Checking in daily to maintain focus #19

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Checking in on day 64! I think when I have time I might post later about what I have been going through the past few days. Ive been kind of on an emotional roller coaster ā€¦ I logged on here last night and realized I am not alone and so many people here are going through the same things! It made me feel so much better. So the verdict is out, staying off my phone for 5 days is not really necessary or helpful although I did get a lot of cleaning done. :joy: And I did do my running each morning which I will continueā€¦ but I did miss you guys! Have a great sober day!

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Day 7.- First full day at my new job.It went super great! I had to be here early. The day was lovely and the company was great. And I feel really uplifted today. Iā€™m glad I didnā€™t have to experience it so hungover I was shakingā€¦ Unlike my training last week. This feels like my first big win.

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Hey guys. Quick check in as I am on the road today and working on papers in coffee shop on the way to see family and to the chalet. Itā€™s usually a trigger for me to be on the road but Iā€™ve got my weekend all planned in advance so this is reassuring.

Been seeing a lot on here since last night I checked , some day one, some achievements, some stuggles, some insightfulā€¦ donā€™t have time to address all of it today and probably wonā€™t ever be able as we all have our personal lives and stuff going on, but still, wanted to say :

Grateful to have you here on this forum, participating in this community. Either good or bad day, comme hang around here. Be helped, help, share, read, learn, un-learn, debate, love. Great things can happen when we connect with people. Sometimes connecting with someone else can be easier than connecting with a lost self or a struggling self. When the storm hits your head bring it on here so we can all take a bit of the rain, take it together and nourish the community back with it. You donā€™t know who you can help while youā€™re asking for help yourself.

Hope you all have a good weekend looking forward ,

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Thank you Ms Joy.

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Thanks man. It felt good to share

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Hey Mike; I was just wondering what you were up to today! Is it a nice day up there?

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Hey. Iā€™m doing ok, I have my daughter Addie today, autumn went to her auntā€™s this weekend. So I just did a quick jog on the treadmill, Addie is in the bath now and after that were going to take a lil walk, maybe hit up the park. It is beautiful out here today, maybe in the 70s

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Man, what I wouldnā€™t give to feel the 70s here! Soon enough though~! Have funā€¦ :slight_smile:

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Checking in on day 13. Iā€™m getting away from the hangovered days, and I seem to forget how bad it was. Iā€™m afraid, that there will be a day, when I think I can handle my drinking.
Do you feel this constant, insatiable hunger too? I mean even if youā€™re not physically hungry, you would like to eat, drink, smoke or absorb anything really? I donā€™t remember, when it started but itā€™s like Iā€™ve always had it. Is it has something to do with addiction, will it ever be over?

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I can relate to your self-examination about honesty. But just wondering, Jenna - could it be not being honest with yourself? Let me explain:

Itā€™s taken me a long time to learn some things about myself (therapy has helped, of course! :laughing:), but once I just accepted them as traits and not faults - itā€™s getting easier. Iā€™m still working on it. One of those things is that I really really like, no - need, a lot of ā€œM timeā€. Another is that I donā€™t like letting people down. Where it gets complicated is when I accept invitations from well-meaning extroverts or otherwise agree to social obligations so that I wonā€™t let people down (or think Iā€™m letting them down). And then as the event approaches, I find every reason to get out of it (man, those baseboards are dusty! lolā€¦)

For me, I am learning to be honest on the front-end - with varying degrees of detail. Itā€™s either ā€œoh, Iā€™m sorry - I have plansā€ (this is not a lie if you have plans with yourself!) or ā€œthank you so much for the invitation - can we consider another time when things have settled down a bit with my schoolwork?ā€ (also not a lie - if you are doing school work and then know that you need an evening to Jenna). Or sometimes I explain, if itā€™s a true pal who knows me, that I need some solo time.

Just a thought - might not fit for you. Just make sure youā€™re taking care of Jenna first :orange_heart:

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Youā€™re still walking in the right direction - itā€™s 1.59 days in the past and then some. :orange_heart:

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Still sober. Almost a year. Iā€™m anxious these days about the world, especially the US, where I live. There is already so much inequality in this country, and so many laws and norms being broken; so many people believing total lies, so much threat to democracy. Iā€™m grinding my teeth at night a lot. I feel short of breath. But Iā€™m not drinking, Iā€™m contemplating everything sober all the time, and thatā€™s good.

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I love how you are just going at it!

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We need you sober. Take a deep breath and pack a lunch. You may need to March.

Have you consider starting to write your process on paper and re-read it often? I think you canā€™t forget why youā€™re being sober if you work on it daily-ish and re-read what youā€™ve been working onā€¦

Well, Iā€™m not a diary-writer type, also Iā€™m sober now, so it wouldnā€™t be the same as writing it down as whilst living it through. But your idea is good, I will definitely consider it - thank you!

Day 62 of no smoking.

Chilling in the council of my local elections. Now that I think about it this changed my life a lot. I couldnā€™t have gotten my job, as a smoker, I needed cigarettes every 20 minutes.
Crazy how things change.

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373 Days. A nice lady from AA has been asking me to go for coffee but I keep finding excuses to avoid it. Iā€™m such an introvert. Sheā€™s 31 years sober and I can certainly learn a lot from her. Weā€™re both going to our celebration AA meeting tonight for my 1 year and her 31 years. I finally agreed to go for coffee after. My anxiety is thru the roof not only about going out with her but I have to speak about my journey at the meeting. Ugh! Like they say, sobriety works when you get comfortable with being uncomfortable.

My husband wants to go to the celebration. I gave him a big fat NO! Itā€™s a womenā€™s meeting and he can go for the first 10 minutes when the presentation of the chip/coin is done and then leave. I think itā€™s disrespectful to everyone because heā€™s still drinking. Iā€™m sure heā€™d wait until after to drink but I still donā€™t want him there. Yes, heā€™s been supportive of my sobriety but Iā€™m holding onto a lot of anger over his drinking. I finally gave in and told him to show up if he wants but I doubt he will since I didnā€™t say it in a nice tone. Weā€™ll see.

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Omg Tomi, thatā€™s really scary. I remember you having those symptoms at the gym. Please donā€™t hesitate to call 911, itā€™s not dramatic at all. Better safe than sorry. Take it really easy until the results come back even if you start feeling better. In the meantime, keeping you in my prayers and thoughts. :pray: :heart:

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