Thanks @Dazercat.
Thanks Stella. I will keep working on my confidence and try to put myself into uncomfortable situations now and then,thatās the only way itās going to get better. I agree I know Iāll have alot to offer, Iām definitely not in a rush. Man when I was drinking that was all I romatisized was having this awesome relationship. And now itās really not anything I think about. But I also havenāt been around girls in a long time lol. Thanks for the awesome works of encouragement 
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Haha, German quality is made in far east 
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Day 154: Not around the forum as much today because I am diving into some massive home reorganizing projects this weekā¦Iām already exhausted! I ordered a new mattress this weekend and the base/frame arrives tomorrow, mattress on Friday, so tearing down/rearranging the bedroom and cleaning has led to the next project and then next, if you know how that goes. Skipping the booze has let me save some money to buy a nice mattress - good sleep is vital! Our old one is over a decade old and Iām tired of sinking into the middle.
Miss Lupe dog says she aināt scurrd of the frigid weather so my attempts this weekend to skip walks were to no avail - and weāre headed out now for a half mile speed walk.
Sending big love out today on this Monday. 
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Great news!! Your charismatic self is attracting all your worth!
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Updateā¦ Treatment Center called! Meetings them tomorrowā¦ Yah! 
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Checking in, day 95. Iām feeling ok, this half marathon Iām about to take gave me goal and motivation, although itās so icy here that the last time I could run was on Friday. But itās still something I can plan, wait, be psyched about and prepare for. I didnāt even smoke recently. Thanks @zzz for sharing it!
I have a lot of work, pretty interesting tasks and it also helps not to slip back to a depressed faze. Sometimes itās hard to be a freelancer without coworkers, without feedback, working always alone, so I tend to forget how much I appreciate this job, I have to remind myself to value it.
My carving tools arrived a couple of days ago, so as soon as I have time I will continue to make clay figures. I canāt wait to start, as it completely switches me off.
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Day 36, checking in. I have been feeling a bit disconnected recently. Whats with that!?!?
Not really wanting to reach out, even if I am craving the company. I go through waves like this once in awhile.
Normally end up curled up on a couch with a glass of wine to relieve it. NOT GOING TO DO THAT, TO BE CLEARš. Lately, I have found I go through the whole night without once thinking about the fact that I am not drinking alcohol. Then I have a wow moment. So no worries at this point of relapsing.
I do believe that we need solitude, but thinking my current desire for it isnāt healthy, more like I am hiding, from what I havenāt a clue.
Tonight, I think I will get my youngest to play a new board game and attempt to losen this funk that has taken ahold of me. Maybe I just need hugs or to give hugsā¦need to find myself some peeps who are open for random hugs (fully masked of course, no need for any alarmš).
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Hi all. Good diving today, saw 3 dolphins close-up, a reef shark at some distance, and a cute little ray.
Not bad.
Anyway, I have to get to bed, since I have to get up at about 2.45 AM to leave on my bus tour to Cairo and the Pyramids. Looking forward to it, despite the long dayā¦ and the fact that the tour group is all Russians / Ukrainians. Itās a good thing that I can speak Russian.
Other than thatā¦ as some of you probably know, I donāt have a lot very good to say about myselfā¦ but today, I must admit, Iām kind of pleased with myself.
In a couple of minutes, Iāll hit my 6-month markā¦ six months without a drop of alcohol of any kindā¦ Iām rather pleased.
Goodnight all
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24 days sober!
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Doin what I do with you peeps. Thx for the help, support and for just plain being thereā¦Be well Peeps
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Iām happy for everyone that continues to keep trying. I made it to almost 6 months and had belief that it was okay to have some alcoholā¦ needless to say now I feel like a failureā¦ just gotta keep trying.
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Its not failure, its unfinished success Author Unknown.
Welcome back, @Alynn361! Today just focus on today, its your day to succeedā„ļø
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Excellent work friend! 6 Months is awesome. Enjoy the pyramids. I was there in 1973, 7 years old, and I do remember it. Made some impression right.
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Looking good for a Deadman my friend! Love your numbers. Thanks for being here and sharing your sobriety.
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@anon27700620 Congratulations! I would love to go to Egypt.
@Alynn361 Many of us have been there. Eventually the message that no drinking at all is the only way to go sticks. It only has to stick once.
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I bet that was cool, Menno. Did they look huge? I canāt imagine standing near them!
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I am happy to see you here Amanda. Youāre no failure. The past is just that. Tomorrow is still far away. Today is when it happens. Stay sober today and repeat tomorrow. You canāt fail. Get support from us or from any group you feel at home with. Alone itās too much. Together we can do this. Success.
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Oh WOW! So incredible! And camels, lol.
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