Finally another benchmark…
Almost. Feeling great!
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Day 126.
6.36am.
2nd last day of winter.
Here is a quote from the book I’m reading 
Happy Monday friends
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I don’t only because they don’t sell wine in grocery stores here in Kansas. I think you are amazing. Font beat yourself up over phoning support whilst walking thru the wine aisle.
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That was good information. Thanks, Zzz.
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Yes! Except I can’t walk now! 
That looks like a great book! Just reading that quote is motivating me to clean my room. Is that the 5am one??!
Happy almost last day of winter!!
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The jello wobbly legs are the worst lol… Its so funny trying to sit down and get up with your thighs not co operating
Yep thats from the 5am club 
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37 days sober.
The trick, for me, to getting through a social situation where alcohol is present isn’t to will myself to stay sober through the whole evening. It is to get through everyone’s first couple of rounds. Watching drunk people try to talk over each other to hear the sound of their own voices is an immediate repellant to alcohol cravings and the want to be “in on the fun”.
I can’t wait to wake up hangover-free.
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Day 401?
And I see day 399 check in.
What happened to 400?
Your not getting out of here without a congratulations on day 400. That’s huge!
No you’re not.
Congratulations on your 400 days of freedom Sarah.
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Checking in on a restful Sunday. I needed that!! Hope all is well for all!!
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Day 28 No Alcohol / Day 274 No Cannabis
My relapse was four Sundays ago. Today was much better than that… Something was off today. Not sure what – not with sobriety just with the vibe of the day. But overall it was fine. Going to bed early tonight 
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Day 79 continuous sobriety. My MIL just arrived today and will be staying with us for an ambiguous and unspecified length of time. I excused myself and went on a 37 mile bike ride this afternoon. It was a beautiful day, and I couldn’t have done that if I was drinking.
I hope everyone had a good weekend. Congratulations on four weeks without alcohol @MagicILY! Keep up the great work.
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I’m not doing so well…
Maybe I should just give up let the fucking substance take…
I don’t fucking belong
I’m Manipulate
I’m abusive
I’m a compulsive liar
I don’t want to be In my head. I’ve brought a bottle of wine… I am on the verge of opening it and just downing the bottle…
I don’t deserve happiness, I don’t deserve to recover…
I am that CUNT who deserves nothing.
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Danni. You chose not to drink. You can choose to drink. But do me a favor. Don’t drink today. Just this day. I can’t imagine what your going through. But you’ve come so fucking far to throw it all away. You know what’s going to happen. Play the tape.
You are a beautiful woman. You are so fucking kind and generous and so helpful to all of us. Throw that bottle out right now.
CMon Danni.
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Danni.
What’s really going on?
I’m here if you want to chat or vent or whatever.
What can I do to help?
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That is such a beautiful thing to see! I’m so proud of you!
If you quit now you will end up where you first began. And when you first began, you were desperate to be where you are right now. Keep going!!
You got so much love right here.
Don’t do this to yourself.
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Beauty. Beautiful Danni.
You do so belong.
You are brave and a warrior.
You are caring and compassionate
You are honest.
I have a host of examples of all of this from this forum alone.
You are also human. And feeling pain, deep pain. But you are SO worthy of happiness, of acceptance, of love. I have felt you give these things to me - if you want the truth. (EDIT: also? In my weakest times, I have put you in my mind as one of the courageous ones whose example I lean on. And you’ve pulled me through, Gurl.)
Please - please don’t open the wine. Please open your heart just a teeny crack, and let us show you who we see. You are everything good. And human.
We accept you for who you are. I do.
And love you. 
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@anon27760155 i remember reading you wanted to work with the other clients from the facility that has helped you. think about what you would say to one of them, how you would care for them and turn that love inward because you are worth it to. sending strength and hugs. good luck
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Know you are cared for, know you are loved, know that you do belong. Know that you came to the right place to talk, cry, scream and do whatever you want to do while fighting off the drinking urges. Embrace yourself as we embrace you. You are not alone. One step at a time get through this hard painful time. I’m glad you posted. 
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Get rid of the bottle if you can safely. If there’s a trash chute, toss it.
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