Checking in day 76 for the first time in a while I really want a drink. At home alone feeling bored and angry and just over the monotany and tedium of sobriety. Have just dragged myself off the sofa and going out for a drive to the beach. Today I will not drink but today it’s fu*king hard not to 
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Vent the anger if you can. Work on the boredom. Just please don’t take that first drink. You’ve got this. Think of the goodness within your sobriety.
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H.A.L.T…you’ve got 2 of the 4 going on. A drive to the beach is an excellent plan. If you’re still craving when you get home, keep trying other things to change your mind set. Boredom can be challenging during sobriety. Just keep yourself busy. I find reading the meme thread helps me sometimes. Please don’t give up. Remember why you started this journey. Maybe write down all the horrible things drinking brought to your life.
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Let me know what you think! I’ve been wondering about that!
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Day 537. I decided to quit yet another job. I no longer feel safe here. The crew driver that was drinking while driving the crew home is legitimately dangerous and is looking for a fight. He already doesn’t like me because he knows I told management he was doing it, and then he had to stop.
With the current state I’m in I need to get out of here or risk getting hurt or arrested if there is a fight. Combine that with yesterday and it is better to leave I think. I did my absolute best to make it work, but I guess I am not as strong mentally as I thought.
I couldn’t deal with the constant criticism and teaching style. For Americans, it is insulting and demeaning to be treated that way. I am too old to change that about myself I realized. For Japanese people, it is normal in this type of environment. They likely feel the same way about my behavior. I guess what it comes down to is that if I don’t feel safe, and that my life could be in danger, it is time to move on.
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Day 223~ For the most part another great day. The sun 
was shining and I’m still sober. 
Work wasn’t as bad as it’s been… maybe I’m just becoming use to the craziness… who knows?
I’ve been feeling an emptiness lately. I think I miss being around people and actually doing things. I haven’t been with my friends in so long. Things are just so different now. When I think to reach out and make plans I get such anxiety and start thinking of ways to already ditch the plans. It’s so weird. Also confusing. I don’t know if I’m worried I won’t connect with them anymore or if I just feel they are superficial relationships. I can’t do fake. You can read every emotion and thought on my face. Maybe I have some resentment built up. I often make people a priority and It’s not always reciprocated back. I’m working on my boundaries but I’m only human and sometimes it just hurts.
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Howdy, y’all.
Still here. Still sober. 
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Ohhhh shit the bed fk a duck I’ve decided to not smoke I’m now a non smoker 13:hours in .checking in on day 63 clean and sober my dear friends encouragement welcome today.love you all lots and lots like jellytots 
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Checking in sober and cigarette free 
Its funny how just one day can change your mood. So far today seems better or I feel better, either way I’ll take it. Hope it’s a good day for everyone… keep fighting the fight 
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That’s so lovely of you to reply with encouring words .good on you I don’t rate vapes at all as the get used as a replacement for smoking for long-term which isn’t what there design for,I have some nicotine patches and inhaler and some gum for bed for first 4weeks.
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Thanks my lovely Irish rover 
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day 287! today was actually really good. I’ve been feeling a lot more confident about sobriety over the past week after a pretty rough month. hoping it continues
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Yeah been there done that and my personal experience with vape is a relied on it and was hooked on it soooooo much more than tobacco my nicotine intake was getting higher not lower BC like you said you could smoke it indoors and anywhere else really,I was a outdoor smoker BC I had kids but capeing you can do it in the comfort of you own home,.doesn’t seem like a great method tbh but that just my personal views.
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I’m here, I’m alive and I’m sober.
Day 25
And I almost finished writing on the exam.
Just the last question left and I’m about to write it right after my pumpkin spiced latte.
Wishing y’all an amazing day 
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Thank you, all good now
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- Coffee. My weekend is here. Time to regroup and recoup. Like @becsta I didn’t feel good the last couple of weeks, coinciding with returning to work. Appointment with doc tomorrow, she’ll want me to up my meds dosage when I tell her this. I’d rather not myself. I’m not at my best but at least I can feel and move around in many ways. Don’t want to go flat and numb.
I haven’t heard from the schema therapy group I’m supposed to join. I’ve been waiting for 4 months now. Could take another 4 actually. And maybe a second lockdown to come too in between. Well. I’ll have friends over for diner later. Happy I don’t have a huge job on making my place look presentable. I think it will be nice.
Thanks for being here all. Sober and clean is the way to go for me and for all of us or we wouldn’t be here. We’re in this together. Have a good day all. Love from my balcony where it’s autumn today.
@Lilemm You can do it Emma! It’s an addiction like all others. Use the same tools. NOPE (not one puff ever) ODAAT (you know that one) has been my mantra to quit smoking. It was a couple of hard days and weeks for a lifetime of freedom for me. You’ll experience it too!
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Checking in day 2
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I’m so proud of myself and how I’ve managed. Ive been very very lucky and actually not had many urges to relapse. I think this time I started with a very determined outlook so I’ve kept myself motivated and accountable.
I’ve been to friends houses for parties, dinner and pubs, which is actually risky but I’ve come out of every event without a single sense to drink. Funnily friends have said I look so much better and actually thinking of stopping/cutting themselves and I’ve been an inspiration (“If HE can quit alcohol anyone can!”).
I know there will come a time when i will suddenly get hit with the temptation but I’m still working on myself every day, reading my sobriety literature and visiting this forum and reading all your powerful stories.
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