Checking in daily to maintain focus #43

[Matt]

Glad to hear it. Learning is a nice feeling, because we’re working on something, getting better at something. That is helpful & it feels good. (I feel that way when I’m cooking a new recipe & using a new technique or a new ingredient. It’s satisfying.)

[Its_me_Stella]

Welcome back.

[Butterflymoonwoman]

Glad ur back

[Its_me_Stella]

Checking in…
Substance free for 891 days
Self injury free for 410 day
Sugar free for 27 days

Quick check in before I head out to yoga. About a month ago I had a little ego flare up, alot of self-deprecating, self defeating thoughts revolving around this one member in NA. She has over 30 years clean and for some reason I felt like she didn’t like me. Well… it wasn’t for no reason. I had sent her a Facebook friend request and she had not accepted it then of course I had gotten in my head about it and we all know how that goes. I looked at what was happening in my head and recognized it for what it was asking myself some very simple questions.

• What have I done to her for her not to like me?

• What has she said to me for me to come to that conclusion?

The answer to both of those were nothing so I approached her at a meeting asking her for a hug and she happily embraced me. After that meeting I asked her if she would like to go for a coffee sometime and she excitedly accepted. So today that’s what I will do, go for a coffee with a woman who I do not know and who does not know me. Like what the fuck… my head can really get crazy sometimes.

In recovery I have learned that having a little courage can help me overcome insecurities so I try my hardest to be brave when I can. Humility, we are all the same, just a bunch of addicts learning to live. One day at a time.

[Butterflymoonwoman]

Morning Check in
Day 113
Actually woke up feeling half decent. Have a few things to do today. Nothing major. I am really struggling to get my butt out of bed in the mornings for exercise. I am really getting concerned about my weight and potential health issues. I’m 37 but heart conditions run in my family as well as diabetes, so I just feel like I need to get in gear with this before it gets really bad. I don’t understand why I wait until things get sooo bad to so something about it. Addict thinking on extremes? Idk lol but I need to address this. Of course I’d feel like I look better and feel better but my big concern is health issues. I will be talking to my Dr next week… maybe get a blood test done or something to see if everything is good that way. I used to avoid blood tests bcuz I constantly had drugs in my system and I often wondered if it would throw off results or idk. So now that im clean I’m actually kind of excited to get a test done and maybe get in to see a nutrionist and whatnot. My focus isn’t on drugs and getting high anymore. Now my focus is on improving my life. And I feel like I’m able to do that now
Hope everyone has an addiction free day!

[Twizzlers]

Thank you yayyyy

[Dazercat]

Three

250’s!!!

Wow that is so cool! Way to go Twizzle.
I’m lovin that.
I’m glad you’re feeling better. Definitely treat yourself.
I’m glad your here.

[Twizzlers]

Thank you that gif has me laughing out loud, flash backs of good memories and celebration of 250 days. That felt good to laugh thank you.

Couldn’t of done it with out you all.

[Wesdoeshair]

I’m on day three! I got through the hardest part for me
Which was my deciding to start while out of town! I’m back home and I’ll don’t have any trips for two weeks. The next one is vegas so I know that’s going to be hard

[AKB]

Day 11, work has been really hard and I almost broke down yesterday but today is a better day. Keep moving forward we got this

[Twizzlers]

We are the same age

Yes definitely speak with your dr.
For me getting sober also made me worry about health issues, I thought I had so much wrong.
I’m pretty sure my Liver was just on the verge of no return but I had bloods done recently and all was ok, i honestly believe that my body was lucky to heal itself if I’d have had the test done when I stopped it would have shown the damage. That’s what scares me and is motivating to keep sober too. I dont think I have a next time.
I do hope it’s ok for you, try not to let it be all you think about I know it’s scary and easier said than done.
So proud watching you blossom and follow your sobriety. Congratulations on your 113 days, I think I congratulated earlier with the a day or 2 behind - apologies x

[Twizzlers]

Huge congrats on your 3 days, I knew you could do it. As for vegas have a plan, you know how a bad day can go so use past experience of this to put things in place to help you through. Like having your own drinks you enjoy with you, or knowing which you will have if out, also an escape plan if it gets too much. I’d spend some time using the search bar and reading older posts about people who manage to get through it even in tricky environments.

