Never stop trying April.
But let’s try something different.
If nothing changes. Nothing changes.
You’re so worth the benefits of a clean sober life. Your such a beautiful soul. Find some NA meetings. Get more in person support. I know you want this thing called sobriety. You don’t have to explain a thing. Just get back up with an open mind and please get some extra help. I want you back here. I miss our little banters and chats and memes and foodie check ins.
I’ll be praying God puts the right people in the right place to get you through this.
- Coffee. Feeling good. Had a close to ideal Sunday where I got to relax and chill out, and also do a lot of chores at home but in a very relaxed way, and I booked myself a little holiday. Just two nights but I think it will be a nice little break. In a couple of hours I’m picking up a rental
, throw my 
in the back and of I go to the south for two days of being away from it all. The weather is supposed to be really nice before getting wet later in the week so I thought I’d better take my change and move.
None of this involves drinking or drugging. If it would I would not do any of this. I would not have cleaned my whole house yesterday (and certainly not have felt rested afterwards), I would not have booked this little trip. I would have woken up hungover, sick, with an aching head and an empty day ahead. Never again. I’m sober and clean and I love it this way. Have as good a week as you all can friends. Clean and sober. Love from Amsterdam where Luna will be taken care of by a friend who lives close by. I always feel a bit guilty going away like this but I know she’ll be fine.
@Beforemy30s We all are our own worst critics A. We tend to stay stuck so long in this cycle of using and self loathing. You’re breaking this habit. Be proud of what you’re doing now. I’m proud of you. Double digits is awesome. Keep going.
@AyBee Nice one friend.
@apes2020 Don’t give up. It’s up to you to find out why and what, but nobody says you need to do that alone. Good you’re getting help. Get all you can get. You’re not alone.Hugs.
Checking in on day 8. Have a great day everyone xx
Well done madam 
Hitting that check-in to signal my commitment to myself. One week without pouring that poison down my throat, let’s make it two!!!
@apes2020 Look at the quote under the number, if you keep trying it will eventually stick, I have faith in you. But you have to make that extra push.
@Mno Have a fab time! Take some pics! My life is very domestic, I would love some vicarious travelling!
@Jennajen Congratulations! So happy for you!
Day 258
Recently I have making my lunch while I am making dinner. It means I have more time in the evenings after dinner/bath etc. I have made some nice sandwiches with a little extra zing like chopped spring onions in or a Japanese style box lunch (bento). It made me realise I have prepared and eaten lunch every day the last 258 days. How many times before that did I not prepare anything? My husband would make me take an instant ramen that I couldn’t face eating and I just brought it home again. A little thing, but a great change.
Day 231: Feeling well rested and ready to own this Monday! It’s chore day, cleaning and laundry, Tues. is trash and recycling day, so gathering/bundling up and taking to the curb, etc. But first, I’m starting the morning with recovery work. It’s my new routine - minimum of 1 hour of reading/journaling and therapy homework to start the day. That includes check-in and gratitude post here.
I had an awesome conversation last evening with my temp sponsor about our recovery journeys, AA, and step work. It’s really wonderful that she has stepped up to help me. So grateful! I think this process is going to be very impactful, and to know that she always a text or call away if I need adds something really important to my recovery resources.
Much love on this Monday morning, amigos. 
Proud of you!
Look at the achievements your making,
Even having an option of a Master degree is an awsome goal, i feel like a cheerleader wanting you to keep going! You deserve all the sucess in your life!
Its time to accept that i need professional help with my sex addiction… This behavioural addiction is knocking me and at the moment has a big hold on me but i have to get a grip on this addiction as its not as simple as sex… It takes me down routes of pure insanity which will lead me to pick up alcohol and drugs and its at that thought that im fighting back… Its a struggle but i dont want to be that broken again. I dont want to be on a cold street floor being spat at, looked at as scum. I don’t want to dislike myself again and i don’t want to lose the people here as i close myself up and just destroy what ive build.
So ive sorted an apointment and its time to sort a program out for an addiction that is slowly dictating my every fucking thought…
I need to feel the sun on my face and not just have obsessive thoughts of debrauchery not fucking healthy!!!
So while i still have hope on holding onto my sober days… I want 9months… Dont break me now!
@Jennajen I second what Danni said - you are really making some wonderful strides and it’s inspiring to watch. You remind me of me about 15 years ago (LOL) and it makes me feel jazzed to think I could get some of that old Rosa motivation and confidence back again. I’m so glad to be on this journey with both of you inspiring ladies! The fact that you have choices and you’re making them boldly with the future unknown and it’s not freaking you out - it amazes me. Right on, sister!
And I’m proud of YOU, you amazing woman. It takes courage to get help when you need it, acceptance and a willingness to let someone in to your deepest challenges is hard and you’re taking those steps for your recovery. Well done. I hope you’ll keep checking in after you’ve had your appointment. Get after it!
So very proud of you Danni 
It takes courage to reach out and admit you’re powerless on your own. You are more than your addiction even if now it has a hold of you. Thank you for letting me be a part of your journey.
You rock Christopher Allen!!
Day 318 clean and sober today. Hoping to hear about the job today, fingers crossed!!! Have a great day everyone, love you guys!!!
@Jennajen congrats on 10 months!! That is so amazing, keep up all the hard work 
@Soundlab The important thing is you’re here and still want sobriety. We’re here for you!
I’m sad that the cartwheel gifs you sent me no longer move 
But congratulations on your awesome numbers…
Oh, and there’s this 
Congratulations on your 10 months Jenna!!!