Day 206 here. Gosh, I haven’t been on here in some time.
I miss all the wonderful peeps Ive met on this app.
Started working with my Sponsor on the NA step workbook. Very different than Celebrate Recovery. Grateful to be part of the solution today.
I had to cut ties with my best friend as he is still using. It was the most difficult thing to do because he isn’t mean, he isn’t crazy… He is just still choosing speed over a healthy life and who am I to force anyone into my lifestyle?
I am working for Recovery Homes and I am a peer/recovery Coach and I sleep, eat, breath, live in recovery. What kind of integrity would I have if I kept a friend in my inner circle who still shoots dope in his veins?
I’m torn because I adore this man and at the same time I can not be in agreement with his disease and his addiction.
It’s messy and the one thing I’m understanding and learning to accept is my powerlessness over EVERYTHING except my ability to make choices.
I love working with people and hearing their stories and helping guide, lead and cheerlead others toward their goals and success.
I’m honored to be where I am today.
I have so much more to learn and grow and yet…I am good just where I am right now, in thos moment.
Another week down. Fairly calm home life right now. My son’s meltdowns seem to have calmed down, he is caring a little more about his grades, but still cares mostly about playing guitar. I have also tried to ease off. Daughter is usual active and determined self. Husband has been thanking me almost daily for doing the kids’ homework checking, place taking, etc.
Nice to see you checking in and congrats on your 206. It Sounds like you keep doing the next right thing. I love reading that in people.
As tough as that decision you had to make with your friend who is still using. It’s a no brainer. You made the right decision. You can always continue to pray for him. And you never know……. Some day…… but it must have been very hard.
Keep up the good work.
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Finishing my coffee. Going to Haarlem now, to visit the Museum of the History of Psychiatry. Never been there, a bit of a omission from my education as a mental health nurse. And my own history of mental health problems.
Meeting my therapist yesterday was tough. But good and necessary. We decided to keep seeing each other regularly for the time being, until we find an open spot in a suitable therapy group that deals with my abuse issues. I can’t do it all alone. And with some stuff I need professional help. That’s fine. One day at a time.
Have as good a day as you all can friends. Make it sober and clean or nothing will come of it. Love from Amsterdam and Mt. Adams September 2018. Was thinking about that trip. Good memories.
Day 3 is harder than yesterday. It’s the feeling of looking forward to have a drink. Though I always had regret it. I am grateful that I can notice that feeling and I decided to replace this. I will make my hair looking good as I can before my boyfriend will come tonight. And not to offer him immediately wine so he can’t smell (for sure he smelled it) that I already had some glasses. Sounds pretty bad, but that’s the way it has been. To be honest.
Good morning Kat here checking in. Day 2! Making it a priority to check in here daily as it was when I was doing well. Plan on doing some step work today (I have to start over). 5 questions. Phone my sponsor. Clean the dishes and the floors.
In the meetings around my area, we also end with the Serenity Prayer. But, we all stand, join hands and someone starts by saying “To a God of your own understanding” and then we all then chime in together with the Prayer.
Give it some time and I’m sure you will find a sponsor… it took me a while also, but thats ok because it’s important to find someone who is the right fit/personality for you. You’ll know when you find her (hmmm is that a hugs emoji? You’ve probably had enough hugs for one day )
*edit to add sorry @Cjp I misunderstood which Prayer you were talking about, I was thinking of a different one.
Your intelligence, honesty, questioning, compassion and support for others is inspiring.
It has been an absolute pleasure, and learning experience, being able to share some of your journey.
Much respect.
Day 728 clean and sober today. I’m wide awake and was wondering why but I’ve been getting up at this time for work the last couple of days and it’s already automatic. They have me coming in at 2pm though to cover another shift instead of this morning sooooo yeah… I hope everyone has an amazing day today, love you guys!!!
Awww @AyBee you so made my day I love your words…don’t ever stop…really… I seriously couldn’t have done sobriety without this community
@Rockstar24777 thank you! I love all this love!! Big hugs
@anon74766472 thank you!!! Tis gets easier as time goes by and with TS love
@Misokatsu hands down year 2 is sweeter than year 1! As life gets better, it’s no coincidence that sobriety happened at the same time. I have identified so many personal issues and have been working on them Fleur. One can’t do that in active addiction so it’s been truly life changing Thank you!!!
@Dazercat donuts!!! Now I have to go and get me some I promise when I come see you next time, we’ll go for coffee and donuts k???
Insane how fast the week went, how can it be the weekend again already??
This week has actually been a pretty good week… my kids all seem to be in a happy place -this is unusual as there is often drama happening somewhere with one of them (let’s hope i haven’t jinxed it!).
I caught up with a friend today which was really lovely and I’ve also been working on abit of a vision board… kinda like pictures and words on things I want to explore/achieve between now and the next 12ish months. Next to it I’m writing lists that break these into short, medium and long term goals.
I feel like I’ve made big progress with my sobriety, mental and physical health, healing relationships with my kids, friends and family but the things that I want to do for me, my future, have kind of just been hovering and not going anywhere. It’s feeling like it’s time to get productive with that side of myself and move into the next phase… I love lists, visual reminders and planning lol so I’m really enjoying this activity. Looking forward to seeing what comes out from it all.
It’s a lovely morning here in Edinburgh feeling blessed today have a good day everyone
(hmmm is that a hugs emoji? You’ve probably had enough hugs for one day 
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I love your words…don’t ever stop…really…
