Oh I love that! It’s really really good… And so sweet♥️
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raises hand
I’ve spent thousands on music gear in the past 4 years. I’m fixing to buy a new guitar in the next couple weeks. I don’t need it, but… but…
I should focus on knocking out some old bills, the ones that are on autopay and never seem to get paid down. Paying bills or saving money isn’t sexy, not like a new Fender Jaguar. 
Compromise I guess. New guitar but 10% goes to bills and 10% for savings.
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This is such a beautiful post 
It’s amazing how things work. I sometimes get too focused on things which can sort of come back to selfishness (not intentional selfishness but since I’m thinking about myself in one way or another, I get distracted). It truly is amazing what happens when we work with others or even just am of service to others in some way. Gets us out of self.
This right here is deep stuff to think about. I have never really thot of what is authentic and what isn’t. Like I feel like I am the most authentic ive ever been but “under the radar” behaviours, wow… I know they are there somewhere lol I literally grew up since the age of 15 with drugs and unhealthy behaviors. I know there is alot of un-learning to do lol
I wish I could do a step 4 honestly. I haven’t done one in, oh I don’t know, like 10 years maybe more? But I don’t think u can do one without a sponsor correct? Anyway, I’m so proud of you. Ur an incredible woman and a strong presence on here. Ur so self aware and so knowledgeable and I always appreciate ur posts! Luv u lady 
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Hey guys. Just checking in day 12. Its been easy so far but am prepared for what comes next.
@SelfLove_42 Hey man, sorry to hear you are going through some difficult moment. I don’t know what to say to you as you are already doing better than me, but I am always supporting you and wishing for the best. Try not to fight the thoughts, it gives them power.
I found a new page ‘fightingthenewdrug.org’. It has many articles on p*rn. @KevinesKay Hey you can check the page if you have time.
Have a great day guys. Peace.
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Much appreciated
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There’s just something about a new guitar that screams i must have,
If I can get my others back from my Ex which might be a lost cause at this point that puts me at 12 guitars. 4 amps and pedals beyond pedals Plus all kinds Of other gear
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Day 651 clean and sober today. Have a great day everyone, I love you guys! 
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thở vào, thở ra…
Heard that sentence so many times in Vietnamese by now I even remember the calming words
You can do this Mel 
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83rd day. Enjoying the sunshine, cut the grass, painted the kitchen cupboards, changed the handles, studied a bit, my dad is staying for the weekend (he lives in Spain)… so been cleaning cleaning cleaning!!
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Boundaries?.. Glad you’re alright… But be careful you don’t burn the candle 
at both ends @anon53116147 … 
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Day 5 is hard!! Sending support and a sliver of joy
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Yes I do need to. She just called to talk to addie and addie told her she stayed home. And she yelled at me, seriously mike you need to start sending her to school they will call cps if you keep letting her miss. Like wtf took everything in me not to blow up on her, and it’s little shit like that, that can turn your day into a bad mood
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You shouldn’t do a step 4 until you have worked a thourough step 1,2 & 3 with a sponsor. Step 4 is hard work and can bring up a lot of “stuff”. I do believe you would benefit greatly from it Dana but building that solid foundation before starting it is a must.
I was taught there’s two undesirable ways to do step work…
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out of order
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alone
Maybe you could find someone long distance to sponsor you and help you through a set of steps.
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Checking in, day 504 no alcohol, day 14 no nicotine. I have been feeling very grumpy all day without any particular reason. I didn’t make progress with work, nor with my chores, also slept very badly lately. Wanted to buy some clothes but sometimes it’s hard to find anything in my size and don’t even know what all those numbers on them mean, that’s still pretty new for me. I’m going to go for a run in the evening, at least that will be good.
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Checking in day 1280 (so as to not derail lol)
The wife doesn’t understand why I need so many guitars. I asked her, why do you have so many different knitting needles? She said, these are for small knits, these are for large, these are for making circular patterns, these are for straight…
I looked at her and said, exactly.
The tele is for country twang and blues. The les paul is for rock and blues, the Jackson is for shredding, the gretsch is for jazz and light rock, the Taylor is for recording, the hellcat is for travel, the Martin is for live gigs. Each has its purpose… I mean, how am I gonna do surf rock without a new Jagaur? How??
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That’s just a dogmatic belief.
Having a sponsor could help, but on the other hand - no one knows you better, then you.
Main question is, how willing are you to really reflect on yourself ? Are you able to put aside your initial beliefs and look at yourself from different perspectives ?
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That might be an idea. All my old sponsors that I have completed previous 12 steps with, I have no contact with. It’s worth a shot to ask around and alot has happened since my last set of steps.
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I understand the disruption of sleep due to kitty, though mine is sort of the opposite. She’s 20 and needs special care and attention. I have to wake in the night to feed her because she no longer eats kibble, and she has to have medicine in her food every 6 hours. She will wake me up when the sun starts to rise because she wants the blinds open in the office. Periodically through the night, she comes and cries at me until I move around (I guess she’s trying to find me??), though sometimes she only calms when I gently massage her limbs. All of this leads to a certain amount of sleep deprivation which has made life increasingly difficult for me and has affected my own health. So I can definitely sympathize.
I will tell you that she can’t get on the bed by herself and I have a set of soft, inexpensive pet stairs for that purpose, and if you’re worried about the kitten getting on and off the bed, this could be a solution for you. Also, eventually your baby kitty will get older and not need your help as much, though she might become “trained” to wake you up whenever she needs the litter box at night, so I hope you do find a better solution for her that works for your sleeping.
I’m sorry to hear you have to reset your counter, but on the positive side it seems like you learned something from it which is good. I am of the opinion that we never want to let a reset go to waste. Learn as much from it to power your sobriety in the future.
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Day 14
Smoked 3 cigs today. Better than yesterday - not as good as tomorrow!
Pretty tired today. It’s only 20:00 and I already y feeling like snoozing on couch. Not gonna do running workout today that’s for sure. Rest is also a part of a training system 
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Laughed so hard!!! Hilarious!
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