Congratulations, Dana! 
Sober time is piling up so quickly 
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Thank you so SO much!!! It baffles me honestly. I wouldāve NEVER thot id make it to 40 days. But it is getting easier at times to just keeping adding on those days! Iām grateful for you and grateful for others on here. TS has truly made such a huge difficulty my life!!
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Hello Guys. Yesterday was the 7th anniversary of my Momās death. It was day 8 for me, badly wanted to get much vodka and beer but fought. We went to the church. My son volunteered to read, thatās huge because he is shy. I was so proud of him. Going home we were passing by a pub I used to visit regularly. Did not enter. I cried myself to sleep. 10 years ago, when Mom was diagnosed with a terrible, fatal disease ALS, I chose alcohol to ease the emotional pain. This morning I was super irritable and made my husband upset, usually I start drinking at 7 am on Saturdays, for hangover relief after Friday night. Day 9, I feel overwhelmed but stay sober. My father drank himself to death 12 years ago, I choose not to follow his way. Sadly, on my fatherās side they were all chronic alcoholics, my father, his brother, their father. All died young. Sorry for the sad stuff. I will be back in better mood soon for sure.
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That is super strong! Going through all these unpleasant situations and feelings that come with it 
and itāll help you to let them go, sober, easier and feeling better afterwards. Not sad and guilty.
Thatās really a great step!
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Checking in on day 24.
Feeling much brighter today after being a bit low yesterday. I got a really good sleep last night so that helps. I managed to go on my rowing machine for 20 minutes this morning and then out to the shops in the lovely spring sunshine.
I had 5 cans of craft beer in my cupboard that were weighing on my mind. I decided to bite the bullet and pour them away. That means there is no alcohol in the house at all. Itās crazy the arguments that go round your head for keeping a hold of something like that, but ultimately if itās in the house Iām likely to drink it at some point.
Iām going on a weekend break with a couple of friends in June, which Iām looking forward to, but Iād like to have a plan in place for when they decide to order a nice G&T. Thankfully neither of them is the type to put pressure on me to drink so thatās good.
Still looking through this site a fair bit as Iām finding it really helpful still.
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Wow Kat that conversation took a lot of courage. Iām really happy that it went so smoothly for you. Big hugs.
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Take it easy. āYou didnāt become addicted in one day, so easy does itāā¦hope youāre chilling this evening. Be good to yourself, give yourself a chance 
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@felipeandrews ~ give yourself some credit. We are both on day 13. It is hard. Trust your HP and have faith my brother!
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Irritability is normal especially on day 8 and with that anniversary.
I had a week of irritability and then brainfog and now i am depressed.
But day 8 is amazing!! Its worth keeping up 
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Thank you!
YES!!! WAY TO GO!!!
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Checking in on 22 days 
The urge to get some alcohol fades and I become more calm again. Missed that feeling.
Have a beautiful sober day team 
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Checking in
Day40
Feeling very grateful and peaceful today right now. Yesterday I was SO busy. My routine was off and I didnāt sit down to have that time to pray or meditate or even do self care. Honestly, looking back now, I see why yesterday was a rough day for me. Just feeling down and comparing myself and some self pity. Not only that but I got some crappy news about my hopeful tax refundā¦ which there will be none 
so that bums me out for getting my hair done for my recent 1 month clean date. And then my hubby and I have to now have to find a way to pay for his dentures in a couple weeks.
Ill be honestā¦ a small thought popped into my head about sex work and fast money bcuz I was initally feeling a bit stressed for money. Especially with also getting a ātalkā yesterdat by my folks about how much money we owe I hate money talk but it is necessary sometimes. And truly since we have been clean our finances have changed dramatically!!
Anywayā¦ today I did my prayer and chatted with my HP. I felt bad for not connecting yesterday, but my goodnessā¦ what a feeling of peace I have right now. My HP doesnt give anything that I cant handle. My HP does incredible things. I wish I could tell my stubborn brain to seek my HP 1st when Iām distracted with negative emotion or resentment or whatever bcuz truly my HP āfixesā my thinking and inner feelings. Every single time. The situation doesnāt always change but how I feel about it and how I feel inside does. Grateful to be staying on the right path. But it truly is crazy how my mind jumps to old behaviours even after years of being away from it. Like whatās up with that?! Lol Loving the sunshine today from my building. The rays are beautiful!
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(tears) That was so beautiful and authentic.
Thank you for sharing
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Day 1 ending. Again starting but not giving up .
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Had a little leaving do today as it looks like our house move is very nearly about to happen.
I was quite nervous about it and couldnāt put my finger on why. I realise that it was because I was worried not that many people would be there. Being confronted with the fact that I have made very few friends here over the last 10 years. It makes me realise that I still have work to do on being comfortable with who I am and focusing on being grateful for what I have, rather than judging myself by some imagined standard of what I should be i.e. universally liked and unexplainably popular 
That being said I had a lovely time. A few hours in the pub with some live music and lovely people. Not a boozy crowd so all very civilised, out at 2pm and home by 6:30.
If I was still drinking there probably would have been a bigger crowd. All the pub connections that have drifted away over the last few years. I probably wouldnāt have spent much or any time talking to the people that were there today, who are the ones that wanted to be there to say goodbye, the ones I will really miss. And I definitely wouldnāt be in bed at 10:30!
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Glad you had a good time! Congratulations Thanks for sharing this, Iām relating a lot at the moment to losing them pub friends and other similar types of people. Iām not lonely for it but deffo more alone if that makes sense.
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638 days sober and clean. With more sunlight I am also feeling lighter. I am doing what I can and tsking care of myself. Have been social, very proud of myself 
still also boundaries in place, for example today had people over at our place and even though i had fun and people were trying to get me to join to go dancing, I said no, I just wanna go to bed, read and sleep. They accepted it and we enjoyed our time together. People werenāt drunk, just a couple of beers and had really good conversations with everyone. I did not feel tempted at anypoint, but still had to check in since these are the moments to never let my guard completely down with alcohol. I am sober and I love it
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A big congratulations to you on making it to 40 days!
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