Checking in on day 316. Ready for another sober week and all the feelings it will bring.
I’m proud of all of us for fighting for each day, especially those who have had to restart their counters and haven’t given up hope. I can’t count how many times I had to try before I made it past a few days and then all of a sudden it just clicked.
Have a great one guys 
Yay Emm!! 300 days!! 1 year is around the corner!! Congrats keep up the good work!!
. I’ve also been having such a hard time with my brother he’s been out on a binge for a week and we had to track him down to see if he was alive. My mom is still in such denial about him. She tells us his life just fell apart. I was talking to my brother and I said we’ve all been there we’ve offered him help but he refuses to admit to us that he’s using but my mom really can’t face it and all she talks about is how horrible things are for him. He stopped drinking only to start using drugs again. I’m just sad for him and I will do anything to get him help. I’m sorry I’m rambling I guess I’m just going through a lot and needed to let it all out. Have a Blessed Monday TS Fam 
One of my favourite things about sobriety is how much better my diet is. Three proper meals a day. Consciously healthy. Bigger, more satisfying portions than ever before, and yet I’m losing weight. Love it.
That’s amazing! I know exactly how that is too. But now I’m completely debt free and on my way to buying my first home. When I was using I could careless about my credit and unfortunately it got way out of control. But, I’ve been working on it for the awhile now and I couldn’t be happier it’s so freeing.
Checking in at the end of day 113. 
A quiet, straightforward day in work. They were pretty rare on a Monday in my previous life.
Happy to be back here, but it definitely makes me think about drinking more than I did when I was away. I’ll have to keep an eye on that.
Have a great sober day, wherever you are.
Goodnight. 
I’m here, I’m alive and I’m sober.
Day 239
And I’m freaking dying from laughter.
We finally got ahold of the social service today, they agreed on changing their investigation because some of it was pure lies. They also changed their approach to the entire situation, and we’re actually really nice friendly and all of a sudden on our side. They haven’t find any foster care home for tweenie though. And they said that the way this have been handled from the very beginning, and the fact that she practically just got dumped here with her history and no backup whatsoever for us, was totally wrong and never should have happened.
So I guess that’s a small victory.
My friend the one who’s kid we where watching all weekend had talked to the social service today. They’ve went so far so they talked to the boss, and talked about finding a weekend family for the boy so they all can work on their issues and so the boy can get extra support.
The social service asked if my friend had any suggestions and he said that he had the perfect family, where the father was a close friend and colleague to him that has been in the picture ever since the boy was a baby. Where the mother is a former social worker with experience from troubled children and substance abuse. And where two of his best friends lives.
Then he mentioned our names.
I’ve been complaining and even filed two complaints against the social service here in our case. And had a lot of contact with the social service boss. She told my friend that she’s going to look into it. We finished our phone call with the social service an half an hour before my friend called them.
I think they’re getting really tired of me at the social service office by now.
I feel sorry for my friend, and I hope his boy gets all the help he needs. But I can’t help feeling like I got my name cleared from all this chaos that came with tweenie.
And that’s a feeling I haven’t felt in a long time
I didn’t put in my exam today, I’m not attending the seminar tomorrow. I don’t have the energy to do it, and I’ve talked to my teacher about it. She’s going to make a plan so I can do it later and won’t miss anything important. And I can still take the teaterstudies next term. I’m strangely calm about that too.
A pretty good day.
I wish y’all an amazing week
@Desire2ChangeToday Great to hear from you & awesome job on tackling the financial responsibilities.
@Mno Have an awesome trip.
@Jennajen Congratulations on 10 months. Seeing the changes in you make me smile.
@anon27760155 Oh Danni. . .I’m so proud of you and your self-awareness while taking this step. I hope you find a great program to meet your needs.
@Rockstar24777 Fingers & toes crossed for you.
314 days. Anxiety is high already this morning. Got a call from one of the jobs asking if I would be willing to accept the position based on a stated salary. Have agreed to give it some thought and am to call back this afternoon. I despise making decisions based on money but the salary is barely above minimum wage and the salary range for the position I want is double. I don’t want to turn down a job, but don’t want to sell myself short either. I wish I could find out the results of the position I want. Lacking options to overwhelming situation.
That’s something though! An offer is great! If they’re low balling you you have every right to respond with a counter offer or say you want to be closer to x amount per hour. I hope you hear from the other soon!
Can you call the position you want and tell them the truth; you really want to work for their company but you’ve gotten an offer that was your 2nd choice…
That’s a good idea…
So is yours!! 
That’s amazing, congratulations! Good luck on your search for your new family home! 
So happy for you.
Thank you my friend!
@DLS and @RosaCanDo thanks so much for the suggestions. I actually have the opportunity to do both but at this point am a lil hesitant. I fear rejection calling HR where I want to work and feel a lil like I’m trying to force things. A counter offer with the other position is the plan but more asking what their top offer is. If I haven’t heard from the position I want by 2, I will call the one with the offer.
I’m with Rosa on this one! Good luck with whatever direction you choose to go in. You know your worth, don’t settle or sell yourself short!
I understand where you are very well.
I see you trying a bunch of new things to strengthen your recovery and they will work once the ball is rolling, I truly believe that. I feel like your addiction is just desperately trying to regain complete control of you in fear of losing. All you need to do is hang on tighter to your recovery than your addiction is pulling you away. It will stick April, it might be harder this time, but I feel like you are willing to try anything. Don’t ever give up, we are walking beside you through all of this.
Oh & just to make things interesting, I won’t hear from my 2nd choice until Friday! I have emailed them questioning the starting salary range and just may have to call them before Friday. Whatever’s meant to happen will happen but I’m soooooooo happy things are happening.
