at a time, and becoming stronger than I was yesterday.
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Checking in sober! I’m freaking sad today. But not in a woe is me way. In just a way where what once was a possibility has gone. I’m not sad because I felt I could do anything differently. I tried. Maybe it was too late. And I would understand that. Even if I learned my lesson too late, it was learned at least.
Stop contemplating life, and just live it. If you make the wrong decision, at least you’ve learned something vs perpetually staying in a moment of indecisiveness.
I put myself out there and it was a leap of faith I am blessed to have. Now I just have a ticket to another country to figure out what to do with lol maybe I’ll travel alone… Which instantly just made me think of a song by one of my favorite artists, Beck. Maybe that’s a sign.
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Totally get how you feel. Such an awful feeling… so scary how slippy that slope gets… but as i did , you back here and know you will feel better in a day or so… you can do this… i am up to day 11 again… keep strong…
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My first couple of weekends were hard to think about. But taking one day at a time i woke up each Monday proud… you got your planned so its about sticking to it… and enjoying… addiction is a quick win with rubbish outcomes… sobriety brings pride. Memories and good feelings… you can do it 
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Mooching about at home checked emails only got a 2nd interview next Tuesday… more excited that i still can impress someone, than being in work again hard to explain. I was actually jumping around my house in excitement…
@Jane.c keep checking in thats how i felt. I not worked since Jan so understand about more time available to analyse my sobriety it bothers me. I dont have faith in me. Please keep strong x
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Hello may i ask what are you cooking?
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Wow my perfect view
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Honestly? Divine intervention and guidance.
I regularly ask for guidance these days as I’m trying new things and the day after I did this last week, someone sent me a message about some online AA meetings. I had always wondered if I should do the steps as it seemed like it would be a good thing to do so I asked if any of the meetings were step meetings and said it seems silly after 2 years sober to think maybe I should do them. He responded saying he didn’t start his steps until he was 18 months in and it completely changed his life! Then he said he’d have his wife reach out to me.
When I first got sober I went to 4 AA meetings with a girlfriend of mine but I went for her, not for me so I didn’t stay with it. I thought I didn’t “need” it where I already had a few months under my belt by then, but I sure did find power in the rooms with people who had been sober for decades.
Well, at the first AA meeting I went to, I saw this lady come in and I just instantly liked her. I said to myself after she spoke that day, I like her even more and if I ever did the steps, she’s who I would want to do them with. Well, that just so happens to be this guys wife who reached out to me 2 years later. We all recognized the obvious signs immediately and I started working with her the very next day! Plus, I can do it online now, which is freaking incredible because I’m honestly a homebody.
Already one week in I’ve had SOOOOOO many ah-ha moments! My character is where the work is still needed, even after 2 years sober, so I totally got out of my own way and handed myself over to the program. My best thinking on my own doesn’t even remotely compare to the wisdom in the rooms of those that have done this work so I’m all in now!
There is a better way to live and I’m willing to do whatever it takes to figure out how to live my best life possible finally. I’ve always been SOOOO independent, I didn’t need help or anyone. Ha! That’s a buncha bullshit I told myself after life conditioned me that way. I’m ready to strip alllllll of those layers finally and see what’s underneath it all. And, for me, I’m being shown AA is the way so I’m going with it! It’s not all peaches and roses, I’ve cried daily since I started but it’s healing tears and I’m finally unpacking the shit that lead me to be an alcoholic. I’m truly beyond thankful for this opportunity and the support. It’s really freaking incredible so far.
Love this crazy ass sober life!
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