Been a bit busy with kids, work, etc. Not thinking about drinking, which on the one hand is good, but one the other hand, I need to think about and appreciate not drinking so it becomes a practice. I also need to make sure I maintain time for me. It is easy to fall into the trap of get up in morning, see to kids, go to work, see to dinner and laundry, see to kids, finish up work, sleep. And I just feel life is draining me. I know life isn’t all fun and sparkles, but there has to be some personal enjoyment.
Day 537. I am home safely and ready to move on. The last two months were a roller coaster. I realized that one person can ruin the good work of a hundred, with very little effort.
My experience at work taught me a lot. I enjoyed the work itself, but when asked to do absurd things for arbitrary reasons, I balked and simply couldn’t do it. It was also the first time in twelve years, after talking with several thousand Japanese people, I was told to go back to America.
So I am ready to move on again. I have no idea what I will do for work now, but at least I’m sober, and have a few friends and family that still care about me.
Well done on your length of sobriety. Today is what you choose to make it. If you go to the market just watch out for all the Aussie crabs and spiders and snakes and sharks and creepy crawlies and drop bears and…
I have read many day 1/relapse posts recently. That was me for decades! It sucked, and it doesnt have to be you. You have this wonderful resource, use it! Before you pick up, come on here and ask for help. A better life waits for you, grab it and live.
I remember at the beginning of this journey, life with out drinking seemed like an impossibility. It was this place that got me past those days.
Today was wonderful, only because 916 days ago I got stubborn, I got humble, i asked for help.
Yay! Congrats on graduating your program @Rockstar24777. When I left mine, I was relieved and scared at the same time. I felt like I was being set free into an unfamiliar sober world but I was excited to finish up the first stages of recovery. It was a strange feeling.
