Ooo, exciting indeed! I hope the job application turns out positive for you. Yay!
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Well done! And Happy Birthday!
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17.5 Days
Called my dad! I remember when I was little and he went sober and was collecting AA chips. 
Was neat to hear him sound proud. Heās a man of very few words but that āYea?ā said a lot hahaha.
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Congrats. Is your dad still sober thatās inspiring and hopefully something I can relate to my girls i Wonāt force them but I hope to keep them on the sober path
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Day 87 AF
Sitting in the Emergency Department on a Saturday morning with a possible foot fracture. Greatā¦ Was hoping to.go for another bike ride today but can barely walk
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Hey guys. Just checking in day 19.
Going to sleep now.
Have a great day guys. Bye.
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Congrats on your recovery.
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Day one again
Repeating history apparently wasnāt entirely out of yhe cards for me last week. I wrote a really great sounding wall of text and then cracked that same night because I still refused to try as hard as I needed to to be there for myselfā¦Iām here ready for real this time.
Itās been releasing control of honestly what I would call a toxic, parasitic, one sided friendship with weed. I sort of had to sing a little ātime to say goodbyeā and let it go slowly as I reviewed my history with the drug itself over the last 7 daysā¦
I do really really want to get better and with my combination of mental illnesses that I have really worked hard to uncover Iām gonna look like an asshat just sitting there refusing to get better, looking a fool and sounding like one too, even just to myself. So I quit it. Really. I set boundaries this time. Gonna give it the real authentic try and refusing to repeat the āIāll be back once dayā mentality, I had to let it go for real.
Thereās no short time or small amount for how I work. itās more like entirely going for over the top every time, so I canāt be there for that anymore. I left the smoke circle for good this time and here i am rolling forward.
I will say itās really undermining that thereās this narrative pushed nowadays of no one struggling with relinquishing marijuana or the possibility of marijuana addiction or abuse with the way itās been normalized. There are still people (Iām one) with the right set of neurons triggering addiction and itās a real abusive problem. Itās not opiate addiction but itās still invasive and itās real.
Anyways thanks for having me again and you can bet Iāll be back tomorrow, I hope everyone here has a great rest of the day!
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Second check in today.
I didnāt waste the evening by laying on my couch doomscrolling in the www. I showered and Iām already laying in my bed.
I want to try to waste less of my free time, get more constant in my routine.
Wanted to share bc it makes me happy 
Good night team 
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Checking In
Day46
Itās been a tough day honestly. Running around doing errands and just things happening that keep throwing me off. I had a huge urge to useā¦ so much that I just started bawling bcuz I wanted to use drugs but at the same time I didnāt want to use them either. And my heart was the one yelling at me to listen. Iām exhausted. The past few days have been urges after urges for different reasons. I donāt get it!!! But I reached out to my HP and just talked. Reminded myself of what Iām grateful forā¦ this right here is a beautiful sight! I canāt even believe Iām here and Iām not resetting that timer to start right from the very beginning. This too shall pass. Just tired 
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Oh!! youāre going to be so proud of yourself in the morning.
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Itās absolutely definitely difficult when they normalize substances that can become so addictive for many of us.
I know you have the strength within you to get back up and go even further.
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Girlā¦. I am in the same urge zone as you. Today has been the most challenging ALL day has been a test. My husband just went to the market to get himself some beer.
I canāt wait to crawl into bed a reset
But youāve been doing such an amazing job - a ton of insightful conversations, and strong and resilient. Youāve got this!!
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Iām okayā¦ thank you! Made a few calls to friends to let me rant and rave. Iām counting down the minutes until I can crawl into bed and awake hopefully with a refreshed mindset. I have 2 weeks on Monday and not going to let anything derail that!
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Day 2, after a few months not getting passed day 5 and my ahha moment Thursday night. 2 bottles of wine and the mind set was that I have Friday off as a reward from work. I remember walking into the bottle shop grabbing one and thinking, what happens if I want moreā¦ so I got the 2nd.
Felt weird when the cashier asked if I have plans and I no just a quiet night.
Ok. Day 2. 9am lower body is hurting but I know itās temporary, young one still sleeping, I miss my energy levels and happiness, Iāll get there soon.
Have a great weekend!
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Day 27. I want to use. Dont want to reset the clock.
It is going to get harder before it gets easier. I read on reddit, its not about getting sober, its about building a life you dont want to run away from
Yeah, things are going to get worse before they get better, but they will only get way worse if tonight i get wine and forget my life for a while. It would be so easy. And im just going to vegetate here anyway. Is sober life even better?
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Better? Yes! Absolutely. Easier? Maybe not. We have to work for a good life. Everybody does. I thought I had an easy way out by drinking and drugging. But in the long run it didnāt work. It destroyed me. Now finally building a life for myself. Sober and clean. Hard work? Yes! Worth it? Yes too! Hugs.
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Congrats on day 2!
I used to feel shame going to the same shop every day getting a new 12-pack, thinking they were judging me.
Just keep checking in here and the days will start to climb. Such a great community. Iāve had a bad go at it today, but everyone has been so supportive I feel like Iām passed the hardest part of today.
Youāve got this!! Weāre all here to support when needed!
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I am in the same struggle boat as you today. But weāre here, talking, sharing and making it one day at a time. Youāre right, would be easy to get lost, but way way worse by drinking.youāve. Got. This!!!
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@Miranda I say stick to this! Set a boundary and prioritize your sobriety. Put yourself first. You donāt want alcohol in the house so donāt! I say get the na wine, if you feel you need to say something about it I wouldnāt lie but just keep it simple along the lines of āIāve decided to not drink for awhile.ā You do not owe anyone reasons or explanations. They donāt need to know how long awhile is. You can just say āI donāt know.ā Shrug with a big smile and let the conversation move on.
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