Some of us have taken very hard knocks to learn this truth: Job or no job — wife or no wife —we simply do not stop drinking so long as we place dependence upon other people ahead of dependence on God.Alcoholics Anonymous, page 98
Not only are we doing this for ourselves only, but we are not doing it by ourselves only. The higher power is the answer to my dilemma, which is lack of power. Circumstances do not create an environment in which I can stay sober - my spiritual fitness ensures that I can stay sober in any environment.
Hey everyone Just reset my counter. Here I go again. Struggling but hopeful. Good night TS folks I’ll be catching up on here and checking in tomorrow morning.
Thanks for sharing about your family - lots of strength and achievement there! It really goes to show that alcohol can affect anyone, and also how important it is for us to be in touch with our emotional state as well as the physical.
Dreaming I was at a festival but I was all alone. The tents were there, the cars were there, My friends just weren’t. I knew they were out drinking and I thought I’d join them soon before I thought I don’t drink no more. Which didn’t feel bad or good but it did feel lonely. Hm. In reality I’m having coffee and getting ready for work. Sober and clean. Have a good day all. Love from Amsterdam.
Day 3 in the books which was the hardest so far. I am starting the work to settle my husband’s estate after he passed away in March from cancer, and I soooo wanted wine. I resisted, but have to admit it was really hard. I already had to move his celebration of life out several times due to the quarantine. Seattle is still locked down and we are not likely to be allowed to have a gathering of any size anytime soon. Lack of closer and grieving in isolation isn’t natural but this forum keeps me motivated - thank you. Life goes on and I need to be my best self, which is sober.
Day 6
The kids have staggered starts going back to school from next week. That means I have a ton of forms to fill in that I have been putting off since the start of school was cancelled (schools here start in April, so the new school year never started). I hate forms in English, never mind Japanese when I have to double-check so much and it takes twice as long. Am happy that normal routine is resuming, just hope it doesn’t trigger a second wave of infections.
Day 3, first ever check-in. Yesterday my head was full of worry, about future socialising, maybe needing new friend circles, what do I tell people. Today I think it’s all to soon for those kind of thoughts. Today I feel good, and past hangovers and bad drunken decisions keep popping in my head. The mind is weird.
Just reset my counter. Here I go again. Struggling but hopeful. Good night TS folks 
I’ll be catching up on here and checking in tomorrow morning.
