This is awesome to hear! 
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Day 705.
Felt like absolute shite recently. Not wanting to do anything, everything a chore and quite shockingly for me romanticising my drinking days.
Due to AA being shut and online only round here I realised I am so off program I may as well not have one. Spoke to a few AA guys, reconnected. Guess what? I feel fucking great again.
Left on my own I will always let my self will take over. Trying to run the show. It fails. Everytime. I forgot my self will wants me dead. Through any means possible and only by doing Gods will and what has been shown to me will see my OK.
Back to daily check ins on here and to spend more time around this place. I quite shamingly forgot how much of an amazing tool TS has been for me on my journey so far.
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Day 18 here, got a little sense of boredom over the last couple of days, as if am missing out on something, 
think this is just little adjustments that I need to go through during each step of my journey through sobriety. Attacking this head on though with practically just keeping myself busy! Even dug out my weights and bench from the depths of my garage 
looking forward to getting back to it 
have a good day all 
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Made it to day 7, so far so good. Keeping busy when Iām bored by reading posts on here or working on homework. Iāve found this week that even though Iām more isolated, by being alone I donāt feel as much guilt or shame for my past actions as when Iām around other people. Maybe once groups open up again and I go to one Iāll feel differently.
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Iām proud of you,the first week is the hardest
@M-be-free49 @LeeHawk how are you guys on that first day?
Just passed half of day 2, and I realized Iāll have to un-associate all Iāve associated with alcohol during the past months. Walking in my street during confinement was only for booze. Taking the car was to go see people, but mostly to get booze. Being alone at home alone for the day meant getting drunk. Having to feel happiness, loneliness, anxiety, depressive thoughts, creative thoughts, boredom, fatigue, well any feeling, equaled āI need to drinkā. Itās going to be a though mental game to win against these well reinforced associations.
So like lasts times Iāve been able to get more time sober I switched things for sports and nutrition. But the associations are so strong! I was just driving to my old apartment to do some cleaning, and, ouf, all I was thinking was thatāll be hard to do the cleaning without drinking. Then I thought about my calorie intake and stuff like that. It just led me to think of a way to drink without getting to much fat, like vodka with infused ice-tea. It sounded like the perfect idea. I thought for some seconds that I was genius, that I could achieve my goals without leaving the bottle completelyā¦
Seriously, what a lie. What a complete, big, ton of selfless lies and BS. Canāt take that road again. Ouf, I was close to.
Keep up guys and good day.
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Hi WCan,
I am a few hours into Day 2. I am pretty miserable, as I was drinking very heavily for the last two weeks. All day, during work (we are all working remotely), and my manager has a meeting set up with me for Thursday. My job is pretty stressful, so maybe it isnāt a good fit to compete with my sobriety. Having some bad withdrawals. I was always an isolationist drinker. Hitting a couple of online meetings tonight, and I have plenty to read. Spend a lot of time on here. I am going to have to change my routine, which means I will have to get out of my house more, as I only drank at home, and usually alone. I am just trying to get through this week, feel better, and figure out how I can change my life so that I donāt lose my life. Itās that serious for me. Really glad you are here, WCan!
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Day 322. First day back to work. Solid workout this morning. Just taking it one day at a time.
Have a strong day!!!
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Itās that serious for many of us. It took that revelation to bring us to recovery. Thereās many here who were in the same circumstances that found sobriety. I believe you can do it too.
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It is serious. I am fortunate that I have a place to go where people understand.
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Day 29, using all coping skills, I am sliding fast. Smoked cigarettes after being smoke free for 101 days. Bought a 12 pack and checking out.
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Youāre doing good though. Baby steps. Iām a loner too and drank at home, itās hard but makes you feel good when you start feeling much better.
I have to say itās a habit and that takes time to change. Iām rooting for youā¦
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Hi everyone never done this before but I am on here to help me give up gambling as its destroying myself and my family. Addiction is crippling the way I think and work. I need to clear my head with thoughts that gambling will help me.
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Day 1 for me
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I donāt doubt that seriousness, I was just saying that I came to see those times of discomfort as a blessing. I wouldnāt be moved to find a solution without them. Let us know if we can help.
Thanks, @Mtrav0040. I hope itās sooner versus later that I start seeing these hard times as a blessing.
Thank you, Donna, just not feeling so hot right now.
Please donāt relapse. You did the right thing by coming here.
Thanks, positivity will be my aim of each day. Small steps.
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