Checking in daily to maintain focus #21

Checking in on day 7. 1 week. Today I am a bit annoyed. Don’t know why. But I am… The weather. The perspective of the partial lockdown the next weeks… But this is only the big picture. When I really listen into myself I’m feeling good. Grateful for being sober today. Looking forward to my meeting tonight :heart_eyes:

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Day 125…Man it has been a hell of a week. Lost a cat and a hamster this week, had a COVID scare, and work was crazy! Good news is that I love Fridays. I get a little now work and kids in school time to relax and unwind some. Got the kids in costume for school, had a nice breakfast this morning and worked on Christmas shopping a little. It has been a good 4 months and I m so glad made the decision to take this path rather than continue the direction I was going in. I believe there is still plenty of work to get exactly where I want to be, but I am definitely making progress and enjoying the journey! I hope everyone has a great Halloween/weekend!

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Thank you Rosa! You’re a huge asset here as well! :kissing_heart:

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He’s beautiful!

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Still going, I remember the first days I was here. I remember the struggle. Almost 100 days.

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Day 378 here. I have no longer urge for alcohol. Think my 2 bottles a night-rutine is a closed chapter.

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Day 53: I have had no urges to drink as of late, but I do envision drinking and situations where I drank. Sometimes it’s romanticizing but mostly it’s more detached and observational - some of it is shame-based processing and some of it is planning for this holiday season and potential triggers. I think about Halloween last year when I was wasted from starting early in the day and paranoid about giving out candy drunk off my ass, so I missed a lot of the trick or treaters, and my favorite thing every year is to see the kiddos. I cried because I want kids so bad and just sank in a drunk and depressed pool of self-pity. On my favorite holiday of the year. This was one of the big shifting moments for me in the contemplation stage of change leading up to the planning stage. I was starting to think to myself, “I want this (kids, sobriety, a happy life), but how do I actually make this happen?” I had gotten past the point of accepting I had a problem - I knew I could abstain for a couple few weeks when I “had” to or when I wanted to “prove” that I could but that was it, I’d be right back at it soon enough. That’s when I started doing some more research online, reading articles, and when I found the daily counter app that led me to Talking Sober. So, tomorrow is my 1 year anniversary, not of sobriety, but of being on the app and of what I consider my journey toward sobriety. I have lots more thoughts on this, and I’m thinking I might make a separate post, we’ll see.

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Feeling super frazzled and stressed. Very busy day at work, too many demands for my one brain. I’d normally hit the bottle or the pills after a day like this. I guess I will not do that tonight :exploding_head::exploding_head:

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Please don’t stop posting because you’re bitching. This is a safe place to vent and we all know that life isn’t a bed of roses. I feel for you and am here for you.

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Same here. I was really worried that I would lose the ability to enjoy music if I stopped drinking and getting high. And for the first few months that pretty much happened. I would just listen to podcasts all the time instead. Then I started getting back into music gradually, but new stuff, none of what I used to listen to. And then it was like my eyes suddenly opened up to all this cool new stuff and I was like a kid in a candy store. I think I love music more than any other time in my life right now, but it took a little while.

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Checking in October 30th
I feel Alert , concentrated focused not enough sleep due to my job but other then sleep iam doing just great i hope everyone else is doing amazing i cant get through tough days without you guys this app is the push i need :pray:

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45 likes aren’t you the popular one. It’s understandable :grin:Congrats on 150 days. Proud of you :heart:

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Thanks Paul! They all had a bet on me so I win! :rofl: :kissing_heart:

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it’s great when you can get your other half on side. it’s took mine a few years and a lot of arguing to eventually see that I do have a problem and that this is very important to me. Keep up the good work :+1:

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cool bc I like sticking with the winners these days :+1:

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Eventually we learn one lesson too many and the penny finally drops. There really is absolutely no benefits to drinking alcohol, it’s soul destroying isn’t it. The trick is to never get complacent, I know I’m quite capable of fucking all this up tommorow and that’s what keeps me focused today. Once an alcoholic always an alcoholic. Well done on your sober days.

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@apes2020 Omg yay for getting a kitten, which one did you make friends with today?
@anon79808082 congrats on 150! :star2::tada:
@icebear Congrats on 80 days! :tada:
@M-be-free49 Congrats on 4 months :tada: Sorry about your Mom and the grief it’s causing, it’s no wonder you’re feeling emotional, then dealing with this whilst adjusting to being back in the office and having people medling in your business, good for you for reminding them about boundaries. I’m also happily single, people don’t seem to get that those two words can go together. Enjoy your weekend with dog girl and your writing, sending strength.
@ChicagoT Congrats on 700! Approaching 2 years :tada:
@PinkyP Well done for getting back to sobriety :raised_hands:t2: atleast you know you can do it :blush:
@Misokatsu Congrats on 80! :tada:
@anon27760155 Congrats on 90!! :star2::tada: I hope you’re recovering well from your surgery :pray:t2:
@Tommo Congrats on 8 weeks, and Happy Birthday! :partying_face::tada: Hope you had a nice day off with family :blush:

49 days.

A peaceful Friday. Started with a lateish walk, didn’t set off until 9, usually I’ve been out the door at 7. Nevermind. Then some more of the trauma conference which has become an interesting part of my morning routine and helps me to spend more time on my sofa and off the bed.

Then the DBT Zoom session, all about distraction and self-soothing today, I feel I’ve had a lot of practice at that with getting sober :raised_hands:t2:

Then did my cleaning as I had a viewing on my flat at 5pm.

Have been catching up on this thread since then and had dinner. I have been craving pizza for a whole week now and it’s been really hard to resist, I almost gave in and went to buy one, but I decided to.weigh myself instead and I’m glad I did because I have lost another 6lb this week and that gave me the motivation I needed to not eat junk :muscle:t2:

Have a great sober weekend everyone, see you tomorrow :blue_heart:

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Continuing because more than 10 mentions:

@Cler Congrats on 90! :star2::tada:
@anon28001181 Congrats on 80! :tada:
@anon35096624 Congrats on 1 week :blush::tada:@anon60334405 Sorry you’re feeling stuck, it sucks that you can’t ditch the guy you’re training with, he doesn’t sound supportive and I guess you feel you can’t stand up to him due to training at his house :confused: Don’t retreat inside yourself though, it’s good that you’re here sharing.

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Thank you, Tyler!!

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Way to go on the 49 days. And not eating the pizza. During my weight loss journey I found out for real. Pizza is like one of the worst calorie foods out there :cry:
I found I was better off having a simple cheeseburger is a lot lower in calories. And I love cheeseburgers.
:pray:t2::heart:

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