I’m so glad you shared this, SC! I resonate with your words so much. Brown lady here! Used to be quite confident and independent…PTSD from an harassing, toxic and ultimately abusive boss/work environment (in my early 30s) 
We shall, indeed overcome! Congrats on your week!
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Checking in
Still Day 6
I’m baffled lmao… earlier I posted that I was SO fatigued that I could barley type on here or even talk bcuz it took too much work… and since then I have finished dishes, cleaned the entire bathroom including the walls, and baked 24 carrot muffins. I do push myself tho to get things done… I could’ve easily laid down and done nothing but I don’t like doing that. I feel good getting a few things accomplished today. Not everything on my list. But i have time tmrw to do those things. Now to make supper for me n hubby. Chili cheese dogs. Also, I noticed that I really need to be drinking more water. Maybe that’s why I was tired. I feel abit better after hydrating 
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Candles lit across our hearts and world for @anon27760155 , she last posted she was headed to ICU and possibly a ventilator, Dec 16. Danni, we are sending you strength, love and get well messages! Praying for you, a full recovery soon!
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Checking in day 44. Back to work officially today. Not that i didnt work almost everyday on my time off but glad to have the whole team back contributing. Ive been pretty sick last couple day and hoping its not covid. Feeling disappointed as i havent kept my yoga commitment here but just not up for much when feeling this way. I hate being sick as it feels like everything starts backing it for me. I have to remind myself it will still be there and i just need to take care of myself and get better.my son keeps telling me to stop being so hard on myself and maybe hes right.
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You should bookmark this post bc one day your going to want a drink, one day your ego is going to tell you you were overacting. I’m not scare mungering I’m talking from the experience of many. When that day comes read your post bc if you pick up you may never feel that good again. Proud of you and really pleased for you 
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Omg I was thinking about her @anon27760155 again today 
I wish there was someway we could contact her. Really praying she’s OK
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- It’s been a mess of a week and it’s only Tuesday
. My youngest tested positive for COVID and my sons gf as well, she’s not vaccinated. I’m exhausted and ready for bed. But the house needs cleaning and disinfecting again. I try to keep up but it gets overwhelming with toddler’s. I feel like I’m in that place of when it rains it pours. Now we all have to quarantine and I’m working from home. My brother also has it and now I’m worried about my nieces and nephews at the NYE party 
we had over the weekend. I’m going to try and be positive and hope they only have mild symptoms. Thanks for listening to my rant.
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Day 3 today. I truly can feel myself wanting to be better. It was a productive & fulfilling day off with my kids. I had a nightmare about when I used to be married and would make sure I wouldn’t have to leave the house last 6, so I could start drinking in the afternoon and be wasted by bedtime. I am so happy me and my 3 kids aren’t in that place anymore.
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Day 2.7 and the days have been long. Im trying dry january but i already find myself making plans JUST to drink friday/ saturday. I dont know what happened to me i could usually get through the work week. This is day one on chat. Please send positive energy and level thinking
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Happy 365 to you 
Sending you all the love today! 
Really proud of you!
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Day 82 well almost the end of 82. All the sudden ppl in my hometown are tattooing and I have ppl messaging me asking qs and shit. What’s even more annoying is ppl are going to them to get tattoos… I try not to judge because that to was me. But no I won’t answer your questions. Learn how I did and figure it out, also I feel like it’s mocking me and a little annoying. But w.e, I haven’t had anyone come to me in a while for a tattoo anyways. But wtf this town doesn’t even have a shop and since I’ve started tattooing now others are going to do it. Idk how to describe how I feel about this. Maybe I should be grateful I’ve inspired others idk. Also I want to add, you need to be careful as fuck and doing tattoos is like doing a surgery, you need to be super hygiene, I have my blood borne pathogen, I have all the medical wipes and everything. I’ve spent over 2.000 on my shit so maybe that’s why a little annoying
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Early days are looong. Be honest with urself about wha would happen if u ‘only’ drank at the weekend. Would it stay that way?
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I’ll tell ya something that Robert Downing Jr. said (I’m adapting it to your situation)… Sure, I could drink this weekend, but I have plans next Christmas. I know for me that the drink will always be there if I want it bad enough, but 241 days without it has turned into some pretty awesome times that would only get worse with a drink. I’d give January a shot (pardon the awful pun) (I’d also argue for a full 90 day trial of sobriety as i dont think one month clears out the fog enough to feel the mental and physical benefits) and if you get to the end and think your life is worse in sobriety, it will always be there waiting for you. My life is certainly better without it.
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Thank you so much 
I’ve been needing some strength when i leave work I’m going to do a zoom meeting.
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Idk I feel like I would be annoyed too to an extent. Like what kinds of questions are they asking u? Are these other “tattoo artists” who are asking u questions about how to do tattoo? Maybe these other artists are charging very very little and people take a chance on that due to the fact they are so cheap. Idk. Tattoos are generally something u don’t want to scimp on lol its frustrating tho especially when u have such a passion for it
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About 3 hours until… 1 Week Clean
Honestly I’m so happy to get the 1 week clean badge! Wish I was physically feeling alittle better tho. Not sure what’s going on. My mind almost seems hazy and I’m tired and achy. Hope im not get sick. But my plan is to just have a bath shortly and then go to bed. So I’ll see my 1 week badge in the morning. Grateful for u all xo Thank you for the support, the encouragement, AND the tough love Really I am!
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Yeah well that’s why I try not to judge. Bc I fucked ppl up and I’m still no professional. It’s annoying bc I was the only one in this town and I know for a fact I was the only in this town who started tattooing. They are ppl like me who just decided to start doing it. But I feel I did it a little more proper, got my certificate, studied and read online figure out what needles do what and all that. And yeah they are just messaging me asking how to do this and that and what would I charge for this and how do there tattoos look blah blah. The person sent me this picture, I just said looks good. But it’s on backwards, upside down on the person’s arm. And they used a round liner for the whole thing which you don’t do. But like I said I didn’t answer them just said looks good. I definitely fucked up a couple ppl but I learned from my mistakes and practice on fake skin.
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Some people may end up going to those other artists bcuz they are cheaper but im pretty sure alot will not be completely happy with the end result. If they are asking u questions about how to do things, then they obviously have not done their homework. Tattooing 101 talks about placement and how tattoos are faced. They did screw that up unfortunately (unless that’s how the client wanted it). And they won’t be too happy if they end up getting an infection. If they don’t do things properly like following hygiene protocols etc they can get in some serious shit 
I feel like with tattooing, a person’s work says it all. U may not get alot of customers now (since u have all these other “artists” popping up), but I bet there will be alot of unhappy customers coming to u asking you to do cover ups and to fix other people’s work lol don’t lose hope I feel like things may take a quick turn in ur favor
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Almost 17 days. The first time over 2 weeks since I fell back in 6 months ago.
I came down with covid, couldn’t go anywhere, didn’t want to go anywhere. I’m still having breathing complications from getting covid & funny enough, I’m grateful for it. Bc of being sick, I made it over that hump that normally gets me. And I’m starting to fall back in love with my routine of responsibility and sobriety.
It’s funny how the universe works, but I am grateful none the less.
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