It is beautiful 
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Hey,
In 6 hours it will Mark one week since I last had a drop of alcohol,
A lot has happened in that week, I have made positive decisions, made good memories and spent time in the moment with family. Unfortunately today has been a little worse, my superwomanās world has crumbled a little with the news that her fathers lung cancer has returned and all treatment options have been considered but because of his Iāll health he is too poorly for any viable treatment options.
Needless to say my rock needs me to be her rock, had this been a week ago I would have gone to the shop bought a bottle of vodka and been selfish, yet this week I am certain that I can step up and be there, no questions and be her support.
A struggle is going on in my head and I have a 12 hour night shift starting in 3 hours but Iām not giving in to it, Iām already planning on making a nice surprise breakfast for her for when she wakes up to go to work and taking care of all the housework before I go to bed ready for the second night shift I work tomorrow night.
My head is in bits for her but while my heart is beating I will not let her down!
Much love to all you guys keeping focussed! Hope you have a great day!
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Iāll keep your wifeās father and her and you and your family in my prayers. Itās so good you can be sober and strong for her.
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Good man; THATāS what itās all about.
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Thank you!
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Wow! The gifts of recovery are already presenting themselves to u. The fact that u CAN be present for ur family during their time of need is such a gift! Proud of you 
and congratulations on ur upcoming 1 week of sobriety! I am sorry to hear about ur wifeās father tho 
she must be devastated. Cancer sucks
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Checking in on day 119. My favorite thing about being sober has been waking up without a hangover and mornings have now become the best part of my day. This morning Iām driving inland to see family, relax and smile knowing Iām sober, just for today. 
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Morning check in
Slept well have the day off work today as hubby has to go to tattoo someone. Going to clean this place up and get it ready for another week! Still feeling a little off from last night. My hubby has shown no acknowledgment of the way he spoke to me last night. He thinks that by just ignoring it, the problem disappears on its own. Like meā¦ he has his own coping tools. Not necessarily healthy ones either 
He tends to have the attitude that if you dont talk about it or deal with it, it will go away. He rarely apologizes and blames me for alot of things when in fact it was his doing. He will say that he said something to me (when he didnt) and then blame me for not listening right. Haha excuse me?! āNo you didnāt say that so stop making things upā lol Well, I donāt fall for that shit. Iāve been around enough people with distorted thinking and acting to trust my gut. I never deny whatās going onā¦ Yes it sucks to hear those things from someone who says they love u, but I donāt let it effect me to the point where I think Iām going crazy. I know he had a rough upbringing (mom had stage 5 cancer, he saw a family member commit suicide, 1 brother went missing, 1 overdosed, sister died from breast cancer, never knew his father etc, spent many years in prison etc), but as an adult he needs to take responsibility for his actions. There is only so much a person can blame on their past for. There HAS to be a point where someone says, āyes I had a shitty childhood BUT I canāt use that as an excuse to treat people like shitā. Itās like my abusive ex who used to blame drugs/alcohol for treating me the way he didā¦ well when are YOU going to take responsibility? And if you know substances cause u to act this way, why are u still using them? Anyway, those are my thoughts this morning lol today is going to be fān fabulous day bcuz I will make it that way! Cleaning and selfcare is on the menu for today! Oh! And I get to try out these shower steamer things. I got them for my bday and they are being dropped off today! Should be relaxing! Luv to all hugs
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Kat here checking in Day 123 feeling good.
On Day 6 of my pre-op diet and I slipped last night, had a piece of pulled pork from my kidās lunch sandwich and a couple handfuls of tortellini pasta from their dinner 
Back on track today and hopefully itās not enough to derail the surgery (the diet is to shrink my liver so the surgeon can move it out of the way to get to my stomach).
There were definitely some addictive feelings happening around that. Sigh.
Well driving to the big city hotel later in preparation for the surgery. Did have a using dream last night about addictively using the Percocet they are giving me for after. However in reality Not gonna relapse on that.
Have a great Day TS Forum members!
Kat
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I just want to say good morning everyone and I hope that your day is stress free and i pray that you get the guidance and strength that you need to make it through your day I woke up grateful this morning Iām so happy God gave me the gift of life
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Welcome to the forum! Thank you for your positivity this morning hope u have a fabulous day!
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Checking in with a somewhat better headspace today (and head/sinuses are feeling better physically, as well). There is no doubt that physical and mental health are so inextricably linked, is there. I am treating myself gently today - at other times when recovering from a physical ailment I have put a lot of pressure on myself to catch up on things around the house and end up doing a ping pong between feeling better and feeling worse again. Way, way frustrating. And I only do it to myself. It comes down to finding balance and continuing on living in a recovery-forward, recovery-minded way. And I will keep trying to live my best life. I appreciate the words of support from you amigos here, thank you. 
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I wish you the best possible results
Take care of yourself and I hope you have a good day today
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A few days late, but sending good vibes your wayā¦
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77 days sober today and stoked 
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Thank you very much for your support. Peace.
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Day 541 clean and sober today. Went out to coffee and made a new friend this morning. Fighting the challenges of social anxiety lmao, almost didnāt go. If nothing changes nothing changes right??? Had a really nice time Iām glad I went. Anyway itās Thursday for me, I hope everyone has a beautiful day today. Love you guys!!! 
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Thatās bad ass your husbandās a tattoo artist. Sweet. Hope you guys all have a good day
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Day 52. Last night was good,this morning was rough. Stressing about I donāt even know. Just kind of feeling like I should give up on my dreams. I donāt ever want or seek validation when I post my work, I post it to keep myself accountable and hopefully get some insight. On my Facebook some ppl do and always say they love my work but honestly I feel alot of it is fake. But Iāve been posting on some other groups and I just get zero likes. But when nobody even likes or comments on your stuff to me itās telling me I suck. Yes I do what I do for me bc I love it. But when you just get zero feedback it makes you think stuff. And no Iām not talking here, yāall support me the best you can. But why would my higher power line me up on this path if it wasnāt for me idk much love in rambling
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