Day 43 after my day of rest yesterday I woke up so fresh and motivated. I’m still doing a couple of meetings each week but I’m working so much at the moment I’m coming home walking teddy having dinner with Millie and been watching a bit of tv … I’ve noticed in the past all I do is work and recovery then I end up feeling resentful for some reason so I’m trying to get a balance this time around and it’s nice to do normal stuff in the evening and not over load my head with recovery. I still feel sadness over my break up but the more I been reading up on codependence I realising how toxic he was for me and how damaging being with him was for me . I’m still confused about why I miss someone who is no good for me but I know he’s like a drug and someone I need to stay away from . I know I’m gonna be ok and these feelings will pass in time . I’m so grateful to have this safe place to open up and let my feelings out . Happy Friday beautiful people x
Mixed salad? 
I love seeing people check in 
Been a strange couple of days, work was always a stressor/trigger for me, people pissing me off.
Yesterday was one of those days, bit today too but I’ve just said fuck it, not going to worry about it (still plays on my mind a bit though)
Least it’s Friday
Sending hugs
Checking in at 28 days. By the end of this weekend I will officially hit a month. I remember reading all those 30-day challenges and thinking, sadly, that I’d never be able to do that. Well, I will! Meanwhile after getting my wedding rings enlarged a few years ago, they are falling off my fingers. Any swelling I had is gone from my ankles and face. And suddenly at 57 I have laugh lines aka wrinkles. Oh well. I think this means my liver is working again so I’ll take it.
I feel you there being accused of using when you know your trying your hardest ,but be mindful just how we grown so do the people in our lives that we let down ,all those times we lied and was deceitful ,I’d give her this one .xxyou know you didn’t and that’s what counts what other people think is none of our business.xx
Omg…I felt this in my soul.
Thanks man. Means alot, probably going to hit another bike hike Sunday I’ll post some pics
Absolutely and thank you :).
Day 261. Life goes on. And I’m slowly moving on too.
The situation with my ex girlfriend and our house is giving me a shit ton off stress everytime I think about it or something news pops up.
But I guess it’s not the end of the world.
I hope haha
Have a good sober friday!
Checking in sober, Day 262. I continue to be busy working on amends to my mother. I offered to repaint her house for her, as it last was painted ~20 years ago. Well, it has been more repair than painting! I’ve had to replace more than a third of the siding and I’ve done repairs to water damage and age in several places. Way more work than I expected when I offered to do this! But a great opportunity for dealing with expectations, accepting Life on Life’s terms, and fixing what needs to be repaired despite any inconvenience I may feel. It’s also been a good metaphor for the hidden damage behind the obvious damage related to my addiction problems. Here is a sample of what I’ve done the past few days. Looking forward to another day on the ladder meditating and making right the damage of the past!
Absolutely man. It’s very hard. Just remember, if you didn’t pick up or drink today. Then it is a damn beautiful day and nothing else matters. You’re as hard as it is to believe right where you need to be. Much love bro
Day 105 clean and sober today. I don’t sleep well for a couple days when I move somewhere new but it will pass. Have a wonderful day everybody, love you guys!!! 
Thank you! 
Are you trying to sell the house or something ?
I’ve been through something like that 4-5 years ago. Ex broke up, left home, had to stay there while trying to sell it and paying it almost alone. Was hard staying there. This is the part of my life where I started drinking heavily. It took 18 months before the house was sell. 18 months of lonely nights on the couch passed out.
But man it gets better. Water under the bridge they say… That bridge of this relationship is still there in my head and my heart. I am now somewhere else, met another woman and I’ve learned a lot from this past. I am doing less mistake and I am more honest about my needs in relation. I am more align with myself than I use to be. I even sometime feel nostalgic and sad about the past. And this is normal. Grief is a process and once you get out of the concrete daily stuff surrounding a broke up you start to breathe again slowly but surely.
Hope I’m not too off set about your experience but send you good thoughts anyways, rough times. Great job on doing all this sober man, I don’t know if I could’ve done that in the past.
Hey there!
My ex is currently trying to buy the house all on her own. Still waiting on an answer from our bank if she can make it financially.
That would be the best outcome.
If not… yes then we have to sell. Not looking forward to that road.
Thank god I can stay at my parents place and process this. It’s been a pretty bad relationship mentally. She neglected me and our relationship the last year(s). Made me feel like I was nothing.
Long story…
Day 18 and it’s Friday!!! I’m a little anxious about tomorrow. It’s a friends birthday and we’re going to the park after work to play volleyball and have cake and lunch. All my coworkers (friends) know that I don’t drink and they’re all immensely supportive and never try to push things on me. I’m still feeling a little anxious because I know there will be alcohol and probably a fair amount of it. I offered to drive my two friends who live by me home so that’s excellent incentive to stay dry but I’m worried I’ll feel awkward and out of place. Suggestions on how to work through it?
I look at it as something I used to do; now my choice is not doing it anymore. Life’s choices happen all the time.
Be proud and confident! Leave when you’re ready.
Day 55.
Passed Drug & Alcohol test!
I’m reminded everyday why I’m taking this path of sobriety… There will be setbacks but I want to keep going.
It’s 1:23am Saturday morning here in Australia, and I am just getting into bed sober. I am so proud of myself. I just spent 12+ hours with three friends, who were drinking champagne, rosé, red & white wines… and I did not drink. There were a couple of moments where that old voice in my head popped up, questioning if I should drink or not. I chose not. Because I am a non drinker. I don’t drink. I don’t want to drink. I am happy and content in who I am and proud of the fact that I don’t need to drink to “join in” or have fun, or feel included. I know the truth, I know what I’m like, I made this decision over a year ago for a reason, and that reason is still true today. I would’ve woken in the morning with so much regret and misery. But now, now I get to wake up proud and hangover free, feeling accomplished and good. Whilst my friends, bless them, will have a few headaches tomorrow, I’m sure. Sober life = my best life, that’s for sure