Checking in day 69! Proud of how far I’ve come and what I’ve achieved in these 69 days. Definately don’t want to go back to drinking now I can see how much time and effort was being wasted hung over or drunk. Woke up this morning and found myself thinking about some of my really poor behaviour when I was younger and drinking loads (like early 20s) I still feel shame and bad about it even though I was so young then. Just sad thinking about the things, relationships that have been lost or ruined because of past behaviour. Even though when I look back I can just see how scared and traumatised I was, and the drinking was a way of dealing with that. Anyway the only thing that makes things feel ok is saying that I don’t drink now. That’s not me anymore, and I need to make damn sure it never is again! 
Happy Saturday everyone hope you all have a healthy sober day 
*Day 1284 
Goodmorning!
State of mind: could be better
Still on “work in progress” for getting my tattoo fixed. Also still in progress with a loved one because of a big disagreement. So emotional somehow unstable, but doing good enough according the circumstances
What helps me is walking because that keeps me more grounded and venting.
I know drinking isn’t going to help but I have more cravings these days.
Today I’m going to work and before that I do my walk. Gratefull I live near a nature protected area.
Picture is from my favorite tree. I make a picture of it every day when I’m passing it. It presents who I am for me.
Have a great weekend all of you!
Day 186 checking in 
Day 111 check in it’s a work weekend as usual but all good we sober we winning. Hope everyone has a great day take care and stay safe. Peace
Good morning - checking in day 6.
Last night was hard again when my son and husband came home. I was very intensely irritable. I WFH, and I don’t get a transition time to decompress between “work” and “after work”. So I got from calls, meetings, emails straight into mom-mode, all in the same location. I know this isn’t new and a lot of people are in the same situation, but my decompression was normally drinking as soon as I could to reset modes.
My son always comes home from school super energetic and just wants to play everything. I always used alcohol even as my social, fun lubricant to get into play mode.
I have so much guilt cause I snapped and yelled at my son last night. He only wanted to play! He only wanted to share experiences with me. And I didn’t have the capacity. Cause I’m fighting my addiction, and the mom-guilt is real.
I need to get my emotions under check. They never really have been. I’ve always been known as the emotional, sensitive person. (Which has been an excise for my narcissistic husband to gaslight me - but more on that another day). But I need to balance and not explode and not resort to drinking when I’m frustrated. It’s not teaching any positive behaviors to my son. He’s my mini-me and he’s already tuned into my frustrations and explosions.
But…. Nonetheless she persisted…… I’m here waking up sober for day 6.
Today will be busy with swim, tee-ball and a kids bday party.
Happy sober and healing day TS! 
Day 592
The kids are away at karate camp for the weekend. Very quiet, and I am hoping they are enjoying themselves. Am using the time to watch the newly released season two of Bridgerton 
. Will have to be more productive tomorrow.
This is absolutely gorgeous and so beautiful it’s a representation of you and your sobriety. Thanks for sharing!!
I got a few episodes in last night! Trying to not instantly compare it to season 1.
@Tomek you’re a name I remember when I was first on TS 1/1/21. So glad to see that you’re at 500+! You’ve put in the work and are a testament to one day at a time. I’ve reset and am so happy to be back with the TS community. Just had to say hello and great to see you!
@AllyP is there no way you can build in some time between the “work” and “mom” stuff ? It doesn’t have to be long, just a few minutes can actually be enough.
When I am overstressed or overstimulated, switching between tasks can also be difficult. At those moments I take 3 minutes “in between” time just to follow my breathing, and to (literally) tell myself I finished oie thing and am about to start another. May sound somewhat silly, but it helps switching.
And it takes only a few minutes. It’s always possible to tell your kid you’ll be there for him in a few minutes, so try it 
The best part about it is, if you have other people around that may disturb you, you can simply go to the toilet for a short meditation and switching roles or tasks !
@Misokatsu the kids at karate camp Fleur, is it that serious ? You sent them there to train, one for a left-nut-kick and the other for a right-nut-kick ? 
Hey all, checking in on day 650. I hope everybody has a good one!
Happy Saturday morning to all of you. It is very cold and overcast here in Wisconsin. Spring is really being stingy right now.
I am home from the little vacation to the ozarks. It was pleasant and relaxing. We only had good weather for two days. We made the best of it. I successfully made it through a second vacation with no alcohol. Woohoo!
I did a lot of reading this week, both fiction and non-fiction. Reading has always been a favorite pleasure and it is even more enjoyable now that My mind is always free.
Some of my reading is of some Buddhist writings by contemporary teachers. I am exploring this and continue to seek mental and spiritual peace. Now that I’ve been sober for several months, my bigger challenge in finding deep peace is no longer hidden behind my chronic hangover. This is good. But it is not easy.
I’ve had lots of therapy. Maybe I will need more. Im interested in feeling acceptance and closure of the pain from my childhood. Im tired of thinking about it and analyzing it and processing it. Ugh. It was a long time ago and I have a wonderful life now.
So I’m working on peace. Bit by bit, another project that is one day at a time.
I’m not Religious, so studying how people think and what they have learned, is my guidepost for this work.
Im open to suggestions of books and writers that have helped others.
Thanks for reading and I wish you all a great day.
Hello all, checking in on Day 49 here. I am running on excitement at the moment as just watched my daughter’s football (soccer) match. She scored a wonder goal that turned the game around. So, so proud of her. She got player of the match and most importantly has found her thing.
It is sunny here and we are about to go to a family party. Should be reasons to relax and celebrate, but all these things are massive triggers for me. I need to stay strong! Like my awesome daughter 
@LAB - I understand that you are not religious, however, Pastor Joel Osteen uses a lot of cognitive behavioral theory in his messages.
Give him a try, listen to a sermon on SiriusXM or podcast if you are open?
Checking in on day 42. Sober. Even though I’d love to start drinking right now at 2 in the afternoon…
Being a musician (guitar player) and a Foo Fighters fan, my morning was awfull. The moment I got on Facebook I saw the news that Taylor Hawkins had unfortunately died. And that hit me and so many other fans and admirers Very hard.
I really feel for everyone in his family and in the foos family. This is a great loss.
All of that grabbed me by the balls today. I’d love to have a few drinks and let it all soake in. But that’s not a good idea.
So that’s my check in for today. Thank you for reading this. I had to get all of this off my chest. I’m drinking lot’s of water at the moment and trying to keep my head straight.
Have a great sober saturday!
Yep, wax on-ing and wax off-ing for two days.
Day 13 here. Saturdays are extremely tough since I usually started drinking by 11 A.M.
I’m going to a meeting this morning instead. I’m putting in the work!
Now, I’m in my listening room, burning incense and relaxing. Jazz is on the turntable ~
