Congratulations @anon79808082!!! Heck yeah!!! Super proud of you my friend!!! 
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Day 120 clean and sober today and omg!!! I woke up to a message of my ex fiancĆ© asking me if Iād want to go get coffee or food sometime and catch up!!! WOW!!! Iām so grateful for you guys and for being clean and sober!!! There was no way I could have ever think that this was going to happen and itās all because of God. Thank you everyone for loving me through these almost four months sober I absolutely couldnāt have done it without you. Love you guys have a great day!!!
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Happy Saturday all. Hopefully the rona test results will be sent soon. I need to know if Iām teaching in person classes today or not this morning. I will not stress about it though because itās something I canāt control. Think its coffee time 
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Youāre doing great Donna. much love 
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Youāre doing great Courtney. Iām sorry to hear this, he had a great life and a great family takin Care of him. He will always be with you, and watching you grow. Heās just as proud of you as you are or him. Much love girl
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Day 250. Gonna try to go for a hike or something with the girls. Not much to say I geuss, keep trying to work on my feelings, my actions. I stay accountable when I get angry, but I keep doing it. I keep being grouchy, and I know itās bc of something in me? Insecurities? Hate towards myself that I take it out on others. I hope I get it someday soon
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I donāt have any magical tips, as you really just need to be patient and take the time to work through the feelings. Itās ok to be sad, I had a problem with allowing myself that emotion.
Time really does heal. I find minimum contact with my ex to be the most helpful. I donāt look at any of his social media and donāt speak to him unless necessary. Had a few slips due to a recent accident that he was in. I find no contact to be the most helpful.
With my first husband, that was a very sad breakup that never would have happened if the army helped him get help for his ptsd. My husband is still in Afghanistan, I donāt know who or what came back, but it wasnāt the beautiful soul I married. He was too sick and refused help. I couldnāt teach my daughters that abuse was ok. So sadly, I left. Whatās different about this one is that we have children together, so no contact is not possible. We are friendly and communicate at a very minimum. I also do not look at his social media. That one still makes me sad as some other woman is now living my life with my family. However, there is nothing I can do to change it. I protect myself from seeing their happy little life and allow myself to feel my feelings without guilt.
Sooooo, super long way to say there is no quick fix. Embrace your feelings, therapy is a great way, be patient, and try to have as little contact as possible. If she has social media, unfollow or block.
Iām so sorry to see you hurting. My heart goes out to you. I promise you, it will get better.
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Thank you for that!
Yes I did block her on social media and stuff. But thereās a few house things to communicate about.
Whatsapp is like poison to me right now. I asked her some stuff. My message is delivered. Sheās online a few times an hour but doesnāt read my messages or replies to them.
Then my mind goes: what are you doing on whatsapp all the time? You use to barely look at it. Does she have someone else allready? Is she doing better than me? No that canāt be! Iām the one who left you because you neglected us! So I should be feeling better!
And that is driving me crazy.
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Thanks for the info! That will be phase 2 for me then. Gotta.
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Day 41
Fall Mode, next week is going to be cold and rainy.
Weāre talking about maybe celebrating Christmas in Spain, Iām keeping fingers crossed that the virus doesnāt get any worse so we can travel. A long dark and cold winter is going to make me depressed for real.
Guests are leaving tomorrow, Teen is home over the weekend and I found a new Lilly dress I put a bid on. Keep your fingers crossed that itās all going my way.
Wishing yāall an amazing weekend
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Day 33: Lovely, peaceful sleep last night. I was so tired I fell asleep on top of the covers, but with dogs tucked in next to me I was comfy until the wee hours when I woke briefly only to cover up and return to sleep. This is what Iāve been longing for! I feel rested and ready for the day. Off to a hike! Sending out big love today to all.
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You are inspiring me to give up the sugar!! Way to go on one whole month!! 
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good morning everyone! checking in with one month sober 
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Right on! Congrats on one month!!!
Yay!! One month is a great feeling; youāre doing it~!
Day 78. I feel myself coming down from my almost manic high where I feel on top of the world. In those moments I think to myself that I should accomplish as much as I possibly can because I know it wont last, and it doesnāt.
I never noticed this about myself all my life as an addict. These ups and downs that come naturally like the tides of the sea, the tides of my life. I used to let the downs cause me to relapse but now I just observe them for what they are and wait for them to pass.
Planning a birthday party today and I think a Starbucks is in order! Hope you all have a great day!
Congrats on 60 days @Misokatsu 
You are doing wonderfully!
@heather923 Great job on 1 month! That flew by! Great work! 
@Dragonflygirl82 Sending you and Moosey lots of love! You are always such an inspiration to me and just wanted you to know I am thinking of you in your time of sadness.
And everyone elseā¦
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Have fun at the party; youāre doing amazing! I have to remind myself too, itās just life when it ebbs and flowsā¦ itās always changing though! 
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Thank you!!! Yes, I guess it takes some darkness to appreciate the light!!! Glad you are feeling better today! Rockin it with your 130 days!!! 
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