You are exactly where you need to be and all those years regardless some good or bad you made it with new wisdom, and it made me smile you should be proud of yourself!
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Iām glad u are able to tell the difference btwn the addict voice and the rational voice. The addict is soo sneaky. I was hearing it today tooā¦it was telling me the weather was a good reason to use, it was saying oh u have 2 weeks tonightā¦ no big dealā¦ u can get that back easily, it was saying that I could use n still be in bed by 10pm for work tmrw morning lol, it was telling me all kinds of things. All LIES! Iām proud of u girl 
And this is why it is so important (for me anyway) to be sooo damn vigilant and consistent with recovery stuff every single day. Our addictions did not take a day off. So neither should our recoveries. Be proud girl and tell that voice to F off! U donāt need it!
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Hello ! 
Checking in 21 days sober.
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That means a lot, I do need to come to this page daily!!! I donāt go to meetings around my house. Bit since day one Iāve been coming here and yāall beautiful people make me feel happy to be myself and know Iām not alone. Thanks for reminding me that this is just as important as making sure I had a12 pk in my fridge. 
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I have always wanted to do and hearing your story really brought me back to that. So amazing
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Itās sooo true girl. That voice apparently gets quieter and less often overtime. But it ONLY gets to that point if we stay clean and sober. Thats what i was telling myself today. As soon as we put anything into our system that demon gets released all over again. Drugs n alcohol serve no purpose. It causes us pain 
I was telling myself today also, that āI am worht fighting forā. And you are worth fighting for too xo
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Ok now Iām crying like a baby 
Iām also a recovering opiate addict I quit once I got out of prison back in 2009 I never turned back because thatās where it took me and I didnāt want to end up dead or back there. But oh friendly alcohol was always there to catch me when I fell and like that scene from freddy Kruger when heās pulling her down into the bed, well thatās how I envision my alcoholism was catching me. The biggest thing that helps me is constantly reminding myself that worrying about tomorrow isnāt helping today so if I just donāt drink for today then I can always have a drink tomorrowā¦ and then wake up telling myself the Same thing just for today.
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Actually itās a lot easier than I thought, just check with your local shelters, apparently they are always in need of volunteers, we have quite a few in the DMV.
From what my friend told me they always need kitchen help, and usually intake help, manning the front to help people get in and settled,
The nice thing about almost all shelters that I worked with they are drug and alcohol free, so the trigger fear isnāt present
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I would love to be able to help and be apart of a community like that 
Iām going to look into that this month.
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Absolutely 
I can so relate 
I have always used something. I was a meth head for years until I couldnāt do it anymore. My meth addiction took me to shooting up hydromorphs (cuz i couldnt handle the withdrawl from meth anymore) and hydromorphs almost ended my life. I havent even touched opiates or meth since but here I am addicted to crack cocaine. Cocaine always seems to be my fall back DOC. Idk whyā¦ it just seems like I have always been scared to live without something as a crutch. And Iām tired of using man made things to try and make myself feel better. All this outter stuff that I use or do to fill that void (the one that Iāve felt since I was a youth) is temporary. And itās just time to start doing some inner work. Filling that void from the inside 
Iām so grateful ur here. U have a powerful story to tell and recovery IS possible!! We got this ODAAT
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Day 1289. Itās another day. For me, it was a really nice day actually. I know even sober it isnāt like that all the time though.
If you made even just today sober, I salute you. If along the way you shared whatever gifts you may have with another, I embrace you.
Keep on keepinā on, sober fam.
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There is power in words!!! We keep speaking life to ourselves and speak power to each other!!!
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So true! Addiction loves isolation. They sayā¦ āmy mind is like a bad neighborhood. I should never go there aloneā lmao When we talk to each other and speak our truth, fears and sickness dies. There is soo much power in talking to one another. Hey, I still listen to that song u posted I saved it to YouTube 
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What you are experiencing is āaddictionā ā¦ alcohol, smoking, sugar/over eating. Addictions like to feed off of each other. Get one under ācontrolā another one likes to bulge to the surface. Thatās why addiction moderation is not the solution for alcohol & smoking. Itās none of a addicted substance to get ourselves off the merry-go-round (obviously we still have to eat!). Also itās willingness not will power that is required.
I educated myself about addiction. What to expect, why things occur when we quit (to the mind as well as the body), and what I could do about it to help me make a quit successful. (A good resource for smoking is whyquit.com but it applies to addictions period.)
Read and learn. Do the prep work. Addictions are more than a bad habit. Understand the hows, whys, and whats of it. Education will change your perception and make a quit(s) very doable for you.
You can do it. Believe it. Make it happen for yourself.
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Great insight! Love this!
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very nice 
Well done to you 
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Thanks! Iām pretty impressed with myself. 
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