I was here a couple days ago. I’m itchy for some social interaction and some group dynamics (other than with the ones in my houeshold)
I don’t know if there’s much I can say other than you’re certainly not alone. There’s billions of people out there all feeling this. Even those who appear to have it all together.
I’m trudging right there beside you Jane. Even from a pretty extreme introvert, it’s hard. The serenity prayer has been on my lips a lot the last couple of days.
To some degree I think that recovered addicts are made for this time. My sponsor sent me this to help me the other day.
Hah I just re read it and wow yeah I didn’t mean to be so vague lol I guess it was easier to summarize that way mostly. But I’ll keep you posted on the trip
Day 126
Have started back on c25k properly, am finding it a bit tough as I am 10kg heavier, but running every other day seems to speed up improvement. Before it was once or twice a week and I seemed to always be tredding water.
Roller coaster of a day. Started out pity party. Finishing with gratitude. Starting long term treatment on Tuesday. Got an upgraded housing situation as well. Instead of three men sharing a bachelor got a three bedroom apartment, lease getting signed tomorrow. God is great.
Day 537. I finished an important task, but have a few more still before I can really relax this weekend. Got some painful financial news too, but I’m still hoping something can be done about it. That would be really great, because I am just barely getting by at the moment. Hey, at least my money isn’t going to alcohol.
742 DAYS SOBER: It’s been almost a month since I’ve been able to physically see and touch my Fiance and my family… I’m in nursing and I’ve been living in an RV for the past few weeks so I can isolate myself without endangering their lives with this virus. The thought of using hasn’t come across, even though I’m so mentally and physically wore out trying to fight against this beast and we have over 30 positive cases, and 4 deaths in my facility; I’m still going into work with my boxing gloves on… still waking up, feet hitting the floor, and taking in a breath of fresh air once I walk outside. My family is safe, im still alive, and honestly thats all I’m really grateful for. As an addict i remember how selfish I used to be… this experience has been eye opening, i feel as if I’ve redeemed myself in a way. Anyway, here I am, checking in, take care of yourselves everybody! Stay Safe
Great ride yesterday. Now it’s back to work. Woke up at 3:30 or so and been awake since or almost because I had many dreams too till I had to get up. Tired. Will make it through. Sober and clean. Have a good weekend all. Sober and clean. Love from the borders of IJsselmeer.
Definitely praying for you both! Yes I’m so grateful to at least be able to see my fiances’ face even if it’s over the phone! We actually have a nest cam in the house where its connected to my phone so I can look and see my animals and talk through the camera, it’s pretty helpful! My mother lives with us because she has major health issues, so he has stepped up and taken over alot of the house chores, cooking and cleaning and taking care of her. This has been hard on us but I agree! As long as I know they are safe and healthy, I’m okay with being on the frontlines, and blessed to have a place to isolate as well. I know alot of workers that are still going home and risking giving this virus to their family members because they have nowhere to isolate. These are dark times, but are persevering through it! Stay strong bud! You got this!
But at the end of the day we had an appointment with the vet for my cat Buts.
They took blood to check some stuff out. My buddy isn’t feeling well for a while now and has lost weight They think it’s his thyroid. Next thuesday we hear the verdict. Fingers crossed please
Stay Safe 
I hope you will get that job!!
Hope you feel better soon.
