Lol, thank you! I love the gif!
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Today was a decent day. I read a book, watched some cable tv and went to work. Work was a pain, I had to stock the freezer and I had way more cargo then I could handle in the time I had. Luckily my supervisor helped me out with my cargo.
I just heard that my stepdad is on the IC-unit because he’s got so much stress from the break. He has told my mom farewell, so he appears to have given up on life. He may die. I just don’t know. My grandpa is dying also, his kidneys are giving up. Despite all heart attacks, cancers and comas, he finally seems to be dying 60 years later than doctors thought. When will the drama stop for fucks sake? I am 17 and have had more life-changing experiences than some people have had in their entire life. Getting a lot of cravings this time. I’ll go to bed, so I probably won’t be able to relapse if my mind fucks up entirely. I will probably have some dreams about gaming. Goodnight all, I hope, nay I expect I won’t make a relapse thread tomorrow.
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it’s just called kingdom I’ve just sat and watched about 4 episodes in a row myself. Gritty cage fighting but be warned there is a lot of drug abuse in it and sex and violence and alcohol 
it’s great.
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Thank you, I like that. Growing pains it sounds positive and constructive. Goodnight to you too. May your pillow be nice and fluffy and your blanket warm and cozy.
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Thank you so much sweetie
I know that the alternative won’t be worth it, but for a very long time. Like most of my life it’s been the only alternative. Now I just need to figure out how to handle things in a different way,and it’s not as easy as I thought. But I’m thankful for each one of you being here with me. 
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I’m so sorry to hear about your family. I was hoping that you finally would get a period of peace and calm
(peace and quiet in English maybe would be the right terminology)
I’m really proud of you for handeling your cravings the way you do. Keep going, I’ve got faith in you.
And remember We’re all here if you need to talk,or just vent in any way possible.
Sending all the good lights and positive energy I’ve got your way. Hoping you’ll be free from hard dreams tonight. Goodnight sleep well, may your pillow be nice and fluffy and your blanket warm and cozy.
Stay strong, you’ve got this!
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goodnight little lady, sleep well 
or try at least.
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Thank you, and goodnight. If I can’t sleep I’ll probably hang out here annoying y’all until it gets morning. Luckily I’m in Sweden so that’ll be in about 4 hours, summer nights are short here 
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Your determination to succeed in your sobriety and to conquer the demons from your past is very inspiring. I can imagine how difficult sharing your story must have been. I, too, tend to be reticent at sharing very personal things for many reasons; and so I really respect your courage in allowing yourself to do so despite your fears and the knowledge that you would have nightmares as a result of it. I know that sharing personal experiences can help people in ways we will never know, and I admire the fact that you gave people the opportunity to learn from your life. I hope that you will be able to find the peace you’re looking for, and I think you will because you are willing to fight for it.
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Always a pleasure never a chore 
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Thank you
I hope so too, it took me long and at least two tries before I could share it here. Also I tried to keep it as simple as possible, to not get really personal once again. It has taken me more than 10 years to even be able to talk or even think about it in any way. It’s been haunting me all this time, but I’ve as I wrote previously have chased it away. Now I don’t have that option or at least I’m not going to allow myself to take that way out anymore. If other people can do it, I can too. And this forum is filled with proof of that, side by side with people like me who are still trying to find their way. I see new people coming in almost every day, and if it can help only one single soul or plant a seed in someone with the feeling that they aren’t alone,than it’s worth it.
There’s no way of doing this alone, we all need eachother. That’s why I’m here sharing, I need you guys to stay at this path I started to create and eventually someone might need me and my story to inspire their way forward.
I hope your day was good, and that you are getting a good night’s sleep when it’s time for rest. And once again, thank you for your kind words
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Day 30. So many milestones today! Would one more hurt?
Another first month in the books. I’m going to be honest, I had no idea doing check-ins would be so awesome for accountability. I felt silly making an account; I didn’t think anyone would read my post let alone respond and give me support. If you’re reading this, let it be known you are so freaking beautiful (even if you don’t have an account, yes, you too.)
Is someone chopping onions in here?
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congrats!! Happy dance time 
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Awww you are beautiful! Happy DAY 30!!! 
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Thank you so much. Your gif replys always make me smile. 
Thanks and right back at ya.
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Oh my… A quick scan at lunch, and again after work, and I’m so pumped by all of the energy on this thread, and the honesty too…
Milestones to celebrate! @mleclaire @anon79808082 @GVLNative @Steak @CapriciousCapricorn - thank you for filling my soul tanks with gas 
Hard days and times for some of you: @MrsOdh @Mno and @anon89207786 Your persistence and commitment to sobriety during these times helps fuel mine…
And others have shown the courage and honesty to get back up, and I hope you can hear me cheer you on, as you have done for me @Misokatsu and @anon28001181 .
My day? The old Emm would’ve found a hundred and one reasons, before noon alone, to justify “a night off” with a glass in hand. But tonight I’m not feeling it, thankfully; the sober life continues to beckon. I suspect it has much to do with this accountability thread, and with you sharing your stories and journeys with me. (And all of you I couldn’t mention…) So grateful!
In the words of a wise (17 year old) man I know?
If that doesn’t make you smile? 
Wishing you all beautiful evenings, rests, and mornings,
M 
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