Thank you @CATMANCAM 
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584 Days. I was speaking to a newbee last night after my womanās AA meeting and she mentioned itās been a challenge to find in person meetings due to covid. Iāve been leading a Monday night meeting and gave her the info. Well, the meeting leader called me aside and asked if I had a sponsor. I replied ānot at the moment due to circumstances beyond my control.ā She had the nerve to tell me that I shouldnāt be doing ANY service work without a sponsor. Wtf?! Who is she to tell me what I should and shouldnāt be doing? I walked away before I said something Iād later regret.
I then went out to dinner with a few of the AA ladies and I had to bring this up. It was eating away at me. Turns out theyāve all had their run ins with this same person a few years ago. She comes across as the queen of AA. I donāt care how many years she has on me, weāre all just a drink or a drug away from being back at day one.
The kicker is, I didnāt volunteer to lead Monday meetings. I was asked by the old timers that attend that meeting to do service, knowing I donāt currently have a sponsor. Obviously they have no problem with me.
Anyway, Iāll do what I should do and Iāll pray for this person. I have to because itās still bothering me today and I canāt hold onto this resentment.
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@Dolse71
Thank you for your very kind message. I donāt know how to direct message though. How is that done?
you just tap on someoneās little pic and it will give you the option to message.
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Unless their profile is hidden.
Then tap on your icon top right and double click the envelope up in top right. And on the left will give you option for new message. Add who you want to PM.
Sorry to butt in 
I just learned this.
Checking in day 203.
Last day of my first ever sober vacation. Something I had stressed about months ago. I kept very busy and never thought about it. Passed 3000$ on my savings calculator!
I got my second dose today, and feel great both physically and emotionally about it.
I hope you all are doing awesome! Keep fighting the good fight, and taking things 1 day at a time.
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Sounds like a great day all around 
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Day 300.
For real! Thank you all for the congrats and lovely messages. Heartwarming and means a great deal to me.
I was super slow today. Part from staying up late, part just needing a day to recharge my batteries. I really ignored so much about my self care when I was so focused on making it to wine oāclock each day. Now itās indulgent to have relax oāclock. My mug of tea. My book, my crossword. A nap. A chat with a pal and no worries whether she wonders if Iāve been drinking. And time to check in with all of you.
Ah, but - Oscars or no - itās a school night! 
Earlier to bed for this weakling! Gānight friends. Letās set our sights on a fine sober tomorrow. 
@SoberWalker Itās always so good when you pop in! And congrats on those big numbers! Quadruple digits soon. I hope you will let us bake the cookies for you! 
@Beforemy30s I love it! I often find just really focusing on being present to all the sensory things around me (like lemonade! conversation!) - paying real attention, but without effort (if that makes sense) - snaps me back into the right frame of mind.
@Dazercat oh, you will eat zucchini chocolate cake. Youāll eat it, and youāll like it! 
@C_8 now, how did you know? I really do run a lot like that!
@MrsOdh what a lovely, and true, thing for your friend to say. You deserve to hear this!
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Today has been a very uneventful day. I slept most of the day. I think that I am dealing with a bout of depression and it sucks. At least I am still clean. I didnt get to go to church like I wanted because the church wasnt having service this week. After all this covid stuff the way they do church is different. I miss my home church family but unfortunately right now I am not allowed to do what i want when I want. I just want to get over this hurdle in my life right now. Once this is over then i can go back to getting closer to my goals.
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Most excellent!
CONGRATULATIONS 
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Havenāt checked in in a while. Iām still sober and drinking is a thing of the past! Itās simply not who I am any longer. I just made my first full on time tax payment in like 5 or 6 years? If you know, you knowā¦lol When I was drinking my life away I didnāt file taxes for years while self employed and it has caught up with me. I finally decided to face that battle last year. Iām on a payment plan with the state DOR and my federal taxes are still being processed due to covid causing delays. Iāve been chipping away at the state taxes and just paid 2020ās state taxes in full! Filed on time so no penalties! Federal taxes are waiting to be paid, just waiting for the feds to process my 2020 filing so I can get that one taken care! Itās so liberating to be finally taking care of my responsibilities and not running away from them. After I pay my federal, Iām paying my auto loan off and the 1 credit card I have. Iāve got ALL of the money in my savings account because Iām not drinking and eating it away or too hung over to not go to work hard enough to save! In just under 2 years Iām slowly piecing life back together.
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@M-be-free49 Super congratulations!
@Desire2ChangeToday Nice to see you. And well done on all the amazing changes u are making!
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Thank you fleur. Right back at you!
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Congrats on the 300 club!
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All great stuff you got going on there Shay. All because youāre sober. Keep up the great work and congratulations on your 638 days of sobriety.
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Great catch! Congrats on 300 days sober, keep on keeping on ODAAT!
Blessings and sobriety!
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Welcome Venessa. I noticed your new around here. Sorry you got to be stuck inside and canāt do what you want. I get some of those bouts of depression every once and awhile. Not a clinical depression thing. Anyway. Sometimes I just got to feel it a day or 2 hopefully not 3. And when I get to bed sober I reckon it was a successful day.
Have you watched any good movies lately? Lots of good Oscar Nominated movies this year. Love Sound Of Metal. And Promising Young Woman and The Father.
I hope you feel better tomorrow.
Oh, and terrific Job on 636 days clean. Thatās awesome 
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Day 11. A lovely sober weekend done. Iām still feeling all kinds of emotions and anxiety and shame over facing up to this new journey and facing my actions in the past, especially when I wake up. Iām my own worst critic.
But, one day at a time and āthis too shall passā. Have wonderful Mondaus everyone 
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