Sounds like a good productive day. Yes riding your bike in the dark IS kinda scary. I used to work at starbucks and would ride my bike in for the opening shift at 4am. Almost got run over by a cop once while I was IN A CROSS WALK!
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Super glad to see you checking in here, Mike.
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Day 1058 or so. Just got back from Atlantic City with more money in my wallet than what I went down with. Iād call that a good vacation.
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That looks delicious!
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Day 7 ending and in 2 hrs it will be 8 days sober!!! Anxiety was kinda high this evening, I love 
days but I really like being outside right now. But ending my evening feeling a little better so hopefully I get some 
.
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Hi Friends. Proud to be checking in on day 46. Had some fleeting drinky-thoughts on my bike ride today. Glad to have the community here to check in with. Good night from Canadaās Pants! (USA)
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Day 225~ Emotional day. Iāve been dreading tomorrow all day. Carlos and the kids arenāt ready to let Moose go. Today we had him down in the front yard and just let him lay and soak up some sun. Next thing we knowā¦ heās gone. I walked around backā¦ he wasnāt there. I heard my son say, āMa heās over hereā. He was walking up the street. Carlos later told me when he put Moose in the yard he told him to run away if he was not ready to leave us yet. Needless to say I was bawling 
. We decided to continue his pain meds for another week or so. Everyone wants to take him to the local walking trails one last time and let him put his paws 
in the water. He would swim for hours in there years ago. I want this to be a family decision. Iām hoping allowing everyone to say and give their proper goodbyes it will help with accepting the inevitable. This is so hard. With Teddy we had no choice he had a stroke and was gone. With Moose itās like his body is failing him but heās 
there mentally.
Sorry maybe Iām over sharing and you must be sick of hearing Moose stories by now lol but itās really consuming my mind. I need to get it outā¦ and frankly you guys are the ones I talk to on a regular basis. Thank you all for your support, kind words, and love. It truly means more than you know. 
This has been a major stress and test but it has not derailing my sobriety. I thank God Iām Sober and able to be there for my family the way I need to be right now. We will get through thisā¦ one day at a time. Together we are strong 
I know this aināt the selfie thread CLEARLY I know which thread that is 
but how could I resist not sharing this pic with my sweet boy.
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Iām really sorry your going through this with your best bud. I hope Iām not stepping over any boundaries here butā¦ I personally think it should be a decision between you and the vet. I know how hard this is but what Iām getting from you is the family isnāt ready to let him go. (Walking down the street wtf was that all about?) donāt tell me. Iām sure itās hard for everyone in your family. But is Moose suffering?? I would ask my vet āwhat would you do if it was your dog?ā Iām sure you got this cuz your a wicked strong lady. But it does sound like your crying for a little help here. Again, so sorry you got to go through this. Itās so fucking hard. Sending prayers your way that your God will guide you in your decision or your God will have someone guide you in your decision.
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Thank you and of course I asked the vet and he examined him and gave him proper medicine to help make him comfortable. He said take a few days. He may pass at home and if thatās the case we will be here with him. Not crying for help just sharing whatās going on in my lifeā¦ and currently this is it. Appreciate your advice.
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Youāre not over sharing at all Courtney. You have to get it out and thatās what weāre here for. I wish there was something we could all do to make this a little bit easier for you. Sending you big hugs.
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Thank you Lisa you all just being here listening is more than I can ask for I really appreciate all the support advice and loveā¦ helps me for sure
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He looks like a lovely dog whoās had a wonderful life. What a good boy.
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However you decide to say goodbye to moose including the when, is your personal choice & we will back you 100%. Letting go of a member of the family is so tough and fragile and is never easy, you take the time you need and cherish those moments with him 
my heart breaks for you and your familyā¦sending so much love your way
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Youāre doing good, I know how much you guys love him. Never get tired of Moose stories! 
Weāre all here for you and with you; holding you up and crying with youā¦ Familyš
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day 289! today was okay.
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It was!!! Made my morning 
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Day 88.
A long day to end a long week. I think those habitual urges (itās Friday! or I just met a deadline! or Ugh that was stressful!) are starting to get itā¦ itās like we used to walk along all together, but now - they canāt keep up, those gremlin-urges. Theyāre lagging behind and Iām like āoh, what? I canāt hear you - Iām on this amazing sober-hike and I donāt think itās your kind oā trail - yer just not cut out for itā¦ā
Seriously, it feels good to meet stressful stuff head on, and realize that having a drink isnāt the first thing I think of. I know this isnāt linear though, this progress, and there will be days where those voices seem a lot louder.
This is why - or one of the many reasons why - I love it here. We share our stories, our wins and our woes - and I feel like you all have a share of my 88 days, so thank you.
Gānight - big love to all 
@Dragonflygirl82 please never second guess yourself, that youāre oversharing (youāre not). please never second guess yourself when youāre following your heart in gut-wrenching situations with no clear blueprint or path forward. take this thing too one day at a time, one moment at a time, and be extra gentle on yourself. Love up your Moose for me. 
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Happy birthday! And an apple crumble is yum!
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