So much truth here. I’ve watched a few documentaries that suggest social medias can actually contribute to depression and other negative feelings and views about one’s self. It’s kind of ironic that something that was supposed to bring people together seems to do the opposite.
@DuncanNZ Hang in there. One year and two weeks is great. Congrats on hitting that 1 year mark. Really you’re doing awesome. Give it a little time to pass.
@anon60334405 You may already know what I’m about to type, so if you do, just disregard it. It’s possible the reason you’re not building the muscle you want is from not eating enough calories. Even if you’re consuming enough protein, if you’re not eating over the amount of calories your body needs to maintain your weight, then you won’t be able to put on lean mass. That’s why you see people doing the bulk and cut cycle because it’s hard to lose weight and gain muscle at the same time. Just a thought.
@CapriciousCapricorn Congratulations on 200 days! You are awesome! I appreciate you sharing. I can relate to some of what you mentioned about acceptance and shame. I always felt I had to be perfect and if I wasn’t then I was a failure. No one can live up to that kind of standard and it’s such an unfair burden to put on someone. I think you are amazing for having the strength to pull yourself up and out of a situation you didn’t want to be in. You are amazing and unique, and what you do and who you are is enough.
It’s just “Kingdom”. Action/drama series based around an MMA gym owner’s family. It’s cool to see Nick Jonas as a cage fighter, when you’re so used to him being a bubblegum pop kid.
I’d definitely suggest approaching with caution because there is a lot of potential triggers in each episode.
I don’t know. I’d say that getting away from people and out into the wilderness sounds like the best vacation one could have in the middle of a pandemic. The fresh air and the quiet will probably do wonders for your physical and emotional health too. Congratulations on the new job offer. I hope it’s everything you want it to be.
I am back to day 5. I drank for a week - never got drunk, but still felt like crap because my body was like, “WTH? Over.”
I still kept going to MOST of my Recovery Dharma meetings but started missing them because of work. And then I started missing more for no reason…and then I picked up a six pack of beer and back to the old routine of popping one open at 5pm, a few and to bed…Same ol’ pattern. Same shitty feeling.
I feel amazing today, though and am back at all my daily 8am CST meetings, work or no work, video on, video off…I will not miss that meeting, unless the situation is freaking dire.
@CapriciousCapricorn…I almost forgot to acknowledge this awesome milestone. We’re 101 days apart and you’d think by now I’d remember. I promise to get my head out of my ass for your 300. lol
Sounds like you had a nice day on the lake, you deserve many more of them.
301 Days. My daughter’s disability income was stopped 3 months ago. Of course this happens when all the social security offices are closed so I’ve been leaving messages constantly. I finally got a call back today. It’s all because they need an update on her abilities to care for herself and work. Normally it’s an in person meeting that can’t be done now. Instead our wonderful government just stops the income during a pandemic and expect people to survive. They finally agreed to let me fill out the 15 page questionnaire on my own and return it by fax. Finding some place to fax it from is the next challenge. Email is so much easier. Another situation where I miss working in the office.
Day 15 no cigarettes
Day 4 no alcohol
2 mile walk … i can feel some agitation growing inside of me - trying to stay centered and be patient with myself… Happy Friday
I’ve been online too much lately reading all the outcomes for every school district in my state on if they’ll do traditional on campus schooling, or not… Not sure why I need to do that. The Governor of my state is making an announcement tomorrow on the decision to re open schools or not. And again, not sure that matters either. A lot of school districts have already made the decision to go against their Board of Educations recommendation of reopening schools in the fall. I just keep reading about it like I’ll get some bigger understanding of what the best option would be for the majority of the people. It’s helped me gain some compassion and allowed me to put myself in other’s shoes. That’s the best outcome I’ve gotten from it so far.
All this stress and distraction hasn’t made me think about drinking, so that’s another positive I suppose. I write my list of gratitude every night, sometimes I include my sobriety sometimes I don’t. But I’m always grateful for this positive ball of light (my sobriety) that I own within me and if I take care of it properly, it will continue to shine bright.
Sounds like a much needed and well earned break! Have a a lovely time and congratulations on the job situation, sounds like things are falling into place
Can you fax from the library? I’m not sure but I think so. Or maybe a shipping company like FedEx or something. Google where to fax near me, lol…what a pia.
I don’t think you going camping is irresponsible, more than likely the way the world is going it’ll be like an apocalyptic movie and when you get home your the only person left.
Congratulations to the job offer,that must feel great.
Sweden hasn’t been in lock down like you guys,and we’re now free to travel across the country. Before we where supposed to stay in our own provinces. We’re going camping in our province next week. At first we had booked a city weekend, also in our province but that felt to irresponsible so we changed it to a camping trip. We’re going to small towns along the canal and won’t be more than 1,5 hours one way from home.
That’ll be my first sober camping trip ever, and the first camping trip for my boys.
I wish you a wonderful holiday, can’t wait to hear about it when you get back. You can do it!
Godmorning from Sweden, another sunny day ahead and I’m really grateful for finally getting some sun. The last months cold weather and rain has been hard.
Nightmares was back tonight, but that wasn’t unexpected either. Did another house search for just about any substance tonight when everyone was asleep, still found nothing to sooth the feelings with. And I’m working on another plan of it happens tonight again,because I know that if I find anything in one of those searches I will most likely take it.
It’s not a good trait, but to be honest I don’t really now any other way to handle this.
Wishing all of y’all a lot of sunshine and an amazing weekend.
Hay beautiful people! I’ve decided I’m not counting my days anymore as I’ve got my sobriety date that I’m holding onto dearly ! Life for me is going really well I have a new mental health nurse who is a massive help and she seems to understand me ! Im feeling so much better and positive each day I’m loving recovery and found a great ca zoom meeting that is in London so I’ll hopefully get to meet the people at some point when face to face meetings start up again I’m working all weekend it works out so well that I work when Millie goes to see her dad … I couldn’t be happier with my life ! Happy Friday beautiful people x
… i can feel some agitation growing inside of me - trying to stay centered and be patient with myself… Happy Friday 
Wow… I searched for it(fax), now I believe there’s an app for everything out there. 
