HBD 
Hope it is great!
I have missed seeing your check ins, I am so sorry you are struggling. You always make such an effort to and acknowledge each person here, it is remarkable. It seems clear to me that you are a thoughtful and incredibly sensitive soul. I hope and pray you find the help you need. You deserve a long, healthy life.
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Day 134 AF.
Friday night I took my son to dinner. We sat at the sushi bar and I could smell the glass of Cabernet belonging to the woman next to me before I saw it. For the first time since my first several weeks of sobriety, I felt true craving and it managed to shock me. I regularly have dreams/nightmares, that I start drinking again. Just when I start to feel comfortable, I am reminded that my inner booze hound still lurks, ready to re-emerge lest I drop my guard. Hereās to staying vigilant.
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Checking in 29 days alcohol free.
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You have been through a lot. Iām glad your back here for support. Donāt give up, keep trying. You CAN have the better life you deserve.
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30 days is AMAZING!!! 
food poisoning 
I hope you feel better fast.
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Day 42.
I have been able to focus most of my energy on my recovery. I take it day by day and have a whole checklist of things I need to complete (stay sober, work out 90 minutes, whole food diet, drink a gallon of water, read). Its been really good and I have felt strong.
But now I have some big things in life that I need to figure out and I canāt put them off. My lease is up in 5 months and iām moving to a completely different part of the country. Thereās alot to figure out.
I can no longer focus most my energy on recovery and Iām worried Iām not strong enough yet. I feel really alone. I wish I had a partner to help me get through this and to figure out the next steps with. My fiance and I broke up 7 months ago. Itās hitting me hard right now.
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Congrats on one month!!!
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Iād like to say I have some great advice for you, but I donāt. Just know youāre not alone. You might not have as much time or energy to work on sobriety, but you can always work on it some. Taking care of yourself (at least in my mind) is also working on sobriety. Drank some water? Thatās working on sobriety. Took a shower? Thatās working on sobriety. Even figuring out what to do after your lease is working on sobriety. Every step you take towards the good in life, no matter how small, is working on sobriety. Youāre doing great, and Iām proud of you. I know Iām just some stranger, but Iām virtually supporting you and youāll be in my thoughts. 
You got this
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Evening check in
Day 8
Once again, I am getting super irritable in the evening. I seem to always get irritable around 5/6pm. And then I have to really put myself in check and change my thinking and really put effort into communicating well so that I donāt take it out on others. I WISH I knew why I got like this every single night. Idk why. Iām not craving or anything. I am tired yes, sometimes overwhelmed. I got a headache this evening from it all. My jaw is so tight and my muscles are tense. Grrr
Lol can anyone relate to this? If so, have u done anything to help with these crazy moods? Either way thoā¦ today was a good day. Self care and good sleep is absolutely in order for tonight 
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Those are sickā¦I can never do white shoes living here cause they would be brown the very first day I use them lol. And as for the shoe addiction we just need to not over do it we can indulge a bit maybe 1 a month as a reward for staying clean. As you can see that is my rationalize and justification for my shoe addiction lmao 
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You could definitely never keep white kicks clean while your out riding lol 
Ok one a month sounds good, perhaps I wonāt be drama and cut myself off all together, il limit myself to one new pair a month 
Ohhhh and Iāve decided to get a new tatt this week, to mark the beginning of this new chapter in my lifeā¦ stay tuned 
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Congratulations on 18 months @anon27760155!
So happy and relieved to see you back here posting.
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- Coffee. Coming here in the early morning is still a great way to start my day, catching up on this thread, seeing all you beautiful people sharing your strengths, your hopes, victories, battles, struggles, defeats too, your lives.
All working on a better life for yourselves, working together for ourselves and in the process working for each other. Sober and clean. One day at a time. Weāre in this together. Thanks so much for being here. We canāt do it alone. I would never be where I am if I hadnāt all of you in my life. Forever grateful. Much love.
This pic and memory just came to mind. Itās a demo I attended as a kid in 1977, in a time when cyclists in Amsterdam died in the streets in their hundreds, and all the planners could think off was to create even more space for cars. Together we changed history back then, in creating a different mindset and switching the policy from car oriented to bike oriented here. It worked because we worked together. Sorry for being preachy and off topic.
Too many milestones to mention/remember you all. Sorry.
@Hopeful777 400! So happy for you Marie. Love to share part of your journey here.
@anon27760155 18 Full months dear Danni! You stay on course of your full recovery beautiful lady! Congrats and hugs.
@CATMANCAM Very glad to see you friend. I know about the shame. Please know we so much more love to have you here. Wherever you are in your life. Of course we want to see you succeed. But we want to see you period. Big hugs.
@BroccoliHighKicks One month already Rose! Yay you!
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Congratulations on your new place new shoes and your future tattoo to mark your new beginning
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3 days AF conpleted and rocking a positive attitude into the morning of day 4.
Keep your dream(s) and goals alive gang. Each day becomes slightly easier than the last IMO
RB 
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401 days
Did a pilates class last night which had I enjoyed so much. Tonight will be spent researching places to park up for weekend mini break to the coast at weekend, away from house chores, just time to walk, read and breathe.
@apes2020 good luck with your move and the move into a new chapter 
so exciting
@Butterflymoonwoman thank you for the mood chart have saved it to check my moods 
and yes I relate those mood swings are so frustrating
Thank you @Misokatsu Fleur and @Mno
@Its_me_Stella congratulations on your 10 months so deserved
@Pandita congratulations on your 60 days milestone 
@Harold happy birthday for yesterday
@BroccoliHighKicks Happy Birthday Rose and what a great way to mark it hitting your 30 day milestone
@CATMANCAM so good to see you posting, you been through so much but never be ashamed, I pray that you get the help you need and deserve you are such a kind soul.
Have a strong 24 hrs all 
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Day 133 checking in
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I feel for you and can relate. Hope you are able to feel better about your situation soon. Try to enjoy the fact that youāve got time off work. This too shall pass 
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I am so sorry to hear that. Addiction is a serious business that can take your life. I am sure it doesnāt feel like it, but you are lucky. Take this chance to get well and truly free of addiction.
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