Checking in daily to maintain focus #38

Congratulations on 6 months!! :slight_smile: way to go!!!

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Love that book!!

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I bought this one at dymocks.

But it is also on line , if you google it see the cover, you will know itā€™s the Gregory hays translation version.

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This makes me so happy to hear ! :wink::pray::heart:

Day 1026. Ready to fucking rock today! :facepunch::fire::metal:

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Yep found it at Dymocks. Thanks :slightly_smiling_face:

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Amazing ! Thatā€™s great news :grinning:

Enjoy :wink:

The very long Introduction is abit text book and I found didnā€™t sink in easily. I really had to concentrate on what I was reading. But there is alot of interesting Information about marcus in the Introduction.

Once you start the individual internal book chapters, thatā€™s when it gets good :+1:

Even though itā€™s a short book, itā€™s a long and slow read, one done in the mornings Iā€™ve found to be best obsorbed :slightly_smiling_face:

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Evening check in
Day 3
Day was okay. Kind of up and down emotionally. No serious cravings. Hubby came home and seems to be trying to be slightly better at communicating with me. So thatā€™s always nice. I still feel pretty alone when it comes to my recovery and getting support from him tho. I often find myself comparing our relationship to others (sort of wishing that things were better in certain areas), but this is new territory for usā€¦ both of us living clean and sober. He doesnā€™t bother to ask about things so I just do my own thing and do what I need to do for my recovery. Coming up to Day 4 tonight :slight_smile: should be hopefully get my new meds soon as my hubby pushed for his benefits again. I really think I need something to help stabilize my moods. For 22 years Iā€™ve required something so I wouldnā€™t be surprised if I needed something now. Anyway, will attempt to get back onto exercise, yoga, and meditating tmrw. I am needing to do something more. Hope everyone is having a good night! Hugs!

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Day 534

Having to do some things that are uncomfortable for me: speaking out, saying no, etc. Trying to push through them.
Am hitting more aa meetings now classes have finished, which is good, but easy to use them as an excuse to not do stuff, or to get too fond of the always positive response you get in them.

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Day 6, winding down and about to go to sleep. Very tired since I got home from work. Going into my first full weekend sober and feeling good about it. Trying to keep doing little self care things for myself that I always wanted to do before but was always too detached/out of it/drunk to actually get done. Feels really great to care for myself finally.

Hope everyone is staying strong and having a great night :slight_smile:

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Day 279 of no self harm. I felt really bad last night but I stayed on the phone with a friend until I felt like I was calmed down enough to be safe. Heā€™s the best.

Things are really rough lately. Iā€™ve been thinking about relapse more this year so far than I ever have in this entire stretch of being clean. I still know why itā€™s wrong to relapse, and I have a list of why I need to stay clean. I just have this overwhelming self destructive side.

Iā€™m feeling better today. Keeping busy. I have therapy tomorrow so hopefully I can get some things off my chest.

Keep going yā€™all :heart:

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I am very amazed how much you changed on your journey, at least of what I witnessed here by your posts which can only bit a scratch on the surface.

:innocent:

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396 days

Going to gym more has had such a positive impact on my sleep and mood, get to that slightly ā€œaddictedā€ stage as been every night. But I donā€™t mind but my body is not agreeing :slightly_smiling_face:

Have a strong sober 24 hrs all :green_heart:

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Day 128 checking in

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60 Not Out

Many changes have occurred over the past 60 days, some physical but mostly mental. The one constant outside of my family has been the unwavering support of you guys and gals.

@Butterflymoonwoman - Such a good friend, I love our chats, you are such a strong positive person. You are like a pea from the same pod, I feel like Iā€™m chatting to a variant of myself!

@ShesGotMoxie, @Its_me_Stella, @Dazercat, @Lotusflower, @Dolse71 - love you guys, you always seem to say the right things at the right times, almost like your empathic abilities are in tune with my feelings and thoughts, most importantly you KEEP IT REAL! Sometimes that harsh tough love is exactly what I need and you guys are so good at keeping it real!

@Twizzlers - I find your positivity and vulnerability endearing, a lot of your story and the things you have said resonate with me!

Iā€™m sorry to those I havenā€™t mentioned, there are so many reasons people could be Mentioned but Iā€™d be typing all day and this post is already long enough!

I love all you guys! Thank you!

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  1. Coffee. Next to :cloud: :cloud: thereā€™s :cloud_with_rain: :cloud_with_rain: and :wind_face: :wind_face: now too. Some nice variety in the weather for my weekend. Will see how I get to therapy later. Would like to :biking_man:part of the way. Or maybe just the :steam_locomotive: all the way.
    One sure thing is that my day will be sober and clean. Using never helped me with anything and it never will and the same goes for you all. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Love from Amsterdam. On the lookout for spring or at least some sunshine.

@anon52066378 60 days already Richard! Big congrats my man. Thanks for being here.

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Congratulations on 60 days great work :clap:

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Super effort that

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Thank you, and congratulations on 60 days.
Its nice chatting with you, i dont know what id do without you all to be honest!!