I celebrated Easter with my son so that was awesome. The whole weekend was actually fine, I went to a meeting and decided to go there regularly and also to work with a sponsor.
Worked for a while this morning, now fanatically reading the NA book I bought yesterday. Together with my dog haha she has a toy demolition addiction oh yes and a food addiction so she can read with me😂
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Hey guys. Its day 36.
Had a nice day today. Gym session was good.
Have a great day guys. Stay safe.
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Checking in
Day 63
Very busy day today. Getting a lot done of my list that needed to get done. Trying to remember to take breaks tho so I don’t get overwhelmed or stressed. I did my workout this morning, did my womens prayer group via zoom, am currently doing some cleaning of random things that I don’t usually get to on a daily basis, and have been eating fairly well today. I’m tired tho and it’s 110pm lol I’m feeling very blessed today and grateful! Am super grateful for getting thru this past fri-sun with all the events happening, holidays, and crazy work scenerios. Love u all!
Hope everyone has an addiction free day!
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Good to see you here, Mike. It can be a struggle to find providers, whether it’s psych or therapy or even primary care, I’ve definitely been there. All I can say is you gotta be persistent and don’t let the frustration get you to the point of giving up. I used to work in breaks, I’d make a couple calls and walk away from it for a bit before trying again so I wouldn’t just throw my hands up and say fuckit. Hang in there.
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Checking in, still alive, and sober.
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Thank you so much for being here. 
I hope you’re having a great time on holiday. Thanks for the pictures!
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This is how my week started! Apparently it is the transmission! So I am waiting for my dad to pick me up to go get a rental car.
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Hi Mike, welcome back on the sober path! While you find a therapist, keep checking in with us, or get on that treadmill to get rid of tension and bad vibes!
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Day 209 checking in 
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Hey everyone. Day 7. Was able to avoid the cravings last night! Woke up feeling sick though for some reason, made a slow start to my day. Once I got going though I have been powering through with not a thought of a drink. Now though, I got through a lot of stuff and now have some down time. My mind is racing, I’m feeling down and depressed, just lots of emotions running through me right now. I am literally pacing back and forth in my apartment as I right this just trying to break through to happier thoughts. The weather isn’t making it easy as the storm clouds came in, it’s supposed to rain all night. I’m thinking of going to bed early tonight to just try to get through the rest of the day. I’m staying away from the alcohol today though. I will not drink today. I will wake up for day 8 tomorrow. Hope you all have a good one.
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Day 45
It was a good day. I cleaned my balcony, planted some flower seeds and did my workout.
I finally continued reading A new earth from Eckart Tolle and wow, my brain 
A lot to think about and to reflect about. That’s good.
Have a beautiful sober day team 
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doing great! Keep it up. I’m on 229 days now so it’s almost the same. I hope you experience such a nice recovery asswell!
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Hiya. I’m glad to see you. I read your stories and always feel the anxiety and disappointment in them. You are so brave and you’re here.
As far as therapist go, I would recommend someone that does CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) if you’re looking to understand patterns and how to change them. If you feel your using is a result of trauma you could try someone who does EMDR. It was wholly painful for me (both cbt and emdr) but they did help.
I wish you peace today.
Day 109 for me.
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Hi there good to have you here!
The first few weeks are always the worst. Depending on the amount you have taken, of course, after the first week it will normally be much better every day. If you do a little reading on this forum you can see that there are many people who have had exactly the same problems as yours but who have been sober for a long, long time now. Sharing and asking for advice is part of recovering, so you’ve already taken a very good step. Respect! I know, it all sounds easy and you’re having a hard time right now but really, it gets better! Keep asking for help.
And, we didn’t become addicted in 1 day, so we can’t expect to get rid of it in the same period of time. Give it time. One day at a time!
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Nine days in, lovely three days away. Remained happily sober despite the few pangs and cravings…
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Hit a real low point back at home today. Didn’t feel good, felt hungover (???)… So bizarre, it’s like the depression of a post bender Sunday. I almost can’t believe I’m 9 days sober with how I feel today! Back to work tomorrow after such a lovely break away. Maybe it’s a low mood. Have hydrated and watched a couple of my favourite comedy series. Off to bed. ODAAT.
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Glad you had a good break and sorry about the post-holiday blues. Sounds like you are doing all of the right things.
Congratulations on making it to 9 days while on holiday, really impressive!
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Thanks Jenny! Even managed a waltz around the booze aisle of Lidl by accident!! It was lovely, had a couple of Guinness 0.0 but mainly tea tea and more tea. Am actually proud of myself as holiday would normally signify a Carte Blanche for massive excess. It was truly very calming and centering to be present and on a level.
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Sorry you’re feeling that way. I hope you can sleep well. Maybe try doing a guided meditation? They really do always seem to help me.
Here’s a guided meditation I really like♥️
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