Im sorry to hear of yours dogs passing
Thanj you for offering an ear to listen and to talk with too i appreciate that.
Im going to save up some money and then see what my options are for security. I really want to get another Dog but i am waiting as i dont want ro rush into it as its another responsibility and i manage perfect now with the pets i have and stopping drinking im managing and i dont want to take on too much too soon.
Really i need to get walking more and perhaps get a nutritional plan for long term benefits and lofe style changes. I just need to exercise and get out more build my confidence up.
Hope your days going well, im just relaxing woth relaxing meditation music in the background and thought id check in here as i find when i dont for a few days i find i get stressed and not in the present.
Itās been really hard lately. Finally broke down and set up a consultation with a doctor for anti depressants. Been trying to do it the natural way, but itās just so up and down.
I hope seeing your dr helps. And i hope you are ok.
I remember breaking down to my dr andit felt so much better after i had, it was not how imagined it would be which was to be judged or misunderstood.
I actually found comfort and felt less pressure knowing i was understood and was on the road to getting the help i needed.
Wel done for going and getting help especially as you were struggling, it takes alot out of us to go and admit the struggle and accept help but in my experience it helped me so much i hope it does for you too.
Thats very kind of you and Iām thankful to hear you found some solace as well.
Not sure if its the previous DOC that caused such a chemical imbalance or if it was always like this and I was just using substances to mask it. At this point though, Iāll happily swallow sugar pills daily if they help. Haha.
Checking in Day22
Just doing a quick checkin. Things have been crazy busy this week and stressful and all that, I havenāt had as much time to be on here (which bugs me).
This morning I had to file a formal complaint with 311 (complaints department for calgary) about the disrespect I got from a cab driver. Tried to bribe me with a free cab ride ānext timeā to get me from complaining lmao, trying to tell me how I should feel. Noooā¦ I called and complained about it while I was in the cab going to my destination. His driving was fine, it was just his conduct. Then more issues came up with this agency that Iāve been dealing with all week and its back n forth emailing and phone calls and hearing this n that and no one has answers for me (even tho they are in a professional field and this IS their field of expertise). So I do my research and get the contact info for the person who I know has the answers. Waiting for a call back. Then hubby texts me from work and says that our most current dealer that weāve been using for years up until just over 3 weeks ago, texts himā¦ āHey buddy u mad at us? We havenāt heard from u in awhile? Itās been slower than usualā¦ whatās going on?ā. Like come on haha he just brushed it off. But I seriously need to find a hole or go into the woods and hide for awhile lol
Checking in day 4. Thinking about how I can actually stick to it this time. Feel like Iām going to have to make some massive changes as realising most my social life revolves around drinking. Feel like I just need to keep a low profile until Iāve got at least a month under my belt. Hoping everyone is having a good day
Bonnie was a black Labrador, she was 13.5 yea old so she had a good life, her brother Clyde is a Choc lab, lifespan normally max 11 years and heās still kicking around at 14 and as healthy as ever, just old and slow now. Rambo is out other dog, heās a golden retriever, heās 2 and is as mad as a box of frogs!
You absolutely need to make sure you do what is right for you and your sobriety, taking too much on could end in a relapse so one day at a time.
Build your confidence slowly, small steps get you to the same place great strides do. Move slowly, not backwards.
Anytime! Always happy to lend an ear to bend or whatever you need.
Hey Eric thank you so much this is the farthest of gottenā¦I am proud of me too. I will keep at it one day at a time. You and the entire TS crew have been so inspiring. So thankful I am here.
Iām finding out real quick just how many changes Iāve had to make already since about everything Iāve done revolves around drinking. Certain people and places Iāve had to avoid. Everything seems to be a trigger this early on. Just try and keep yourself out of the situations that you know has a chance to effect your sobriety.
Yeah thatās what I got to do. Got to 38 days sober before Xmas and started to get my life back in order. Then went back to it over Xmas and here I am again. But yeah youāre right just got to keep myself away from these triggers for a while & really think about how I can change so many life long habits that involved drinking.
and its back n forth emailing and phone calls and hearing this n that and no one has answers for me (even tho they are in a professional field and this IS their field of expertise). So I do my research and get the contact info for the person who I know has the answers. Waiting for a call back. Then hubby texts me from work and says that our most current dealer that weāve been using for years up until just over 3 weeks ago, texts himā¦ āHey buddy u mad at us? We havenāt heard from u in awhile? Itās been slower than usualā¦ whatās going on?ā. Like come on haha he just brushed it off. But I seriously need to find a hole or go into the woods and hide for awhile lol 
