congrats on 2 weeks 
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100 is amazing, well done
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Day 8 of being sober, today was tiring but successful, I got my hair done and I actually really like it. I know itās only been a week but Iām really glad I found this community of people, o was sceptical as to whether it would help .org not, but at like 12AM on Thursday(night) I was tempted to do it, but I just came on here, typed what I wasnāt feeling and the urge went away, hope that helps at least someone. goodnight.
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I was happy, to see you 
Memes last night. 
Damn Good therapy
Happy 100 days of the new you Carolyn.
Congrats 
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Itās great having you lead the way Captain. Iām so happy for you.
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Congratulations! Thatās a great number! 
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Carolyn happy 100 days! Iām so happy you have family there to celebrate with you! 
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Quick check-in - Day 8. I hope everyone is having a wonderful Saturday. Onward and upward 
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Day 3 after relapse,
Checking in, I canāt complain about today. Gonna binge a show for the rest of the night and pray for sleep. All stay well, grateful for each of you!!
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Checking inā¦ 1 year 8 months 30 days, tomorrow I will have a year and 9 months sober. Today I went back to North Minneapolis (where I used to get heroin since I was 15 so a big trigger) for the first time in almost 2 years. They had a free community give away so I got some free things. Then I went to the Goodwill. I had a really good day. I am getting out of my apartment more and not having anxiety/panic attacks. Only downside is is my roommate who is in recovery steals from stores. She walked right out of Goodwill with a cart of stuff. I said something to her about it but sheās gonna keep doing it. Iām just glad I am not boosting stuff while being sober but just as I typed this I realize she is still sick in her disease just not using so I will pray for her. Anyway I am excited for Thanksgiving next week! I am going to my parents with my cat for 5 days lol kinda excessive but I told them I wanted to be there for a while. Well, happy to be here, happy to be sober.
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Checking in day 7 - went to my first meeting this morning, was good everyone was very friendly - itās really good hearing things you can relate to in others, when youāve spent your life feeling so ashamed and as if itās just you. Will definitely be going back. Also met up with a friend who I would usually go out drinking with (she drinks a fair bit but in a normal way and knows when to stop, never gets out of control). Was a bit worried about saying I wasnāt drinking this time, had lunch and was debating having āone or twoā (that wonāt hurt right?) But have to remind myself, no one or two wonāt hurt, but I canāt do one or two. So anyway told her i wasnāt drinking but happy for her to. She was fine with it, went to a few bars and pubs and didnāt touch a drop (I know itās a bit risky to do this but Iām also conscious if I cancel my social life, that in itself will make me go back to drinking, so I need to be able to do normal things sober - within reason). Pretty pleased with myself, still had a good time. Was kind of nice to be the sober one for once. And good to be back home after a night out at a reasonable hour and with no head spinning! And no shame, anxiety and embarrassment to wake up to tomorrow. Might even go for a morning run! Iām glad Iāve shown myself I can do this! 
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Just remember your an alcoholic bc I went to a funeral and stood at the bar for 3 hours without alcohol the next day I told myself an alcoholic wouldnāt be able to do that so I went and got drunk as I wasnāt one 
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Hahaha yes, that thought pattern is something Iāve fallen into before. The longer Iām sober and the further away I am from the drunken chaos and embarrassment, I start to think well maybe it wasnāt actually that bad, maybe I can control it. The thing is for me, I do believe that I can make a choice not to drink at all, even if itās hard sometimes. But what I know is that I cannot stop myself once Iāve started drinking, and thatās what I have to remember, because as you say, I am an alcoholic.
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I love this and Iām bound to steal it at a meeting. You can make the choice to stop but as soon as you have one drink you have no choice at all. 
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Thanks bunches, Charlie! 
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Yep itās exactly what you and Dana were talking about yesterday I believeā¦ rigorous honesty.
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Checking in, day 3. It is getting harder. I always drank at night. Start at 6 and be done by 8:30. This time of day is hard for me. I fooled myself into believing it was just a bad habit that I could break. I have not been sober past 4 days in 5 years.
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Day 37, doing ok didnāt check in today. I hate it when fucking dealers fine ways to get ahold of you even tho I got them fucking blocked, messaged me through another friend saying 3. For 2. Iām just ignoring them and moving on but wtf does it wake that demon up real fucking quick, at first it was nothing then my mind keeps going 3 for 2 damn thatās a good deal. Itās fucking not, one half the shit going around is killing everyone around here and two, if heās trying to get rid of it like that something aināt right. I will stay sober, I have My girls but now my blood is boiling and part of me wants to cuss this fucker out
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