Checking in sober on day 18.
Today feels as if I’m being tested by my Higher Power, as if it’s throwing every ounce of crap it could possibly find, right on top of my head. Yesterday I felt a little euphoric, today I feel like I want to die. Apart from that, very lucky to not experience any moodswings though 
The voice in my head goes like ‘skip tonight’s meeting.’ So I won’t.
please don’t make me, actually I could be missing out, does it taste like luncheon meat?
cheers my nearly really old bud 
yeah I know mate, Your just a wee lad really… but bald.
Pounds and pounds of sun flower seeds… held them in like a chew. Nicotine withdrawal, especially from chewing isn’t a joke. The first 2 months were brutal for me.
just kidding but it won’t be long now.
Good call, stay strong!
First the hair then the erection
You’re right a lot of people are succumbing to the disease. This covid shit has been really hard on everyone, especially addicts. Drinking will solve nothing tho. I come here in hopes of maybe helping even just 1 person to stay sober for another 24 and in turn it helps me. I fear that if I’m not working on recovery im working on relapse.
must just be me then
It does to me though 
be well bro
Its going to be major abdominal surgery again unless a miracle happens over night… so thats whats in front of my doorstep for the weeks to come. Im scared and a bit sad that it just will not be over or something like that. Almost a year free of surgery now and i didnt expact this and the way it evolved so quick with the pain it brought. But well… i’ve been thrue worse, and wont give up !
Its gonna be a drag anyhow. The 6th abdominal surgery in little time. Besides the fact that it litteraly opens up old wounds its also figurly speaking exact the same… I know what im up against and it aint gonna be pretty but i will stand tall bro 
thnx for your kind words and keep you posted
Day 117! Take it day by day! Almost my birthday!!!
When I’m at the store, or in public in general, I’ve definitely got that “I can assure you, I don’t want to talk to you” look going on. Hahaha.
I’m late checking in today: Day 118 sober.
A lot going on right now. Got some side projects I’m doing work for people to get some $ while not working due to covid. Plus I’m selling some crap on eBay and had 3 boxes to ship today.
Tomorrow marks 17 weeks sober, and Thurs is my 4 month anniversary. Sunday I’ve been asked to tell my story at a speaker meeting on Zoom, which has me a bit nervous. I’ve come a long way on this journey, with a long way still to go. It is scary sometimes, but a journey worth making!
Heej bikkel! Ik ga heel hard voor je duimen dat de behandeling aanslaat! Ik steek een kaarsje voor je aan, knuffel en hou je taai 
