Proud of you, sober companion. It’s ok to feel off, because that is your signal you need something: help, resolution, redress/recognition. You deserve to be seen and recognized.
You’ve come a long way, and always one day at a time. Is there anything you need right now?
Pickles and laundry: there’s a combo I gotta try 
And aren’t you getting to 15 days? Are you there now? 
Great job Jené 
Your doing amazing! Congratulations
Well it’s 8pm here and I’m laying down early. Today has been happy but draining. I’m truly thankful and blessed that I have this forum to go to. When I get out of my head I’m ok when I’m in there things can be scary. Once I brought up a topic today, it really brought up emotions I don’t think I’ve even started dealing with. Especially that it wasn’t long ago.
I’m asking for my higher power to carry me through the night and hold me like your child. Sweet dreams y’all.
Wooooohooooo, Jené! That’s wonderful!!!
Emotional past few days. But still sober. Been tested…pray and meetings. Heard today the importance of protecting your space… physical… emotional… spiritual. Etc…I’m learning this now
Don’t want to retreat and isolate so pushing myself to check in.
Good Night.
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You’re doing great Des! Rest, recoup and we’ll see you tomorrow
Checking in Day 985
Reconnected with an old friend recently - someone I’ve known for about 24 years. We hadn’t spoken for almost 2 years and it was interesting. He mentioned that there’s this calmness about me now, that I seem really grounded and generally at peace with life…
And it really made me stop and think and I’ve just started to realise how much I’ve grown (and continue to) during my recovery. I’ve come to accept that life will never be perfect. That I will never be perfect. But I can be me and that is enough.
I’m getting so much better at practicing the art of sitting with and processing uncomfortable feelings, emotions and thoughts. I don’t feel the need to run away or numb them anymore.
That sometimes I need to just let shit go. That even if some people aren’t ever going to be sorry, I can forgive them. I actually fking forgive them! I mean, wtf!??! Who even am I anymore lol. This is something I’ve always really struggled with. Forgiving someone who did horribly wrong by me and my kids and I realise I now forgive them. I no longer resent them. I no longer feel anger towards them. I accept that what happened is in the past and the only things I carry forward from that now is the lessons I learnt from the experience. I mean, I’m never going to trust or give them my time and energy but I can actually say I forgive them. It has taken me 4 years to be able to say that, and I never thought it would be possible but its actually happened. It is so freeing and empowering!
There are so many tools I’ve been collecting along the way in my recovery and they have been totally transferrable into many areas of my life. I’m so freaking grateful for where I am today.
There is one thing that I will say that I probably repeat several times a day to myself and it always puts perspective and rationale back into my thinking - the serenity prayer. I seriously owe SO much to the serenity prayer -
“… grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference”.
Evening check in
Still feeling super crappy with my head cold. Had to get some meds to help so that my head would stop feeling like it was about to explode lol. My hubby had to get a few things today for the fish tank. Would’ve taken a pic last night of it but the water had a yellow tinge to it. Apparently our tap water has alot of iron so we needed to get a water clarifier. Plus he got a diff light and some bright highlighter looking fish. I took pics now of our frogs and fish 
Awesome setup I love it. Hope you feel better soon
Thanks I’m trying. I never seem to get sick. But I did workout every day last week and I’m wondering if I put my body thru to much? Idk cuz I started feeling ill on Saturday. How r u doing Mike?
That dragon head is cool.
Feel better.
Definitely I can relate to that. Overworking are selves can absolutely make us feel I’ll. I still feel off myself, definitely manic lol. Day started out good and had a little bit of issues but I did some reflecting and realized I never thought about the other person’s feelings and what they could be going through. So it was a nice little break through for me and the day ended up being pretty good. I ordered me some new inks😬 super excited and a new bottle of parfum. And got the girls a surprise and ordered them the vr oculus quest thing. I did have a little resentment built up after for spending the money but it’s better then the other shit. Definitely excited to try these. And I also got some star Brite white which is supposed to be some top notch stuff.
Great sky Menno and I think boundary settings are good idea 
Morning everyone, I have this today.
Congratulations on 1 whole year sober
408 days
Back to work today 
Wishing you all a strong 24 hrs all 
