After almost 500 days of continuous sobriety, I picked up a drink. Three months ago. Three months of attempted moderation. Sometimes it worked. Until it didn’t.
I haven’t wanted to post because I anticipate getting a lot of questions about what my plan is this time, what I’ll do differently, what I’m prepared to do this time, etc. You all have the right to ask, though I may not answer on the public forum.
I do know this. As much as hangovers suck, it’s the self-loathing that’s the worst.
Day 1.
Thank you to those who checked in on me, and huge congrats to all those who have stuck with it and are celebrating milestones.
I’m just glad to see you back, amiga. You know what to do, you know how to ask for help if you need/want, and you know we have your back. Much love, M!
The cure is the opposite. Self love, acceptance and forgiveness. For ourselves. Bloody hard as it is. Neigh impossible as it seems. Self hate, self judgement and self punishment, by whatever way or means, will destroy us. Destroys us. Has destroyed us. Time and time again. High time to break the cycle Franzi. That’s why were sober. That’s why we’re in recovery.
I’m egotistically glad to see you friend. Whatever the circumstances. Non-egotistically I’m glad you’re back at it. One day at a time for all of us. Love and hugs.
Checking in day 23 Af and day 1 without cigs. Day has been ok, busy at work. Haven’t eaten anything unhealthy but probably are more than I needed to today. Got to keep a check on that! Not a lot to report from today, hope everyone is having a good sober day
Congratulations Julie that’s awesome!!
I’m so happy for you. One sociable glass of wine never happened for me either. I’m never going back with you. Love it.
@Butterflymoonwoman hope your feeling better soon! Just wanted to say hi and that I’m praying over your spirit. You are a strong women together we can do this!
Checking in on exactly 9 months. Had the water heater go out on us last night so I got to take today off waiting on the tech to get here. Life happens. It doesn’t happen to us it simply happens. It gave me the opportunity to relax and continue to network into my post-military career field. Have a wonderful day everyone. It’s a great day to be above ground and sober.
Hello guys.
Checking in day 15.
Felt good today and went for a swim while it was raining. It was cold.
Had a few days where a little voice pops in my mind that tells me: hey you are tired. Let’s watch some p*rn and feel good.
I said am sorry but that its not who I am. Am gonna show you the right pathway to deal with whatever you are going through. This is where I tell myself the steps am gonna take if any urges comes.
This is where journaling comes in handy. Every night I write the steps am gonna follow if an urge arises.
Hope all of you guys have a great day or a good night.
Hey. For me I actually start to feel better around 20 plus days. I start to notice that I get plenty of energy. Before i would struggle to get 2 weeks. Now its easy and enjoyable. I am also learning about the addiction along the way
How do you feel, what is your experience and from what are you recovering from?
For me its p*rn.
) I’m not sure why I kept it so long maybe just for security
