Yes, sadly, things will definitely happen with a kitten. My other cat was a little monster when he was a kitten When he was large enough, he was even able to jump from the floor to the top of the door as a young adult (and let me tell you, walking into a dark room and not expecting a meow to come from above you will get your heart racing!).
Iâm glad youâre working things out so you can sleep. Itâs really hard to stay on top of your sobriety goals when youâre exhausted. Be sure to keep us updated
Day 604
Spent most of the day doing some bicycle maintenance and packing up gear. Taking the fatbike for an overnight trip up north to my mumâs cabin for the weekend. Might be the last trip in the snow for awhile.
Iâve mostly avoided overnights at the cabin because they tend to invite friends and all end up staying awake late getting very drunk. Bringing a book, headphones, and preloading some meditations for offline listening so I can hide out in my bunk by the fire when they start getting rowdy.
Going to try to catch the sunrise both tomorrow and sunday morning while out in the woods. That alone is reason enough to stay sober. Hopefully Iâll be able to snag some good photos to share with yâall when I get back. Wishing everyone a great weekend!
Day 12 for meâŚGoing to get up tomorrow morning and call my sponsor to check in. Stressful day as usual, but Iâm getting better mentally. I wish I had more days then 12âŚugh.
Nonetheless, I appreciate reading everyoneâs check in.
Day 1117. This journey never truly ends. I celebrated my 3 year anniversary 3 weeks ago. I have been struggling. I came close to falling off the edge. I have been struggling for some time now just lying to myself as to how bad I actually was. I let my anxiety spiral out of control-I was reminded as to why I drank. To suppress those feelings-I just wanted to not feel them anywhere. but I reached out for help. It takes a lot of courage to ask for help which is why having a support system is so important. I got an appointment with my addiction counselor, saw my liver doctor and got put on Zoloft for my anxiety and seroquil for my insomnia. I started it today. Please, let me be a reminder that you can never loosen up on your grip. Follow the straight and narrow path and always reach out if your struggling. Love and light my friends
Thank you so much for checking inâĽď¸ my day was ok. It made such a difference having support this morning and it really means soooo much to me that you are checking in now. I didnât drink enough water today, wasnât feeling great but got out for a walk to the beach with my daughter. Got a new set up in the bedroom so the cat should be able to get down on her own to use the litter box on the middle of the nightđ¤. Had serious craving tonight but made it past. Iâm sad to see my sober time as only 14 hours, but I know the days will add up again. Kind of feeling down, but still hopeful. Thanks DanaâĽď¸
I read your check in. Sorry you didnât have the best day either. Youâre right⌠No one can make you feel a certain way⌠But then again, itâs pretty hard sometimes to wear a suit of armour and not let comments or other peopleâs negativity bring you down. Itâs just amazing to be able to recognize that, so good for you. I hope you had some time for self care. We all need more of that!!!
Bro thanks for checking in man. Not about me doing better than you cause thatâs not true. We got the same struggle and I just got started a little earlier. Itâs an everyday war and Iâm here for it. We got a good team here bro to fight this battle and come out on top. Days we donât do thatâŚwe help each other pick up the pieces and move forward.
Thank you thank you ⌠just trying to shed light on the fact that it doesnât matter how long youâre sober for, we can fall down that hill quick & fast.
And of course thereâs nothing wrong with kind and loving support. That doesnât necessarily mean it has to be a sponsor though.
Guess thatâs the ever returning discussion⌠but keep in mind many recovered wiyhout the NA / AA program, so none of it has to be a 100% requirement.
That being said, it depends of course from person to person. I still go to meetings, but without having a sponsor. I prefer to listen and contemplate on what others share. That, for me, is my main working material of understanding how addictions affect me.
Comparing that to a simular contemplating on what others autists experience, is my best way to figure out where my limitations are.
On a sidenote though, I should add I think this road takes longer. Especially insight on relations took me a long time, which partly might have gone faster with a sponsor. But itâs not a race
Another side note should be, having (or being) a sponsor would be difficult when youâre half of the year away
Checking in clean and sober 8 11/32 M AF.
Quiet Friday night here, Iâll do a walking meditation w traffic safety. Wishing everyone a pleasant weekend đ§ââ:hugs:
1426 days ago I was halfway through a 5 lb trigger pull from taking my own life. My wife saw me walking past the sliding glass door and came out screaming NO, NO, NO. I am so blessed with my new lease on life. I promised myself I would never let myself get to that point again. I have worked my butt off getting my mental health in a better place. It hasnât been easy, but I have never gotten to the point where I wanted to take my life again. Addiction was such a cunning enemy, and had me convinced the only solution was the ultimate solution, a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
I think of all the people who would have been devastated if I had finished squeezing that trigger. My wife without a husband, my kids without their father. No longer a son, grandson or brother. One selfish act would have destroyed the lives of so many people.
If youâre struggling with mental unhealthiness, tell someone, and get help. There is no situation that is so bad that taking your life will improve.
1022
Coffee. New workweek. Would have preferred some more time in bed but here I am. Sober and clean. Feeling so much better as I would have felt 1023 days ago at this time of day.
Have as good a weekend as you can friends. Make it clean and sober because thatâs the only way for us all. Love from Holland.
@mleclaire Very glad to see you here Emilie. And thanks for the share. Just like Iâm glad to see @Wunderbar Chad here this morning. Thank you both for reminding me what a cunning, treacherous and murderous foe addiction is.
When he was large enough, he was even able to jump from the floor to the top of the door as a young adult (and let me tell you, walking into a dark room and not expecting a meow to come from above you will get your heart racing!).
Congratulations on your 3 years and 3 weeks !!! 
