Day 220~ Today was amazing. Just a wicked good frigan day. It started off awesome and carried on through out the day. Spent some much needed girl time with my daughter while the boys stayed home and watched football. (My Patriots are on tonight) We shopped until we dropped got some cute things. I usually hate shopping so the fact I enjoyed myself and found some pieces is a miracle! I hadn’t been shopping at the mall in a long time since before Covid hit and basically right around the same time I started my sober journey. I’ve dropped 4 sizes. I know I’ve been steadily loosing weight but didn’t realize how much. I’m pretty pumped about it. It felt good to actually like what I was seeing in the mirror. Sober is sexy y’all and I’m digging it.
I love how being sober each day you discover and realize more about yourself and who you are really meant to be. I’m liking me again… actually no I’m LOVING me. You have to love yourself to be able to accept love back. Life is good. I am truly blessed.
Thanks @Dan531. I do know wine or any liquor won’t ultimately help me but I just wanted to get the fact that it crossed my mind out there. The anxiety has been relentless for a week and it’s wearing me down. Just took my nighttime meds and I’m safely in bed. Appreciate the encouragement! I’ll be glad to wake up sober!
Thank you I know I almost cried lol I was so happy. I knew I was loosing but don’t like to play the scale game so I haven’t weighed in since March. I’m down like 40 lbs.
Sorry you’re going through this, Cristel. It sounds overwhelming. I hope you have a good sleep. I know the struggle of dealing with teenage crap. It was the worst for me also
Hugs sweetie…
23 days is so amazing! I remember when I was 23 days sober (or roundabout), still wondering if I could do this, then allowing myself to believe I could, reaching deep for the courage I knew I must have somewhere within, reminding myself that I am worth it, that I am worthy and that I can have the life I choose, so long as I stay true to what I know. For me, alcohol is poison. It ruins things, especially my state of mind and my sense of self-worth. So now, I say no to the drink that matters, the first drink! I tell people I am a non-drinker. I smile when I say it. I be brave and face the world as it is. And I rejoice in the fact that I never have to wake up with a hangover and a feeling of utter fear and worthless again unless I foolishly choose to. I am so proud of your courage, to choose love and self-respect now, for 23 days! That is truly amazing @Figgie
Good luck with that. You can do it. I can’t remember if I told you already but I dropped 45 pounds using the Noom app. Noom.com you get a coach and a group and a group coach too. I thought it was worth the price. Easy to log ALL your meals and so many other great tools.
My daughter invited a couple of friends over. Although only mid-Sept she wanted to make it a Halloween playdate, so we went to the 100yen shop. Now I’m not wasting money on booze, I can “waste” money on little bits and bobs.
Day 83.
Was going along pretty good, but a couple of small things just set me off, and I realized how quickly I can write and narrate the “not good enough” story in my head. I was getting better at not giving that voice so much airplay, but sometimes it just grabs the mic and drowns out all else. Any time I hear any of you bring up feelings of self-doubt or “I’m not enough”, I want to leap to your defense. ‘Bout time I do same for me.
Goal this week: not to do better (not that that’s a bad goal), but to feel and think better of me. Sounds easy, right? Hmph. It’s gonna take a bit to rewire this brain that I don’t have to earn my own love with mostly unreal expectations…
G’night - big love to all, me included
@IcanIwill nicely done on 2 weeks! @Dolse71 Happy Birthday! If I stopped at 49 yrs, so can you… and I’m 50 now. I haven’t known alcohol at 50 years old. Your turn to write that next, k? @Joy No, no you are 30 tops. And who starts running marathons at 49? @Apes2020 I miss travel too… I’m sure it’s a blessing in disguise like @Dazercat said: no airport lounges to trigger old habits, or touring a winery, say… but still I miss travelling. Nice work on the gratitude list. @Mno where was your day trip? In your starry mask? No more oldies on e-bikes? (oh that made me lol!)
It started off awesome and carried on through out the day. Spent some much needed girl time 
with my daughter while the boys stayed home and watched football. (My Patriots are on tonight) We shopped until we dropped 
got some cute things. I usually hate shopping so the fact I enjoyed myself and found some pieces is a miracle! I hadn’t been shopping at the mall in a long time since before Covid hit and basically right around the same time I started my sober journey. I’ve dropped 4 sizes. 
I know I’ve been steadily loosing weight but didn’t realize how much. I’m pretty pumped about it. It felt good to actually like what I was seeing in the mirror. Sober is sexy y’all and I’m digging it. 
324 that is so cool 
You’re nailing it. Slow and steady. Right on!!
awesome work 
