Checking in 3 weeks sober !
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Checking in
Day40!!
Super stoked and happy to be hitting Day 40 lol everytime that first number changes Iām excited! Itās sooo weird bcuz once I got passed that continuous 3 day relapse point, then to 10, then 25 (slipped), then reached 25 againā¦ I have kept going! Itās gotten slightly easier to be clean each day. I do get super down somedays, but the tools are slowly becoming easier to use when im craving. I know itās very early still and I wont get cocky or too confident bcuz I do realize that all it takes is one. But stillā¦ Im really proud of myself and my hubby. Itās incredible what I have learned in these past 40 days! Over 22 years of seeking help and attempting recoveryā¦ I honestly would have to say (for me), the true missing key was my HP (who I call God). Thatās been the biggest difference. That and of course my TS fam! ā
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Kat here checking in on Day 234
@Butterflymoonwoman huge congrats on 40 days my heart is bursting with joy for you 
My 15-year-old is over for the weekend even though Iām working, he is ok on his own. Well, we were talking about his adhd medication which I used to steal and abuse, and I decided it was time to tell him most of the truth about the past 6 years.
The kids are confused because I had a great job as a nurse, top of pay scale, unionized etc. $44 Cdn an hour. I explained to my son that instead of getting help from a social worker or therapist for my workplace PTSD I had chosen to use the copious amounts of drugs available at work.
He said he understood and I explained what drugs do to a person and how often you canāt stop and how it just begins with 1 or just using in the weekend and grows to every day.
I also told him after I lost my job I kept relapsing on another type of drug but that I was working very hard, going to Narcotics Anonymous, and that I had been not using drugs for almost 8 months. I said I was sorry. He said he was just glad that I was well now.
I am glad to have told him the truth because he is getting to that vulnerable age where kids start experimenting.
Sorry this was so long but it was a big thing to tell him.
Love and have a great sober Saturday
Kat
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. Congratulations Dana!
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@kat261 i admire you for sharing and for having an honest conversation with your kid. They are so receptive and a real
Conversation can travel miles.
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Awe Kat this mustāve been hard, but also have given u sp much relief.Ur heart mustve been racing while telling him, wondering what heād say. Iām incredibly proud of you tho. Itās tough being a kid nowadays ya know? Not like when we were kids. And its good for him to know that he can come to u with any issue. I really think that ur bond grew stronger by this conversation 
way to go!
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Thank u soo much!!! 
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Day 652 clean and sober today. Getting stronger every day physically mentally and emotionally. Have a great day everyone, love you guys! 
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BTW. Thatās me hugging you 
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You are doing so well Dana and I love that background for your days counter thingy!!!
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Day 13. I am tired, went to the gym and back home I just broke into tears. This is so exhausting. I donāt want to drink, Trying hard.
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I love this!!! Thank u HUGE hugs back my friend!!!
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Awe thank u my friend Thank u SO much! I get my backgrounds off of wallpapers apps for my phone I change then up often. I like the live ones (not for TS cuz u canāt use live wallpapers on here), but for my phone. I love rain so I like the live water droplet ones 
I sometimes just look at them, they calm me too when Iām anxious
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Iām glad you shared that experience with us and were able to be totally honest with your son. Thatās a really hard thing to do. I love that he said he was just glad that your are well now. That made me feel emotional (in a great way)
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Iām so proud of you and thank you so much for inspiring me! I really liked reading how you kept making it a little bit further each time. It helped me feel more hopeful because I slipped on day 24 but I know I can reach it again and go even further.
Thanks for all you share and how much you care
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Thank you so much girl! Iām so very proud of you too literally I feel like I have just been learning something new everytime I fell. Obviously itās best not to fall but it happens and we just get back up! Hope ur day is amazing!
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Way to go!!
Hey, tomorrows your two weeks! I see you and your exhaustion. But two weeks is huge. And you went to the gym!
Cry when you have to, I have many times this weekā¦a thousand times more healthy than drinking.
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Day 128
Just checking it. Started the day with a farmers market and a Philly cheesesteak from a farmer. Omg. Went back for a double cheeseburger for my wife of course. Have a great day everyone!
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Depression and adhd are making me a lump. Nobodys gonna save me but myself right now.
However something big in my life is I got a car. Havent had one since the one I had for 9 months was totaled years ago. Was always scared and broke to get another one. But the stars aligned and it happened and it feels right to be 3 weeks sober today for it.
Very scared. Im a nervous driver. And all the new costsā¦but I can be more independent, and sober and safe driving, and go on hikes, and help people with rides who need them.
On the brink of a lot of changes. Want to sit and curl up and hide. But nobody is going to pull me out of my own shit, and if I expect that, people will continue to leave one by one.
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