Edit: I typed in the search bar :
tips for staying sober when out

And lots came up hope this helps

[maxwell]

Hi, checking in halfway through day 2. A lot of sadness, didn’t sleep well but I expected that. I get lonely, then I don’t leave the house except to take Max out. It’s all so overwhelming. I’m working so that keeps my mind busy some. I ordered a new book, Allan Carr’s stop drinking for woman. I will check in later. I love all the milestones on here, no matter how big or small. Keeps me going knowing there’s so many going through the same stuff.

[Twizzlers]

Your doing so well, I really hope you feel better and get a better sleep tonight.
Here if you need me

[maxwell]

Thank you! And wow, 250 on 3 things at the same time. That is amazing, you’re a Superstar! I quit nicotine around 15 years ago, and cocaine and other drugs even before that. But alcohol has always been in my life, it’s my Nemesis.

[Staringupfromthewell]

Day 18 - Well I made it another day. It started with a really dark cloud over my head. I was physically, mentally and emotional drained, but through talking on this forum, talking to my flat mates and letting work know that I am having a rough time I have ended the day feeling much better.

I am back at the old house tonight, looking after the kids as my ex is out. I am staying over which is lovely as I get to spend some extra time with the kids. Every time I am back here though it is mixed emotions. I’m happy to be with the kids but this place brings out so much stress in me. It can feel very triggering.

I am listening to how I feel though and I am busy packing my possessions away to store in the shed until I get my own place. It’s a small bit of progress but it’s progress none the less.

If I make it to Day 19 it will be my longest streak since reinstalling the app. My best run ever is 41 days (I think). This time though it’s not about the amount of time I am clean (though hopefully it is for good) I am focusing more on how I feel on the inside and opening myself up to those feelings. I know it’s not for everyone and everyone has to find their own way to get through this. But it seems to be working for me.

[Butterflymoonwoman]

Thank u so much for ur comment and I can’t believe I missed ur post 10 hours ago!!! How cool is this?! A huge congratulations on 250 days clean and sober and being nicotine free! Wow!!!

[Noshame]

On day 63 clean and sober
Feeling strong

Have a good day everyone

[Dazercat]

Checking in
2 years
5 months
5 days
2 grand babies on the way
That’s a cool number 2552.
Yep I’m going to be Grampy 2 X’s
My daughter called us yesterday and they are due in January. My son’s wife is due Mid July.
I know it’s ODAAT……
But I’m so happy I’ll never have to think how many have I had or plan my drinking around my grandchildren. I couldn’t do it for my parents. I couldn’t do it for my kids. But I can do it TODAY.
Fucken Aye!!!

[Bluekoolaid]

219

Very happy to say I got my offer letter for the loan processing job . I never had a official job offer like this before. My first day is tomorrow and I believe mostly I will be training to learn the computer more then anything…

To be honest I feel very alone on the accomplishment and the people closest to me have done everything to bring me down or tell me what I can’t do. Literally saying you can’t do this job. What’s the point? I came to the hardest realization of my life and that is my whole entire family is toxic. I don’t know if they will get help and I cannot compromise my recovery. I hate that I have had to depend on family for so long… if you treat me bad and mix me up then call me crazy for feeling or talking … what is that? I thought that I could come home and things would be different. My family had the drinking to hold over me for so long and now they don’t have that excuse. I’m clearheaded and I know my memories. I have an appointment on Monday to start talking to a professional about these things. I made the mistake of trying to talk to my dad about this and he threatened to have me committed… I want a professional to be there so they can’t do what they usually do to me. If anybody has dealt with these similar things I’m talking about and how to not personalize and heal … Please don’t hesitate to reach out to me for advice.

This is a journey . This is a process . The devil is always trying but I’m pushing back with God. I want to thank this community for allowing me to talk freely. I have nothing to hide… No matter what I don’t drink. This is my only real goal every day … I hope everybody stays strong. I know that we are all going through strange times and trying to understand everything. I know that I am not alone